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I'm grateful for: Getting my job back (I left before summer) Not having financial problems My girlfriend, her sweetness Mom taking care of dad The things to me available to grow spiritually, and an other way

🟢 GATEWAY EXPERIMENT - Release and Recharge 25/09/2024 20:06 DAY 10 As said previously, today I continued with the fourth track. In the beginning, I thought I was not ready for it, and that's because I had to do alone all the exercises that previously were guided. And maybe I didn't do it the best way, but it was the first time, so I wasn't expecting something like that. Later I got into a profound state, I didn't understand what was happening. In a sense, it was psychedelic, but not with visuals; I mean that the body/mental felling was similar to when I take magic truffles. I might redo it soon. Today it was good!

Don't take no fap too seriously, just feel what is natural for you. A couple of times a week won't hurt you.

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🟢 GATEWAY EXPERIMENT - Advanced Focus 10 24/09/2024 18:36 DAY 9 I just finished the third tape again; it was great this time. I kind of leaned on the wall with a pillow on my lower back, I was comfortable, but the downside was that sometimes my head would start falling to one side. it happened only 2 times. At a certain moment towards the end I started feeling a strong tingling sensation on my whole head, shoulders, and upper chest, maybe if I had relaxed more I would have felt it in my whole body. I might re-do it later; tomorrow I will definitely continue with the next one!

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I'm grateful for: The sexual drive I have The love present in my relationship Subrenting my room (economic help) My mom taking great care of my dad My whole family! AI helping me for many things

🟢 GATEWAY EXPERIMENT - Advanced Focus 10 23/09/2024 10:50 DAY 8 Yesterday I listened to the third tape two times. It was not the best time, but also not the worst. It was not the best because I did it on the plane going to Brussels, but still I felt the good effects of it. My body was really relaxed, but of course, it could be better. Today I will do it later in the afternoon, and focus as much as I can, and try to get the best out of it! Today will be the fourth day of doing the third tape, and if I do it properly tomorrow I might continue with the next one. Today I might do it even two times. Let's see!

🟠 General health and emotions Yesterday I was really happy to see my girlfriend again. It was so nice to feel each other's warmth and feelings. We didn't sleep great because we haven't slept together in a long time, and the bed is not super big, but still it was really nice to wake up together! I have been feeling pretty tired lately, and I know that I travelled and haven't slept properly in some time now, but I decided to take some supplements. Today I bought magnesium and rhodiola. In the future I might start again with lion's mane mushroom and with microdosing. For not not, I need to settle more and better.

I'm grateful for: The great girlfriend I have My girlfriend accepting me the way I am Public transportation that help me to travel wherever Leo's teachings My drive for growth

⚫ Business beginning Currently travelling in the train towards Maastricht, the Netherlands. I'm listening to Leo's episode on SD stage orange. Last year I studied almost all the stages, but now that I'm getting closer to what they call "being an adult", I want to actually start with business ideas, grow economically so I can move to the next stages. I am deeply interested in spirituality, metaphysics, in general green or higher ideals, but I recognize that I have to reach financial freedom to really be able to live for spiritual growth, and even though I don't like to be a stage orange person, I feel that I still have to fulfill that need of making money, and making a business. Still, I want to make a conscious business, something that has to do with meditation and breath work, that can help people. I have already started planning ideas about it. In the next weeks I will work to make these ideas more concrete.

I am grateful for: Going to the Netherlands Feeling good and positive today! The sun The change of seats in the airplane (sitting in front, they put me and my guitar in business class for free) Seeing my girlfriend again tonight! Having food for the travel

🟣 Email Newsletter: beginning I want to start an email newsletter. I still have to think about it more in depth, but that's my plan. The following video motivated me to do it: In the future I will post more about it.

I am grateful for: Having the possibility to study abroad Having a loving family The technology that helps me to navigate around the world The lovely grandparents I have My grandparents being still alive

🟠 Emotions I'm feeling a little bit nervous. Tomorrow I'm going back to the Netherlands, probably this is what is making me feel kinda anxious. It's probably difficult to leave my family, even though sometimes I feel it's a tough environment, and I don't want to accept the fact that it's still difficult to go away. But I'll get used to it again, and I'll go back to Italy in a bit more than a month. In this case I don't know what to do. I am feeling these emotions which I fully recognize that come from an overthinking mind, and when I put myself in the present moment I feel that it's not right. I know it's still the mind reminding me that I should think, but to another extent I don't want that like this I avoid or hide those emotions from myself (and therefore accumulate more unprocessed emotions). The truth is that I don't know how to fully experience the emotions (so then I can let them go) without thinking, but simply by feeling. Cause on the moment I try to do that I just can't, not because it's difficult, but because the emotion kind of fades away. Idk it's just weird. When I will be alone in the Netherlands I will work on that properly!

@Davino I imagine that money is part of safety needs right?

Whatever you feel is totally fine man! You have needs for the mind and also for the body. Let yourself feel everything and most importantly you have to burn through your karma, exhaust what you need to exhaust. Don't repress anything.

Weird that he didn't reply to you with some other videos hahah He might be copy-pasting the post and ask chatgpt to give some yt videos or other sources to help

🟤 Video about brain trauma Great quote from the woman: "Live life deeply, enjoy the things that you have and don't be jealous of what you don't have." She's a really interesting and smart journalist, I would say a mixture of stage blue, orange and green of SD.

I am grateful for: Going back to the Netherlands tomorrow The improvements my dad did this summer My family coming to my final bachelor's exam back in June (we had great moments) Not having serious health issues

⚫ Gratefulness Journal Here's where I started my gratefulness journal, if you want to check it out.

🔴 Finally meeting my girlfriend Tomorrow I have a flight to Brussels Charleroi at 10am. I am going back to the Netherlands, and finally I will se my girlfriend again. I've been staying in Italy since June, so for almost 4 months, and during this period we met 2 times. Once she came to Italy, an the other time I went to Spain where she lives. We shared great moments, and I am grateful that I will see her again tomorrow. I am subrenting my room until next Friday, so I will stay at her's until then, and I'm so happy we can share these days together. I can't wait to be again in her arms, and have her between mine, and cuddle all night.

🟢 GATEWAY EXPERIMENT - Advanced Focus 10 22/09/2024 17:50 DAY 7 Today I did again the third tape. If was great until a certain moment I fell asleep. I made sure I would not fully lie, but that I would be kind of sitting comfortably, but I did sleep. I was listening intensely so I would not lose anything the guy was talking about, but then I woke up before the end, and I didn't realize I slept until I understood that it was the end. My body was comfortable and I didn't have any pain or discomfort, no saliva or other things that would disturb me. But yeah I slept, so this session doesn't count. I will redo it today or tomorrow.

Too many guys take "no fap" too seriously.