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I'm grateful for: The sexual drive I have The love present in my relationship Subrenting my room (economic help) My mom taking great care of my dad My whole family! AI helping me for many things

🟢 GATEWAY EXPERIMENT - Advanced Focus 10 23/09/2024 10:50 DAY 8 Yesterday I listened to the third tape two times. It was not the best time, but also not the worst. It was not the best because I did it on the plane going to Brussels, but still I felt the good effects of it. My body was really relaxed, but of course, it could be better. Today I will do it later in the afternoon, and focus as much as I can, and try to get the best out of it! Today will be the fourth day of doing the third tape, and if I do it properly tomorrow I might continue with the next one. Today I might do it even two times. Let's see!

🟠 General health and emotions Yesterday I was really happy to see my girlfriend again. It was so nice to feel each other's warmth and feelings. We didn't sleep great because we haven't slept together in a long time, and the bed is not super big, but still it was really nice to wake up together! I have been feeling pretty tired lately, and I know that I travelled and haven't slept properly in some time now, but I decided to take some supplements. Today I bought magnesium and rhodiola. In the future I might start again with lion's mane mushroom and with microdosing. For not not, I need to settle more and better.

I'm grateful for: The great girlfriend I have My girlfriend accepting me the way I am Public transportation that help me to travel wherever Leo's teachings My drive for growth

⚫ Business beginning Currently travelling in the train towards Maastricht, the Netherlands. I'm listening to Leo's episode on SD stage orange. Last year I studied almost all the stages, but now that I'm getting closer to what they call "being an adult", I want to actually start with business ideas, grow economically so I can move to the next stages. I am deeply interested in spirituality, metaphysics, in general green or higher ideals, but I recognize that I have to reach financial freedom to really be able to live for spiritual growth, and even though I don't like to be a stage orange person, I feel that I still have to fulfill that need of making money, and making a business. Still, I want to make a conscious business, something that has to do with meditation and breath work, that can help people. I have already started planning ideas about it. In the next weeks I will work to make these ideas more concrete.

I am grateful for: Going to the Netherlands Feeling good and positive today! The sun The change of seats in the airplane (sitting in front, they put me and my guitar in business class for free) Seeing my girlfriend again tonight! Having food for the travel

🟣 Email Newsletter: beginning I want to start an email newsletter. I still have to think about it more in depth, but that's my plan. The following video motivated me to do it: In the future I will post more about it.

I am grateful for: Having the possibility to study abroad Having a loving family The technology that helps me to navigate around the world The lovely grandparents I have My grandparents being still alive

🟠 Emotions I'm feeling a little bit nervous. Tomorrow I'm going back to the Netherlands, probably this is what is making me feel kinda anxious. It's probably difficult to leave my family, even though sometimes I feel it's a tough environment, and I don't want to accept the fact that it's still difficult to go away. But I'll get used to it again, and I'll go back to Italy in a bit more than a month. In this case I don't know what to do. I am feeling these emotions which I fully recognize that come from an overthinking mind, and when I put myself in the present moment I feel that it's not right. I know it's still the mind reminding me that I should think, but to another extent I don't want that like this I avoid or hide those emotions from myself (and therefore accumulate more unprocessed emotions). The truth is that I don't know how to fully experience the emotions (so then I can let them go) without thinking, but simply by feeling. Cause on the moment I try to do that I just can't, not because it's difficult, but because the emotion kind of fades away. Idk it's just weird. When I will be alone in the Netherlands I will work on that properly!

@Davino I imagine that money is part of safety needs right?

Whatever you feel is totally fine man! You have needs for the mind and also for the body. Let yourself feel everything and most importantly you have to burn through your karma, exhaust what you need to exhaust. Don't repress anything.

Weird that he didn't reply to you with some other videos hahah He might be copy-pasting the post and ask chatgpt to give some yt videos or other sources to help

🟤 Video about brain trauma Great quote from the woman: "Live life deeply, enjoy the things that you have and don't be jealous of what you don't have." She's a really interesting and smart journalist, I would say a mixture of stage blue, orange and green of SD.

I am grateful for: Going back to the Netherlands tomorrow The improvements my dad did this summer My family coming to my final bachelor's exam back in June (we had great moments) Not having serious health issues

⚫ Gratefulness Journal Here's where I started my gratefulness journal, if you want to check it out.

🔴 Finally meeting my girlfriend Tomorrow I have a flight to Brussels Charleroi at 10am. I am going back to the Netherlands, and finally I will se my girlfriend again. I've been staying in Italy since June, so for almost 4 months, and during this period we met 2 times. Once she came to Italy, an the other time I went to Spain where she lives. We shared great moments, and I am grateful that I will see her again tomorrow. I am subrenting my room until next Friday, so I will stay at her's until then, and I'm so happy we can share these days together. I can't wait to be again in her arms, and have her between mine, and cuddle all night.

🟢 GATEWAY EXPERIMENT - Advanced Focus 10 22/09/2024 17:50 DAY 7 Today I did again the third tape. If was great until a certain moment I fell asleep. I made sure I would not fully lie, but that I would be kind of sitting comfortably, but I did sleep. I was listening intensely so I would not lose anything the guy was talking about, but then I woke up before the end, and I didn't realize I slept until I understood that it was the end. My body was comfortable and I didn't have any pain or discomfort, no saliva or other things that would disturb me. But yeah I slept, so this session doesn't count. I will redo it today or tomorrow.

Too many guys take "no fap" too seriously.

🟢 GATEWAY EXPERIMENT - Advanced Focus 10 21/09/2024 23:50 DAY 6 part 2 I just ended the third tape. This was somehow more intense, but still, I know I can get greater levels of relaxation. I felt again that tension behind my knees, so that was not nice. Tomorrow I will re-do it at least twice!

From the existential level, no. From the mind level, yes. From the mind level yes you do experience differently than me. I try not to believe to things.

ahahahah hilarious

🟣 Online Course: Beginning of a Journey I am not sure what I want to do with my life. But what I know for sure is that I want to help people somehow, and meditation has helped me a lot in the most difficult moments; so one idea would be teaching and guiding meditation and breathworks. I am 23, and still a student (just started a Master in the Conservatory - classical guitar), so I want to start with some basic groundwork. The plan is to share free videos, exercises, and info on Instagram and YouTube about those topics. I will already create videos for an online course that I will publish on my website, and all of this will also be part of my master's project, if possible. I watched a great video about how to make an online course, I found it really valuable.

🟢 GATEWAY EXPERIMENT - Introduction to Focus 10 21/09/2024 17:11 DAY 6 Yesterday I skipped the practice. I was emotionally and physically tired, I was really not in the mood. I had time to do it, but I preferred taking a nap instead. Today though I didn't skip the practice. I re-did the second tape of the first Wave, and it was great. It was for sure the best experience I've had with this tape. I kept my mind super focused on the sounds and voice of the audio, and even though sometimes I lost focus, I almost immediately put my attention back to the audio. The experience was great, I clearly felt what the audio said that I would feel: my mind sharp and awake, and my body relaxed and asleep. I Imagine this state can go even deeper since there are three or four more tapes for this specific state, called Focus 10. I am confident and happy to say that tomorrow (or even today) I will continue with the third track!

🟢 Spirituality in my life In general, I feel I am more conscious than other people. But it's also true that I fall into deep unconsciousness many times, and that happens especially when I am around unconscious people. It happens that I am never with more conscious people; unfortunately, I didn't meet this kind of people, not many of them. And if they are conscious, they are not my friends. I cannot see them on a weekly or monthly basis, and they are adults. I need people who can be my friends, and help me and teach me how to grow, to deepen my consciousness, overcome my mind, and be selfless. But it's difficult. I moved to the Netherlands and I met people that are more open-minded than in Italy. But still I cannot find people who are into spirituality or who are conscious, or if they are, they are on a "lower level" than me. I always feel like I need to teach how to be more conscious. And if I don't teach it, I fall into unconsciousness. It's pretty tough. Just to be clear, I don't want to look like I put myself on a pedestal or that I'm better, or above others.