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I am really sorry that this happened to you.. if you ever need to talk about it you can pm me! stay strong❤

🟢 GATEWAY EXPERIMENT - Exploration Sleep 28/09/2024 23:50 DAY 13 part 2 I decided to go for the 5th track, and it was the deepest and the best experience so far. I went really deep, at a certain moment I felt (or better, I thought) I would have an OBE. I got really scared, to be honest, and that would not help with my relaxation. I explored different and new levels of consciousness and deep relaxation, but I am not happy that I can't let go. I am scared to let go, I am too attached to my ego. I am even scared to fall asleep when I do exercises to fall asleep... How can I do this track in the best way possible? I will see in the next few days how it goes!

I'm grateful for: Getting better physically Having a nice dinner with my girlfriend Eating healthier lately Journaling Living alone in the Netherlands The sacrifice my family is making for me to live a life apart from the critical family situation

🟢 Thoughts on MEDITATION In the last few days, I haven't meditated. I stopped almost a week ago when I returned to the Netherlands. I know it's normal to lose the routine when big changes happen, but I still want to get back to it. Since I am also doing the Gateway experiment daily, I feel like I am meditating to some extent, but I don't want to confuse the two practices. I am happy that I implemented this new spiritual practice in my daily life, and now I want to start again meditating, so I can do two practices at a time. I feel that like this I can start making big progress in my path. Keeping this journal is helping me, I will keep it up, and try to grow as much as I can!

🟢 GATEWAY EXPERIMENT - Advanced Focus 10 & Release and Recharge 28/09/2024 17:30 DAY 13 So earlier in the morning, I did the third track, and now I just finished the fourth. I have to say that both went really really well, I am really satisfied. I still have a cold, so I can't fully breathe from my nose, and even though I had to breathe from the mouth and it therefore got pretty dry both times, I had a great experience. Especially with the second tape I managed to go really deep into a relaxed state and do all the things instructed. Tomorrow I will continue with the fifth tape; I will for sure redo the fourth, and I might do also the third one before the two, but I will see how the mood is.

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I'm grateful for: Slowly getting better from the cold Cleaning the whole house/living in a clean space Painting today The audio meditations I'm doing daily Dad getting better Family that loves me

I don't know how your parents are, so I can't give you an opinion. But what I can say is that I have tried having a conversation like that many times, but it has never worked. At all... my mom gets super defensive and starts acting like a victim, and it gets super toxic

🟢 GATEWAY EXPERIMENT - Release and Recharge 27/09/2024 20:20 DAY 12 part 2 Just finished the fourth track. It was good, for the first time I followed everything and relaxed. I'm looking forward to doing these exercises when feeling better.

I'm grateful for: My girlfriend taking care of me now that I'm not feeling well Writing again the journal My dad slowly improving My mom and family that loves me so much

🟢 GATEWAY EXPERIMENT - Release and Recharge & Advanced Focus 10 27/09/2024 19:30 DAY 11 & 12 Yesterday the experiment was not great. I didn't focus enough, and I almost didn't go deep. I think I might not have been for the 4th track, or maybe I didn't get great results cause I was sick. But today I redid the third tape, and even though I didn't manage to focus for the whole time fully, I managed to relax and have a good experience. I think for the next few days I need to combine the 3rd and 4th tracks, so I can get the best results out of them.

🟠 How am I feeling? I already said it some time ago, but I have been struggling with allergies for some weeks now. Also, I had to travel and work a lot, which made my immune system pretty weak. Now I don't feel good at all, I might have a fever, my nose is runny, and I have no energy. Every time I am sick or don't feel good emotionally I stop meditating, writing my gratefulness journal, etc. I stop doing all the things that can help me, but this time I won't stop. I just ended a track of the Gateway Experience, which I will write about right now.

I'm grateful for: Meeting new nice people at work Having a nice working space Having a good an open communication with my girlfriend Going to Spain the past summer with her

I'm grateful for: Getting my job back (I left before summer) Not having financial problems My girlfriend, her sweetness Mom taking care of dad The things to me available to grow spiritually, and an other way

🟢 GATEWAY EXPERIMENT - Release and Recharge 25/09/2024 20:06 DAY 10 As said previously, today I continued with the fourth track. In the beginning, I thought I was not ready for it, and that's because I had to do alone all the exercises that previously were guided. And maybe I didn't do it the best way, but it was the first time, so I wasn't expecting something like that. Later I got into a profound state, I didn't understand what was happening. In a sense, it was psychedelic, but not with visuals; I mean that the body/mental felling was similar to when I take magic truffles. I might redo it soon. Today it was good!

Don't take no fap too seriously, just feel what is natural for you. A couple of times a week won't hurt you.

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🟢 GATEWAY EXPERIMENT - Advanced Focus 10 24/09/2024 18:36 DAY 9 I just finished the third tape again; it was great this time. I kind of leaned on the wall with a pillow on my lower back, I was comfortable, but the downside was that sometimes my head would start falling to one side. it happened only 2 times. At a certain moment towards the end I started feeling a strong tingling sensation on my whole head, shoulders, and upper chest, maybe if I had relaxed more I would have felt it in my whole body. I might re-do it later; tomorrow I will definitely continue with the next one!

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I'm grateful for: The sexual drive I have The love present in my relationship Subrenting my room (economic help) My mom taking great care of my dad My whole family! AI helping me for many things

🟢 GATEWAY EXPERIMENT - Advanced Focus 10 23/09/2024 10:50 DAY 8 Yesterday I listened to the third tape two times. It was not the best time, but also not the worst. It was not the best because I did it on the plane going to Brussels, but still I felt the good effects of it. My body was really relaxed, but of course, it could be better. Today I will do it later in the afternoon, and focus as much as I can, and try to get the best out of it! Today will be the fourth day of doing the third tape, and if I do it properly tomorrow I might continue with the next one. Today I might do it even two times. Let's see!

🟠 General health and emotions Yesterday I was really happy to see my girlfriend again. It was so nice to feel each other's warmth and feelings. We didn't sleep great because we haven't slept together in a long time, and the bed is not super big, but still it was really nice to wake up together! I have been feeling pretty tired lately, and I know that I travelled and haven't slept properly in some time now, but I decided to take some supplements. Today I bought magnesium and rhodiola. In the future I might start again with lion's mane mushroom and with microdosing. For not not, I need to settle more and better.

I'm grateful for: The great girlfriend I have My girlfriend accepting me the way I am Public transportation that help me to travel wherever Leo's teachings My drive for growth

⚫ Business beginning Currently travelling in the train towards Maastricht, the Netherlands. I'm listening to Leo's episode on SD stage orange. Last year I studied almost all the stages, but now that I'm getting closer to what they call "being an adult", I want to actually start with business ideas, grow economically so I can move to the next stages. I am deeply interested in spirituality, metaphysics, in general green or higher ideals, but I recognize that I have to reach financial freedom to really be able to live for spiritual growth, and even though I don't like to be a stage orange person, I feel that I still have to fulfill that need of making money, and making a business. Still, I want to make a conscious business, something that has to do with meditation and breath work, that can help people. I have already started planning ideas about it. In the next weeks I will work to make these ideas more concrete.