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🔘 Surroundings Observation The whole sky is gray. In this, I see groups of small light clouds moving fast. In the grayness of the sky and clouds, I don't see any specific shapes, the wind carrying them away makes them change and more distant, Today is cold and rainy, usually I don't like this weather, but now that I sit and observe it, I see something more in it: I see calm uncertainty, I see change in the stillness. I hear cars passing by, which remember me of the fast paced world, running to chase something that is never found. I see the light drops of water, that fall fast from the sky; they're tiny, almost impossible to see, but if you focus, you can perceive the movement. In this moment of stillness I remember how difficult it is in this world to just stop. But now, I did stop. And I'm grateful for these little moments.

I'm grateful for: Sara Open communication with Sara Dinner with guys I practiced

Trump said that when he will become president he will call Putin and the war will stop.. so that problem is off the list😂😂 We still have some time till climate change problema become irreversible. I am optimistic about this topic and I think we will take action. Maybe last minute, but we will.

Truly a great video. Thank you Osho❤️

I'm grateful for: practicing a lot doing yoga & meditation properly

🟡 Investment overview In the last few days, the company's stock is going down. I am not feeling great about it, but I know it's part of the process and I don't have to discourage myself.

⚫ Journaling again I'm not feeling great right now; today I didn't do much, after many days of work and study I got extremely exhausted, and I am kind of feeling sick. But I just need to rest. I am keeping up with the meditation practice, and I'm happy I managed to do it also today that was more difficult than the other days. I stopped doing the Gateway Experience, unfortunately. It takes a lot, but I should still do it whenever I can.

I'm grateful for: having great talks with Sara resting not paying for food

I'm grateful for: having sara in my life doing the website making money doing phone detox

I'm grateful for: Being with sara yesterday journaling working with nice people eating pizza

I'm grateful for: Going into nature and drawing Feeling supported by Sara Practicing, even if it was not the best Not smoking, drinking, or taking drugs

⚫ Simple Journaling Lately, I've been feeling better. Honestly, I don't know what my body and mind really need, but I'm trying to be open and not stay home and do the same things. I still feel that life is difficult, and I need to learn how to navigate through all the challenges and feelings I have. I probably already said it in the past, but I was a weed smoker, I used to do it really a lot. in the last 2 or even 3 years, I did it regularly, on a weekly basis, and usually in the months of May, April, and June I would smoke every day. Really disgusting. But I get it, I was hurting, and that was a good way to numb myself and not think. I really like weed, the effect it gives, and the act of smoking, but I hate the fact that I get addicted so easily. I would love to be able to do it once every 2 months, same as psychedelics, just to have a good, profound, and insightful experience. But for my mind weed is a light drug, that yes can be spiritual, but also a great way to stop feeling. That's why I don't smoke anymore. I feel strong. I don't want to do it again. And I am proud of myself because I live in the Netherlands, where you can smell weed literally everywhere, and on top of that my flatmate smokes every day. I am grateful I say no every time I have the opportunity to smoke. It was easy to not smoke from June, because I was in Italy with my family, but once coming back here the real challenge started, and I'm doing good, I think. I say "I think", because a couple of times I drank beers, once I even did ketamine. I haven't drunk beer since December 2021, and in the summer I stopped the sobriety. But it's fine. I am aware of all this, and I decided not to drink either. Alcohol is not the same as weed, because I like it less, that's why it's not gonna be so difficult. Today though, I went to the park with my housemates to draw, and actually before leaving we were considering taking an HHC gummy I've been keeping here for some time; then we said to take mushrooms. After not taking anything, while going to the park we passed by my gf house, and I remembered that I left ketamine in her room, so I thought to go inside and take it. Now, thinking about this makes me feel kinda disgusted, or just sad about these thoughts. Eventually I didn't take any drugs, and I'm proud of that. I came back home and I'm journaling. I also talked about all this with Sara, my girlfriend, and that helped me. With her, I always feel loved, accepted, supported, and she is always here if I need it. She is a great person.

In 2 years he's probably gonna be like Biden. Just an old man with dementia who doesn't know what he's saying

Okay but still I don't understand why you say she's shallow And hollow Not judging just asking

Why you think she's like this?

Even if these issues were solved, there would still be a big gap to reach enlightenment. And I don't think trump is the one who will solve these things

I thought JR was not his supporter, why would he invite Trump

I'm grateful for: Sara and I have great talks and openness Being able to study in the morning before work

🟣⚫ YouTube & Guitar Practice I'm really happy about the fact that I am starting to practice more and better. I am getting back on track and playing good; I'm trying to be relaxed and focused. I'm also happy and grateful for the YouTube results. I got 59 subscribers in 26 days, I think that's a good outcome!

I'm grateful for: Having some fun at work Working to make money Seeing Sara Being a little bit productive before work Not forgetting about posting in YT

I'm grateful for: Having nice day Being productive Doing different things with Sara Doing the laundry Dad getting better

🟣⚫ Guitar Practice I'm happy I'm being productive again. Today I had a good guitar practiced, I did almost two hours. I will now have lunch, and later I will go with Sara somewhere to study, I will continue with the craniosacral theory for the course in November.

Wow

🟡 Investment overview The company I invested in is doing well, waiting for the phase 3 of the trials to have some good results. Looking good!

🟣 YT channel In 23 days I got 51 subscribers on YouTube. Feeling motivated and happy!