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🟣 YT channel In 23 days I got 51 subscribers on YouTube. Feeling motivated and happy!

🔴 Family Update We changed neurologist for my dad. The one before scammed us: he advised us to bring him to a "great" centre where he will get better for sure. He stayed there 3 weeks before summer, and when he came back home he was worse that ever. Later on we discovered that the neurologist was the head of the centre looking for more patients to get funds from the government. What a bastard. This new neurologist sound really good, and gave my dad a new medicine. Well, it looks like it's helping him a lot. Dad has the ability to talk (so unlike people with ictus who have to learn to talk again), but he can't take out the words of his mouth. He can't express himself. Now though with this new medicine, he is starting to talk more and be more energetic. Let's hope for the best!

⚫ General things Some days I feel it's difficult to keep myself being aware of the things I previously said; But it's great that I manage to keep doing it every day. In the evening before sleep I rethink of the day and write down whatever I didn't already, trying to remember what happened and how I felt during the day. I won't stop doing this! It can help me be more conscious, and really become the watcher.

🟢 Meditation It's been pretty difficult to maintain a meditation practice. I love meditation, but lately I feel lazy. That's why I'm trying to do 5 to 10 minutes even guided meditations. I want to slowly build it up and make each session longer, and start again to go to meditation circles every Wednesday and Monday. It will take time, but I'm aware that's this is part of the journey.

I'm grateful for: Having nice moments with Sara Studying for craniosacral AI technology that helps me to study better and faster

When you awaken you don't believe in religions. From Wikipedia: TempleOS (formerly J Operating System, LoseThos, and SparrowOS) is a biblical-themed lightweight operating system (OS) designed to be the Third Temple prophesied in the Bible. It was created by American programmer Terry A. Davis, who developed it alone over the course of a decade after a series of manic episodes that he later described as a revelation from God. Doesn't sound like god realization to me

@Someone here i get everything that you say, and honestly I never had any realization of my true self. I've had crazy states of consciousness that go beyond the body, but no awakening or some experience like that. But accepting the concept of infinity makes me think that our true self is way more than the body, but infinity comprehends also the body... If that makes sense I agree with you when you say that having a body is a pain in the ass, but even if I am more than my body, that's where I reside right now and i don't want to think of it as a disgusting thing, that's still me after all, it's still part of the huge spectrum of infinity Imo it depends on the ego how it wants to see it or use it Thank you for sharing your insights! And I hope I'm not making you uncomfortable replying like this on your journal. I feel I have a lot to learn and you give interesting ideas, that's why I comment

Same for me. I love coffee with milk and some sweetener if the type of coffee I get is too strong

That's because Italians like big portions hehe

Yes it is a limitation, but its functions and itself are great the way they are. The body is such a complex machine, and personally I wouldn't call it disgusting.

Sorry man I don't want to look like I go against you and everything you say😅😂 but honestly I appreciate you sharing your thoughts I disagree when you say that our body is gross... I think that's just the ego talking

@eos_nyxia nice thanks man for the info

I'm grateful for: Having the best gf Working and making money Having a good mom Having a nice apartment

Most of them taste baaadddd

@Someone here ❤️❤️

I'm grateful for: Working to make money Having hanged out with friends and gf Having nice people around Having a great gf

@Someone here I get it and I agree, but most of the people don't care about radical levels of liberation, that's why a life purpose doesn't need to be a lose lose deal imo. Also, for example, a life purpose can be helping people through something, which is abstract to some extent. It's a neverending process of helping, it's not like one day I achieve it, and then I'm complete.

True, it just is whatever it is without purpose or intention. But finding or creating a purpose can help many people to navigate through the difficulties of life.

I don't get crazy palpitations, but I see my hands become shaky, which is not good for me, I am a guitar player and I need steady hands. Of course I don't drink coffee when I need to practice. Interesting, thank you for sharing! I didn't know all this

I'm not an expert, but don't all decaf coffees go through a strong chemical process? I read about it and from then I never drank decaf again; but probably it's not like this with all the coffees I guess... I imagine we have also genetically modified coffee plants without caffeine. to be honest I don't know.

yeah also cause most of them don't taste good, so I wouldn't even drink it only for the taste.

⚫ About Today: I went to sleep at 3 am last night; I didn't plan it, it just happened cause I was hanging out with some friends, and then I kept talking to my roommate and his gf. It was a nice evening, and I am happy we hung out; I'm also glad that I don't feel exhausted, but I will probably get tired in the afternoon while working. I will not have enough time to do the Gateway Experiment, but I already meditated today, which I am really happy about, I recorded a guided meditation for tomorrow, for YT, and my gf and I made a couple of WhatsApp groups for the two of us. each one is for different things: Interesting things (whatever ideas we have about literally anything) Micro-Fears Daily Journal (from Leo's video on what is fear) Daily Gratefulness Journal I feel like we are pushing each other to do good, to do better, and to take care of ourselves. I'm happy about it. Later I will also do some stretching/yoga.

I'm grateful for: not feeling too tired having time to do some things before work having a nice evening yesterday

It's okay don't worry, thank you for the message

Well first of all coffe increases blood pressure, it doesn't reduce it. Second of all it might be insignificant to you, that doesn't mean that it is for everyone. Also, that can be a small good things that along other good habits contributes to a healthy bodymind. If it's not extremely significant, it doesn't mean that it can't give benefits, or that I can't have "concerns" and ask about it on a forum.