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Ya know, when you are in the direct experience, seeing the forms, considering and having to pivot in the moment, its a blinder, its like, you are limited by time, by how much you can think or say about whats going on, And as everyone else is sortve a conduit of that seed image in time, like sitting down at a dinner table to say grace, it gives the illusion of direct experience, otherwise we have nothing to call it ~ meaning dissolves in this moment, because Function and From is what sits at the top, Its only through contemplating that you bring meaning back into the fold to see if it was true ir not, to you, and to then, get a better sense of whether you shouldve shed yourself earlier, free'd of the experience, the cycle, assuming the dinner table was like, the wrong thing, for everyone. So in that sense, directly experiencing is never without its experiences, and thus its never without some sense of dissonant, like discordant sounds ~ towards a meaning of what happened, as it sits in reference to the thing thats doing the experiencing. If/when we are to eliminate all of those things, we can talk about it as if its not like, one successive relationship after another, but until then we have that problem to work out, this thing where we are using relationships w/ things to draw some semblance out of time and space, to produce, interpret and represent meaning. The form it takes is a form that we denote as meaning too, surely, its just wrapped up w/ the function and forms that we have better understanding of, in that moment. So ill stop there.

p.s. ElonGate is def available, or atleastz there arent any miscellany websites that come up

@cetus (cont.) i got a siq title for ya, something that maybe people will accidentally discover if they search "Elon" that is "ElonGate" (like "elongate") Cause back in the day, i accidentally discovered ebony through that same idea, searching the wrong thing. And assuming its not already taken, you can use that as a way to exploit the keyword machine. Oh shyt. yeo. bet, thatd be crazy. Yous all prolly live on the west coast and could easily find creators to make tons of crazy shyt... on the east coast, everyone hates me and no one is into art or drawing or anything.

I def like the look of ur work btw. its interesting. Also, i mentioned ebony, but i havent played it in while. But i def had a fondness for Ebony awhile back, as to me its like an art movement. But its so unknown, that its kindve a very quiet voice among the very loud voiced art of 2026 Where, now we really we need more of ANY art. Ebony art, fine art, doesnt matter... Text im also dabbling w/, like handwriting, cause thats a huge challenge for Ai, like authentic handwriting. And interesting art too of course.

@cetus that first one has got crazy Ebony vibes, like one of the lvls round maybe it was 20-30ish, somewhere in there (u prolly know idea wat im talkin bout)

Oh wow. O wait a minute. Do you know Ebony riddle game?

i try to wait til as late as humanly possible, in the grand scheme of time, As i think in like... in the global time, i dont want to inflict others, unless they want to live the life of not sleeping, And just doing 24 7 art / text ~or however yous might wanna think of it... Like i try to keep everything super specific, As that then acts as the interface towards understanding. Much like our body / identity has this reocurring element, thats there for (what we think is) either experiencing, or understanding, or something else. I guess it depends on what that flow of energy feels like, in a sense ~As far as what decision i am to make, or escape, etc.

Oh absolutely. alls i do is art, in some sense, but i just sortve, let the energy go alot right now, As i feel to much of it in this direction. This like, its like... finite scripting/programming (within English communicating) As i use sortve like, the text engine as a way to understand the... choice of region (in the art/game metaphor) ... if that makes sense. Like the text is my interface for everything else.

Ha. pretty perfect

@ElvisN Solve the issue a nother way, e.g., You can have local hallucinations, or global hallucinations. i only bring this up to point to a paradox of self, and how theres no way to draw a line, or separate "individual" (or shared, and/or group think) "hallucinations", from your own globally distributed hallucination realization, So you can talk about many things when talking about hallucination, but then it would not make sense from the global perspective, the globally produced vers., seeing as then, everyone should just say "its an hallucination" much like saying "its just all consciousness". Why not just get rid of that word, since its one of these base terms that dont signify anything else, besides for functioning as a local delusion. Try a different route around the issue, otherwise we are forcing the content of a locally-felt or sympathized delusion, onto the absolute perspective on consciousness. P.s. Understanding the little novel details and perspectives of the Absolute is something to aim towards, imo, as itll free you from being bounced between doublets of things. Consider the world could not exist as just a doublet, like... We clearly are not. Its a life-giving, life creating experience ~ Too much life, via those incessant differences in our life.

@ElvisN Meaning is a downstream phenomenon. So in further contemplating, the idea of hallucations and the validity of another being, etc., these are all secondary things, and relationship-dependent alongside thoughts, feelings, emotions and ideas. Your world view shapes it all at the forefront, and those imprecise layers are sortve subserviant to that primary directed flow, Which is to say, you build meaning from the question itself, like thats how it keeps changing, cause its not like its something set in stone, w/ one single conscious outlook. Nor is it something you can easily translate WHILE in the act of living it. You are finding "what works" and what doesnt, and trying to see from a more absolute perspective, such that it may broaden that whole limited, but necessary, conscious and unconscious experience. You are looking through the kaleidoscope window — looking for the right heirarchy on perception, like its the artist's challenge, Like how to understand whats happening, As it is happening, and theres absolutely alternate ways to get around that, to see it more clearly, or to feel what it is like, beyond settling on the simplicity of word:"hallucination", since its only a placeholder word towards an otherwise more truthful position, a felt-truth / positio youre most alignd w/ P.s. You might prefer to view as that, And thats fine. Its necessary. Thats something you use as a placeholder, a way to say something concrete in the moment. Because others will know *what you mean / or wat u meant to say, even though you may have ideas surrounding it or future ideas to connect back to it ~

Magic waterfall in time's space place. ∆s the windmill, for the mind of [us] specifically, yes? I make so specific. Magic hat that yous can try on off the rack.

^And if yous are into the idea but dont feel like investing in it too hard, For now, yous could use actualized for something like that, cause honestly theres so much crapola out there, i dont think we are gonna find many like, real, actual cooking enthusiasts who understand the idea, i mean, its incredibly simple: Food/cooking, herbs, plants, and like, technical discussions, like chemical things that you wouldnt have known -typeve things, discoveries ppls have made, stuff like that... flavor profiles, etc., Like hey, it could even turn intoa large part of what actualizing even means, in the future, cause what are we but the things we eat, right?

@everyone, Does anyone happen to know if theres a such thing as a "Food Alchemy" forum? One that isnt just like, "Der, here are cooking recipes" but rather like, intricate and delicate discussions around materials, chemicals, minerals, ingredients like herbs, plants, and these additives and such that you sometimes see... And how to cook, or diff methods, supplies, etc. Like, Technical food alchemy forum / but not reddit. And like i said, not just "Der, expert chefs, etc.", I wouldnt mind making the forum myself, Luke Warm Alchemy (i just made that up, thats not wat id call it) but yous get the idea... The reason being is cause, im real into like scientific lvl of food prep., however i dont really have enough $$$ to go hog-wild on it and try al sorts of things. Thats why i need one of yous to help me find a place for this, or make it and invite me. It could also include Psychedelics like DmtNexus, but obviously, that would be very minor, As the focus would be all about things like food, herbs, plants, and id even add all my Alchemy Latin to the page, cause why not, right? I added a bunch of esoteric books i read to Actualized book section, as i felt like it was a nice departure, a nice interlude into like, advanced meditations you might call it. Anyway. Thoughts?

Imagine we're in the gobberish / gibberish circumstances, of which we are simultaneously riding with and driving that thing that we are apart of~experiencing, which could be the case. It could be just one perspective away... take a break from it (or not, and instead, indulge it... however...) See that its a driven thing, atleast, and choose to take a break... Maybe wat you want is to drive the gibberish machine and fix your life, due to its descension into the aforementioned circumstances we find ourselves, then start defining what it is or, what this is (what even is that...?) Demonstrative or indefinite pronouns?, but what bout just the regular forms of "him, her, they, them..."... "that thing, this thing", like, if you are trying to nail it to the bulletinboard... Like if you have the technical name, now youd ask, what is it Actually?, What are you actually, And if thats not enough, what is anything, and how does it all happen? Like, when you think about the Amazon rainforest, and you see a frog jumping, or a big bug crawling, why dont you feel like youve also stumbled on a diamond (or something that makes you excited) or vice versa, why does finding treasure not feel like finding a frog in the Amazon rainforest? Like, thats another vers., of mind, and theres prolly many, the point is that you can start using things to exceed your expectations and anticipation around "that drab thing that exists in the future", As its only through the circumstances, the circumscript that we are to read from, that drab thing arise. Perspectives you imagine, may also be perspectives that you seek, but through time and space, we arent imagining or believing anything specific, explicitly, if its already there, literally — Like, if beliefs are already imagined, then its already literally there, i.e., the form of chairness is already there if its a chair. So why is the frog, or the form of frog in our mind, in our future, any different from the treasure that we want, in the future, referring to these thoughts we have, that exist temporarily or indefinitely ~n time or space, comparing em to other thoughts, or thoughts that exist literally? The form underneath is a felt-ness, and that sensuous reality is something we want to puncture, and things outside seem to do that, where etymological feeling space is met with the greater senses. Thats something to think about. Its called 'that truth that you find, that crazy, crazy reality that you find, which could be found or experienced anywhere, ~ its just a little something i was riffing on

(cont.) And it frustrating, cause we already went through what things and nothing was, only to realize now, theres really alot more ways that could be framed, details which stem on this question as well, and its quite frustrating.

What is a material thing? As it goes from a concept, a mental image, to a real, tangible thing, what then makes something physical? Like, when you have baby snakes born from little eggs, and at one time they were just baby sperm, prior to which they were baby protein or whatever else, what makes something physical as it goes from the conceptual forms to these physical ones we call the material world? Like how do you draw a line in the sand, in order to talk about form and whether its just an idea, or a physical one? Iask because, i wanted to redefine / redescribe ideas around a thing, as well as nothing, only to realize that it really stands on the fact that theres stuff that we refer to as \*mental and physical, and that is whats redefining our ability to talk about "things". Like, forget about the psychosis element that you feel, in living out a kind of felt~psyche, what even is the psyche, and what then nakes it a physical thing in material world? In a conceptual world, what makes something an idea? Like is there a clear line that makes those two things distinct? I ask for myself, not knowing what the answr is

Speaking of dreams, i just thought i should mention last nights, cause i found it to be impressionable (along w/ 3-4 other dreams that happened in sequence together) JC and his associate (John, or whoever was an adult male follower) were in my dream, but as regular people, two peas in a pod — Desert people, and not like, blown-way-outya-proportion people. And they were on a journey for, what i assume were hermetica, or they are just mystical teachings you might say, maybe what they did in the bible, which was sortve make it out to be "What JCs teachings WOULD have been, had he did <X>" kindve thing. So that was the first dream, just sortve two homies stepping on piss clams, rubbing sand on each other, talking to people as regular human beings, one on one, mostly traveling for these stories. No hanging involved. Then, we get to this second impressionable dream, which, when i woke i said, "Ah, this will be easy to remember", And now i forget, but it had something w/ language in it. I think. They were both total perspective flips, like... iuno, originally i woke up ~ forgetting the first dream, the JC thing, and only remembering the second. But now i forget the second and only remember JC's. P.s. it doesnt discredit history, its just a perspective switch, e.g. all of this can make sense, Galatians 2:7-9, Paul describes an agreed division of missionary focus, hes entrusted to teach the gospel to the Gentiles, and Peter is entrusted to teach the Jews, all accurate towards the idea — that free reign of influence that Jewish culture had, i.e. the names John, James, Peter... etc., Paul and Peter are retarded popular names, as both last names and first names, different versions. And everyone knows atleast 120 people w/ the name John, or it use to be like "meet my son John-John, and his fathers father John John the John from Jones and Johnville,..."

Did you know, when you dream, that dream isnt just like, unconscious mind jargon, like... Forget about how it compares to, "to be", "to become" and to exist for a moment, as just getting the pragmatics of "dreampt exp.," i think is gonna be important, because if you dont really understand "why", then it can become like, "Oh, Dreams are just the ability to shut down this part of your brain, so you dont experience this other, etc..." (insert-two-branches-of-interest, as i chose to explore a different path below, instead of the dreampt voice one...) In my experience, a significant part of dreaming is the body. Like, sure its a moment to forget concerns concerning the physical body, but its also an experience thats based on the physical bodies experience, which is actively being tested/stressed... To explain it in more detail, its that mystical layer that you veil over the mind, not mentioning to yourself the fact that you still have a body underneath, And what you dont realize is, the physical body sortve comes with you, no matter what, like its part of the cycle of experiencing, embedded in the mind, not as like "this is what i look like" per say, but the felt experience of the body is in there, to a significant degree. I would say, most dreams are actually a "dreampt experience of the spiritual body", and your assumed intellect and mind components are the parts you leave behind, Like the intellect is only needed, in as much as it can realize the problem. Like, i figured out, no matter what you do, you can never get a fixed-position in laying, in sleep that doesnt suck for your back / body. But then i fell asleep on the rim of my most comfortable chair (my butt and lumbar touching the rim, not my back, directly) and slowly slid down the rim throughout the night, never stressing any-on- part of my lumbar, back, etc., and at each interval of that felt-bodily experience (in dream) the dream received a moment, a chance to not suck. And it indeed did not suck ~ It was pretty good, excellent at each interval. Of course, nightmares are those that trap theirselves deep in the subconscious, so you would have to have many more nights of good dreams, to change the cycle of the dreaming. I mean, cycles, in general are embedded pretty deep, so its nice to be relieved of the duty of having to try your experience w/ all of those cycles. Like, you cant ever stop existing per say, but you do get a break if you give yourself a good mental and physical break, And that break can come in the form of a dream, so long as youve diagnosed some bodily issues, or any mental issues you yourself have like... But anyway... In that way, its not exactly straightforward to explain, as everyones existing in different moments w/ different dilemmas to solve. Not everyone has a comfy chair. But its an idea yous can apply, And start to think on more. P.s. I forgot i was gonna include something about the dreampt voice of your dreaming and the subconscious, but i totally forgot. Next time maybe.

Heres another weird one @30:00 (see video at the end) or somewhere around there, the idea of being dead, And being brought back to life, thats like a thing w/ maybe like an accident you got in, And like maybe you are at the hospital, and you come to, while in a hospital... but maybe you were inside of either a light, or it was just darkness... totally unconscious. But thats like, something very different, because you can just exist as your dream body, in that place of light or dark, assuming theres a space thats carved out in there, like assuming you arent leaving your body behind all the time, like, spiritually, its always w/ you, so maybe its like, just dont leave things that are necessary behind maybe? i dont know, its not like theres a way to measure it, or try to record or weigh it or anything, while in a dream. its just there. Iuno wat happens to your body on dmt either, but in my experience, the body, mostly, is like, prior to identity and mind and everything else, like its priority mail, even in abstract dreams of floating around its there, and watever happens in reality is rotated elsewhere, til you return. The light is the scary part, and like i said, i cant confirm wat that light is, as its more symbolic and dissolving, and has nothing to do w/ ancestors. Like its a Soul in itself or something, pure dissolve maybe, but if you get wrapped up in it, your getting cut up in a way, like its not gonna be very loving and caring if you are in between dark and light, And iuno, like, if you become a new person, in a new reality, then you just bypassed this light, so its not like you will have even seen it, like im saying, theres alot of little details that we dont understand, like alot of little details, And most ppl describe "dream experiences", but its not wat im tlking bout. im talkin bout a total flip-around of whats like, flipping the mainstream idea and possibility space around, and the concept of your body, and how its more like a traveler that doesnt end or begin

Oh no prob, ya wen i watch ur vid, it reminds me how important it is, its like, we been missing out o that little puzzle piece, or atleast i have, definitely.

Just to break a little into the God paradigms, The idea of God is also the assumption that God cannot be undone, like... unless your vers of God is really a hologram that has no authority over his hologram... Because..Think about it... There arent things that are totally agnostic and free from the turmoil of Earth, unless you imagine it that way, like, if you can imagine form, than that form can also be ignored, which means it was never God to begin with, otherwise God is the hologram with no dominion over this hologram. Like holograms have an unfortunate quality, that they dont represent theirselves in a direct way anyway, so the hologram is a reflection of what? Of a hologram? Of the God of hologram(s)? Why does god need a hologram? These are the kinds of questions to start to ask yourself.

dang it, i overwrote everything, fk it, doesnt matter, lol im not tryina remember it all again

@Joseph Maynor Oh btw, i thought of something you might find interesting. It might tickle your fancy, tho i wanna save it for tomorrow, after one of my appts... because its gettin a bit late noow to start throwing out all these ideas all of a sudden. Better to think of, tomorrow, a fresh day.

^Try to crack that egg.