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🟢 GATEWAY EXPERIMENT - Intro to Focus 12 07/10/2024 19:43 DAY 19 I did again the first track of the second wave of the Gateway experience. I managed to relax fully and deeply. I made the track longer to have more time to relax. And it helped. When I have to go to Focus 12, I do feel changes inside of me. It's not extremely strong, though. The first time I had that experience, it was pretty intense. I really felt a duality. I was both my body and something else, something more. Now, I don't know if what I am feeling is what I am supposed to feel, or if it's just a deeper version of Focus 10., just simply more relaxation. However, I think that it could be also Focus 12. How can I know? I am not sure about it. I am not really happy or satisfied because I am not having great results. I may have done the Gateway experiment too late during the day. In the next days I will do exercises from the Focus 10 state, and also Focus 12.

I'm grateful for: Having time for myself Not working in the next few days Being able to relax Having great conversations with my gf

🟠 About the last days In the last few days, I didn't do the Gateway Experiment, I didn't meditate, write in my gratefulness journal, etc. I was working or doing other things, but that's not an excuse. I am not feeling great about not keeping these practices, but also it's not the end of the world. I want to forgive myself for not doing these things. Also, from tomorrow I want to start again properly.

🟢 GATEWAY EXPERIMENT - Intro to Focus 12 06/10/2024 19:00 DAY 18 Today I continued with the first tape of the second wave; Today was super relaxing, but I didn't fully feel an enhanced state of consciousness. That's maybe because I am tired, since I just ended working.

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I'm grateful for: Starting Teal Swan's Self-Love course Taking care of myself Having great online resources

I'm grateful for: AI that helps me a lot with many things Having a great gf Eating healthy Being able to practice properly

🟢 About the last post of: GATEWAY EXPERIMENT - WAVE 2, Intro to Focus 12 I decided to give myself more time in the middle of the tape. I don't want to pause the track to give myself time to go deeper cause that will only distract me. I will then modify the track and make the audio longer, so there's no rush, and I can fully relax, and then be able to move on.

🟢 GATEWAY EXPERIMENT - Intro to Focus 12 03/10/2024 16:30 DAY 17 So I'm writing about my experience with the first track of the second wave; I am writing about today and yesterday. Yesterday I didn't have a lot of time actually and I did it in the evening right before sleep, but I was not getting great results. So I think by the three-quarters of the tape I decided to stop it and sleep. But today I did it in the afternoon so it was way more effective than yesterday. Unfortunately, when the guide tells me to go to Focus 12 I cannot do it. He says it two times. The first time you have to go to Focus 12 and then go back to Focus 10. Second time you have to go to Focus 12 and stay there and explore. Only at the moment that he says to go back to Focus 10 the second time I managed to go deeper. The problem is that I don't think I felt anything that goes beyond my body. My question is, should I go back to the first wave, deepen my levels of Focus 10 or should I just keep doing this track until I get good results? The first time I did this track I got good results. But maybe because it was new and I was excited about it. I want to have the best results possible but I am scared that if I don't manage to arrive to Focus 10 deeply before he tells me to arrive to Focus 12 I will not be able to continue properly in the future.

I wouldn't call that mysticism... The use of psychedelics isn't necessarily mystic

I'm grateful for: Keeping up with my meditation practice Stopping to smoke weed Being strong enough not to smoke again, despite all the occasions I get

I'm grateful for: Feeling better Having a good open communication with my gf Starting to practice guitar again properly Meeting new people

🟣 Guitar practice Since I came back to the Netherlands I haven't had so much energy to practice properly nor enough. A good amount of (professional) guitar practice should be around 4 hours a day, there are some people who do 8 hours, and who does less. I manage to learn things slowly, and that's because of my technical skills which are not the best. Every day I do at least 30 minutes of technique exercises, and then I practice what needed. Finally today I started practicing more. Until now (11.40 am) I practiced 1.5 hours, and I'm pretty satisfied with the quality. I won't go for the 4 hours because I'm not used to practice so long anymore, but I'm building it up. I would like to have at least one more hour of good practice today. I'm happy I got back in track!

I'm grateful for: Finding a new neurologist for my dad Having my first guitar lesson of the academic year talking to my parents and girlfriend

Binaural beats are like "illusions" created when you play 2 slightly different frequencies in each ear, and the brain perceives a vibration or third frequency. They can help to relax, focus, pain, deepen meditation, etc. Based on which 2 frequencies you listen to, you get different effects.

I decided to get started with a YouTube account, where I will share guided meditations and Binaural Beats. I am getting great effects from both, and I want to share new frequencies and sounds to get great levels of rest, relaxation, and meditative states. https://www.youtube.com/@BinauralBeatsMeditations I already uploaded the first video if you want to check it out. Pls let me know if you've listened to it and what you think about it!

🟢 Meditation Practice Today as I woke up I meditated. It was 20 good minutes of meditation. I'm glad to share that I'm back on track with my practice and that I want to meditate even before sleep; that is not going to be always possible, since many times I sleep with my girlfriend, and she doesn't want to meditate. I can still meditate even if she doesn't want to, but I can't promise I will. Anyway, I am happy that I am back on track, and I want to go deeper into meditative states.

🟢 GATEWAY EXPERIMENT - WAVE 2, Intro to Focus 12 01/10/2024 20:15 DAY 16 So my first experience with the first track of the second wave, which is about Focus 12, was really interesting. Initially, I entered the Focus 10 state, and it was not the deepest I have ever been in. And then, when the voice was guiding me towards Focus 12, I felt that, yes, I was going deeper, but it was not a new state of consciousness. It was nothing new. As the exercise continued, as I was listening to the sounds, I started feeling more and more and more relaxed, and I started feeling that I was bigger. But this I still felt already in the past in the Focus 10 state. And towards the end of the exercise, something changed. Towards the end of the exercise, when I was supposed to come back to the Focus 10 state, and eventually to the normal waking state, Focus 1, I started feeling something different. Something was happening to, probably, my state of consciousness. I don't really know how to describe it. I felt like I was huge. I was super big. To some extent, I was still in this room, but at the same time, not. I could still feel the body to some extent, but I was also more than that. I felt like there were two states happening at the same time, the relaxed body state, and the huge ball I also became. I wouldn't know how to explain this thing differently.

I'm grateful for: Starting guitar lessons again Feeling better Meeting a new person

I'm grateful for: Having enough food to eat Having good people around me Starting to meditate again

@aurum I see, thank you for your comment. I think that maybe the problem is learning to find the right sensitivity in the touch. I went to my father's craniosacral therapist, and I did a couple of sessions, and Evey time I felt something changing inside of me, apart from the fact that at the end of the session I had another kind/level of awareness, I don't know how to explain it. Could be placebo, but it affects the same way also my father who has a brain injury and doesn't know at all what's going on, so I'm his case can't be placebo.

I'm starting this course in November, but I am afraid. The book I need to read goes into detail about the body parts, and I'm no expert, I have no particular knowledge about that. But when I went to sign up for the course, the lady working there said that it's not a problem. I hope it's true, otherwise I wasted a lot of money. Has anyone done this course? If you have any advice, pls let me know.

🟢 GATEWAY EXPERIMENT - Exploration Sleep 30/09/2024 17:35 DAY 15 I just did the fifth track two times in a row. The first time I went pretty deep, and since I wanted to go even deeper I decided to restart it and do it again. Conclusion: I have reached a level of relaxation, so deep that I've never reached. Even if in a couple of moments I felt that my throat was itching a bit, I kind of felt like I was floating (as the man guided me to), but I still felt the gravity of course. I don't fully understand what needs to happen when he says to "float, and turn like a log in water". I visualize that and have interesting feelings in my body or even consciousness, and I felt like in my head was slightly spinning, and the head itself towards the end was moving a bit; but I am not sure if that is what I'm supposed to feel. Anyways I think I went deep enough to continue with the next track.

🟣 YT channel with Binaural Beats https://www.youtube.com/@BinauralBeatsMeditations If you want to check out my YT, I just started posting!

I'm grateful for: My dad not getting too much hurt (yesterday he fell and hit his head) Having the possibility to rest Having good friends