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Joe Dispenza says to clench the anus during breathwork in his meditations because he claims that the cerebrospinal fluid (that goes from the brain to the sacrum and back) gets pushed towards the brain. He combines that also with pressing the abdomen to activate the chakras. I don’t know anything about this, but I know that he talks about this. I did also a craniosacral course that talks about the cerebral spinal fluid and I never heard about clenching the ass pushing it to the brain.

Find out for yourself! That’s the best way to know

I’m going there on Sunday and we’ll go to Slovakia for a stem cells therapy and other intensive treatments. Speaking of the debt and job: I don’t remember the precise details about the debt, but it was not such a bit deal from what I remember. I will have to start paying it back 3 years from now (3years after I end my studies - which is in June or July) about the job: as of right now I don’t have a job cause on Sunday I’ll go to my family for a long time so nobody will not fire me haha sometimes I play gigs with my girlfriend, we have a guitar flute duo, but of course we don’t make enough money to live from that, it’s almost impossible. In a year we made roughly 1000€ each, so you can imagine. When I’ll go back to the Netherlands end march I’ll look for a job that I will keep for a couple of months until I end my master. After that I’ll go to Italy and look for a stable one.

Hi everyone! For those who don’t know me, I’m 24, Italian, currently living in the Netherlands. About four years ago my father and brother had a serious motorcycle accident, an event that deeply impacted me and marked the beginning of a serious inner spiritual journey. Since then I’ve studied various teachers (including Leo), meditated consistently, and explored non-duality, ego, consciousness, and metaphysics. I feel genuinely drawn towards deepest truth of reality... I feel like I need to understand what reality really is in order to understand myself and how to live. At the same time, I’m still very much a human being with ambitions, desires, fears, and responsibilities. I’m trying to build a career (I’m a classical guitarist and certified meditation teacher and thought i wanted to share mindful practices with musicians, but thinking about that I don’t think that I can live out of that since musicians don’t have money - I’m considering working with non musicians). I want financial stability, and honestly part of me wants to be rich and successful. I also care about making an impact and really help people with mindfulness, because it has really changed my life for the better, and it helped me grow. On one side I feel drawn toward ego dissolution, selflessness, and truth beyond identity, there’s a part of me that wants to let go completely (every year I am more and more connected to thse things, thanks to meditation and sometimes doing psychedelics). But on the other side I still want to build something in the world, I want money, autonomy, and recognition, and I feel afraid of “losing myself.” I don’t fully know how to integrate spirituality with ordinary life, even if I want to work with meditation. I sometimes wonder if my desire for the “deepest truth” is healthy growth, or if it’s partially an escape from unresolved emotional material, trauma, or uncertainty. I also want to do psychedelics as a way to deepen insight, but I’m unsure whether that would be growth or destabilization, even though all the experiences I had were helpful for my growth. I don’t fully trust my motivation yet. I don’t know if I’m seeking awakening or relief. Maybe both. Every time though that I start having deeper experiences while meditating or in trips I start being scared of loosing myself, even if one part of me wants it. I intellectually understand that money and ego are relative constructs. But in practical life they matter. So I feel stuck between these two paradigms. Thanks for reading❤️

@Ziran Honestly I don’t remember

Yeah 10k for uni😢

No I have a student job, enough to pay uni, rent, and food

Nope haha

@Ziran I’m trying to build a business coaching people with mindfulness and these techniques, but right now I’m not getting any results. I’m not fully invested into it right now as I’m still a student and I am also scared since no one around me has a business. also as I study abroad I’m not so helpful for my family, although every time I go back home I help a lot

Right now I would tell you that I’d love to make my first million before I turn 30, working with meditation, maybe opening a wellness centre or having some kind of online academy… working online would be great, so I would not have problems on travelling and working from wherever I want, but also retire my parents and help my mom with dad’s therapies and take care of him. I think this is what my success would look like. Financial freedom, conscious job, helping family. Then with money health is something that would be easy to achieve (speaking of quality food, exercise, etc. - of course you never know what can happen to you, but I’m talking about the things you can control)

I imagine that giving my life situation, to some extent I feel called towards truth, but at the same time I also use it as escapism

Thanks!❤️🙏

@Oeaohoo nice if you want to talk about it or thinking of something new together I’m open to it!

Interesting, but I’m a classical guitarist, in these kind of places they have bands with winds and percussion… guitar is not even in orchestras, sometimes it is as soloist but not as a part of the orchestra

@Oppositionless which yoga do you do most?

@VeganAwake such a nice message, thank you! I feel a bit stuck because of my family situation, I would love to have so much money to support my parents, and bring my dad back from his brain injury… I feel stuck because there’s no one close to me who can actually help or even support me in becoming self employed, and ever time I talk about being financially free they laugh

@gettoefl thank you for this nice message! You always have very big ambitions and big dreams, any in general I would like to make a living make lots of money through our conscious spiritual work/business, and although from one side I really believe in myself and I know that I can do it I feel very limited both because my family needs help with my father situation but also because nobody around me fully supports me or helps me to become self-employed. As a said in the previous message speaking of spirituality, also when speaking of business and self-employment I am alone and I have nobody close to me in this journey. I am finishing my masters in the Netherlands and around June I will go back to Italy where’s my family. There I don’t know anyone anymore, uncertain I don’t know people who are into spirituality or into business. If my father wouldn’t have had the accident, I would have probably travelled moved to other big cities and explore opportunities but I don’t want to abandon my family. I don’t want to abandon my mom.

@Breakingthewall thank you for your message 🙏 I think because of all the meditations things that I felt in my life combined with psychedelics understood that to some extent I am more than my body, I am more than my ego; and following Leo for some time now I really resonate with what he teaches, also along to other spiritual teachers. Maybe I am getting a little bit lost in the fact that I will die one day, that my ego will die one day…to some extent that comes as a relief because I see all the manipulation and the pain I create in myself and others in very subtle ways, and what I do in my life right now is really trying to grow as much as I can and become as more aware as possible to be as good as possible, but often I hurt myself and others. In this process of trying to become “perfect”, there is a part that knows I will die and at the end nothing matters. Honestly, I am very confused. I don’t want to sound arrogant, but I can see that my level of development in many ways is deeper than all the people around me and that makes me scared. Sometimes I think I might be delusional or crazy, but then other times is clear to me that they are who are more deluded. Not having someone close to me on my same path is destabilising. I feel when I am alone I am able to really work on myself and my consciousness, and then when the real test comes when I am with my family or with my girlfriend I almost quickly fall into unconscious behaviours. Sorry for this long message, I know I’m literally writing down everything that is happening in my mind and it can be chaotic, but I am grateful to have the possibility to share these things here. Thank you.

Yeah I think you already understood that we are both, depending on the point of view that you take

I totally get what you’re saying, and I would add that also all these feelings that you’re feeling, everything you are talking about right now, is the same drama as your friend’s colleague drama, and all other’s drama. Maybe it’s more conscious, more self aware, but it’s still the same thing. I think that the same way you observe it in your friends, you can do it in yourself, understand that it is the way it is, and you can find peace in the observation + letting go as much of it as you can.

I think that taking so many of them on a regular basis you will not know what actually helps you and what doesn’t

Damn sounds a serious trip, I didn’t know you can get that with cough syrup

I found on a research chemical website the spray with following info: These sprays are intended for micro-usage. Each spray contains 1mg of 5-MeO-DMT. A “micro” amount of 5-MeO-DMT benzoate is typically around 0.5mg-1.5mg. The optimum measurement will differ depending on various factors, but we always recommend starting at the lowest amount. The bottle contains 100 pumps in total. 5-MeO-DMT Benzoate Microdose Spray Important: While the molecular structure of 5-MeO-DMT is similar to that of DMT, they are NOT the same chemical, so please DO NOT substitute 5-MeO-DMT for DMT. They should be regarded as entirely different chemicals and treated as such. We have partnered with a reputable lab that specialises in synthesising tryptamines to bring you these 5-MeO-DMT benzoate Sprays. These products are strictly collectors items and are strictly not for human consumption. Each bottle contains 100 pumps, and each pump will dispense 1mg of 5-MeO-DMT Benzoate. Measurements for Independent Study These sprays are intended for micro-usage. Each spray contains 1mg of 5-MeO-DMT. A “micro” amount of 5-MeO-DMT benzoate is typically around 0.5mg-1.5mg. The optimum measurement will differ depending on various factors, but we always recommend starting at the lowest amount. have you ever tried 5meo in this form? I don’t have experience with 5meo yet and I don’t know if I’m ready, but this looks like a simple option to start small and test it, but idk if benzoate makes it different

I also have come 5meo HCL but i bought it like 2 or 3 years, and now it has a grey color. I don't know what it means and if i should buy some more, but also idk if i feel ready to snort it. sooner or later i'll try it tho, starting small

damn thanks for your message. I didn't want to microdose, but i figured that since a light dose is 10mg i can do 5 sprays per nostril more or less, but maybe that's a lot. I found another spray with more mg per spray, but now i'm not so sure about it haha