Lazarus93

Yes for sure. Dissociatives too. Before I did DXM and mushrooms, I had a severe fear of death. After doing them and having an awakening, it's all gone. That doesn't mean I am seeking out death, but rather, death is seen for what it actually is. The 'you' that fears death doesn't even exist.

I haven't had a nightmare in so many years now, but a few months ago when I had the flu and my sleep schedule was completely out of whack, I was sleeping and thought I had woken up after only 2 hours. I then realized I was 'paralyzed' and couldn't move, but I really wanted to get out of bed because I wanted to get on my computer. I would then repeatedly fall off my bed trying to get up from my bed, then 'wake up' again paralyzed in bed, all the while getting more and more pissed off that I couldn't get out of bed. I made it out of my room in some of these loops, just to wake up back in bed right after I would notice something strange or different about my house. This process then repeated 9-10 more times. Each time I would 'wake up,' I would think that I was actually waking up, until I finally actually woke up for real and realized I was literally dreaming all my false awakenings, falling off my bed and all, and that I was actually experiencing sleep paralysis in my dreams rather than in the waking world.. That was quite the mindfuck.

That's not Leo Gura thats Geo Lura

DXM in C tier but DPH in B tier? interesting..

I would recommend a dissociative like DXM or Ketamine. DXM has allowed me to get over all my fear and anxieties. I haven't done Ket so I can't speak on it, but DXM is powerful enough to dissociate you so much that you can completely separate yourself from any negative emotions during the trip, and that experience can help you for the rest of your life. Psychedelics can help too but they can be a scarier experience, but if you can muster the courage to face your fears and anxieties during the trip they can help. A 3.5g shroom trip helped me completely get over my DPDR. DXM + SSRIs can interact negatively though, so I would not do DXM if you are on SSRIs. If you do decide to do DXM though, I would recommend starting with a low 2nd plateau trip, and experiencing higher 2nd plateaus more as needed. Do not go into 3rd plateau or higher unless you feel ready.

Consciousness imagines a brain, a body, and a world. When someone hits your skull with a hammer, consciousness is imagining that. It is also imagining every consequence of the brain being hit by a hammer. So if you end up 'unconscious' or in a coma, notice that first of all you haven't fully died yet, but rather, you eventually wake up and realize what happened (i.e. consciousness imagines that the event of getting hit by a hammer happened, it imagines the passage of time during the period of 'unconsciousness,' etc.). Similar to what happens when you wake up from deep sleep. You never went anywhere, you just stopped imagining a brain, body, and world for X amount of time. There is a massive difference between being in a coma or being temporarily unconscious and what happens after your body actually undergoes physical death. A coma is just 'pausing the game,' physical death is quitting the game altogether and becoming your true self, what consciousness was before imagining your current brain body and world. In fact, if you awaken enough, you will realize that actually consciousness was never inside a world or in a brain. After all, a world and brain exist in space, which only exists when imagined by consciousness. The state you were in pre birth and the state you are in now are in fact made of the exact same substance (Nothingness). The only difference while alive is what this Nothingness is constructing (Being 'alive' just means this nothingness is constructing your current configuration of reality. Death is when this nothingness is not limited to constructing this experience right now, and you become unlimited by definition). If you want a more in-depth argument of how brain damage works with consciousness in an idealist framework, take a look at Bernardo Kastrup's answer to this problem.

Great explanation man. I love Leo's how to do self-inquiry video. You can definitely awaken from self inquiry alone, although psychs or dissociatives help 'pause' the ego which can help people do self-inquiry from a more clear and less delusional mind space. Self-inquiry by itself is hard for a lot of people due to most people in the modern age having extremely overactive egos shaped by the culture of materialism that runs our world right now.

Think about what divides/separates the multiple POVs inside the one awareness. Is this division real or imaginary?

Ease of access mostly. I do know where to get salvia/dmt/lsd/etc but haven't tried them yet (Yes, I do plan to get skullfucked by Salvia once in my life, lol). I do plan to try a lot more psychedelics in the future, but right now I'm trying to focus more on the survival aspect of life: making money, having a good routine, etc. My past shroom and DXM trips helped me get over a lot of my traumas and fears, as well as making me conscious of what the ego/reality/mind/self/God actually are. Only reason I did shrumfuzed yesterday was because I've had them for months now and wanted to see if they gave me a powerful trip in case I want to use them in the future. As of right now though, no psychedelics or dissos for a while as there is no need for me to trip right now. Something about hanging up the phone once you get the message, lol. I'm sure there may come a time in the future where I will want to trip again, and I will probably venture into other psychedelics then.

I am not sure. Psilocybin is the only psychedelic I've done and the trip yesterday was different than a typical shroom trip. From what I've read online it's either 4-AcO-DMT or 4 HO MET. But I haven't done either of them so I can't really say. It was a shorter trip, lasting around 3-4 hours, but was very intense. In contrast, a shroom trip for me typically lasts much longer.

I tried 2 gummies yesterday night. Holy shit they do pack a punch. Felt like a few hours of my entire body just being cradled by the Universe and being filled with pure Love.

Dude, you can't just generalize any group and apply that generality to every single member of the group. Doesn't matter if its hot girls, a race, a religion, etc. The majority does not represent every single individual who is part of that group. That is a very low IQ way to think.

Sounds like exactly me, honestly. Psychedelics/dissociatives are the answer.

Do you have a playlist for when you are tripping? This is mine: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0B9z2HBoKKmTRD38wQhoJK?si=1nCBgVUTRlW4KhotBE37rg

Out of curiosity, what was your IGN in league and what seasons were you high elo? I used to be grandmaster and did a bit of boosting myself, interesting that we are both on this forum lol

Don't worry, we are all just waiting for you to wake up.

I do also love when the universe skullfucks me

Peterson is so lost in his own world view and ego. Man needs to do a heroic dose of a psychedelic, only way to get his head out of his ass.

I am glad my answers give you hope, friend. I will say though: you can reach a point when you Awaken deep enough that you can 100% get these answers for yourself, at a level much deeper than concept, because all concepts are 2nd order phenomenon (As in, concepts are 'things' that exist within a dream, they are not absolute because they first have to rely on Consciousness experiencing the concept. Truth/Consciousness is absolute). The best way to do so would be to take a psychedelic or dissociative, at a high enough dose where you have a breakthrough. Awakening really is like popping out of a dream, reality gets recontextualized to a level which you would not even be able to conceive of at a lower state of consciousness. If you can't get your hands on psychedelics I would recommend DXM, it is an extremely powerful dissociative at higher doses. I would recommend sticking to 2nd plateau if you do DXM and only go to 3rd plateau if you are used to the DXM headspace and are ready to experience insane levels of mindfuckery. This video in particular explains very well what a psychedelic/dissociative does to you. But first, question absolutely everything. Remember: It is human nature to bullshit and make up stories. We choose stories based on what is most convenient for survival. For the vast majority of people, their idea of what reality is is deeply skewed by cultural brainwashing, whether secular or religious. There are so many things that I took for granted pre awakening which before seemed obvious, but it was only obvious because I just believed it deeply and never deeply questioned it. Ultimately, YOU decide what is absolutely true. Which is a double edged sword, because if you believe something is true, then nothing in the Universe can change your mind unless YOU question it yourself. In that sense, you have the ultimate authority on what Truth is. (I am not talking about schizo-maxxing and believing 1+1 = 3 is true, I mean more fundamental assumptions like "This is who/what I am." or "This is what reality is,") To relate this to a personal example: I used to believe I was ugly for the longest time because I was fat growing up. This affected my self-image and made me have no confidence. However, later when I got lean and started getting good results with dating I was forced to confront this belief. This belief was so powerful, it became my whole identity. When I deconstructed this identity more and more, it literally felt like dying. Because that was who I thought I was for the majority of my life. So to lose that identity is scary, because I had no idea what my identity could be after letting go of it. Well, this pretty much goes for every single identity you have which is not your deepest identity as Absolute Infinity.

Sounds like a nice trip. How much do you plan to increase your dosage by per trip? Be careful, how deep a mushroom trip goes increases a lot at higher doses, and they can get a little twisted (as in, your ego might start to get quite scared when you start to experience full nonduality) at dosages of 3.5g+. Great for understanding consciousness and Awakening, though, when you get past the fear. My previous understanding of reality got absolutely shattered at a dose of 3.5g.

That is not a proof for multiple minds. Many Minds and Bohm's implicate order are interpretations, not actual experimental results. No experiment has ever detected a branching mind. No experiment has ever measured the implicate order directly. These are philosophical stories physicists tell to make the mathematics feel coherent. They are metaphysics dressed in the language of physics. And here is the deeper problem. Every quantum experiment assumes an observer from the outset. The entire formalism of quantum mechanics: the measurement problem, wave function collapse, decoherence, is structured around the distinction between the observed system and the observer. Obviously this is not the case for consciousness/mind, which is nondual when all distinctions collapse. These theories don't say anything about the nature of if there is one mind or multiple minds, because they assume duality as a given. But if anything, Bohm's implicate order literally states that there is one Mind: "many observers are locally unfolded expressions of the same undivided consciousness, appearing at different space and timepoints." Undivided consciousness = One Mind. There is 0 proof anywhere in reality of there being multiple minds. You cannot posit multiple minds without any proof. Your direct experience tells you there is only your mind. I am not sure why you think you as mind are not located everywhere and nowhere. Is that not literally what your direct experience tells you? If not, I would say you can Awaken further to what your true nature is. The fact that you think that there is a real distinction between "You" and "I" tells me that you are viewing the ego as a real thing that divides reality rather than a construction in your infinite mind. Your experience is absolute. Nothing can exist outside your experience, by definition, because you are experience. Really grasp the implications of what is being said here when I say your experience is absolute. When I say "Your experience" I mean your experience as God. There IS no ego that is experiencing. The ego is quite literally an imaginary construct. "Each one of us has a different experience" is not true at all. There is also 0 empirical proof of this. Unless you mean 'each one of us' as egos/personalities, but then you are not getting what 'Mind' refers to. Mind = Reality. Everything you experience, every thought, your human body, the distinction between 'Me' and You,' and egos/personalities arise in mind. With all due respect, there are many holes in your metaphysics. You have not given any proof at all to support your claim that multiple minds exist.

To be very precise, in split brain you don't get two minds from one, you get two distinct personalities dissociated from each other, experienced by the same Mind.

The point is that "I" and "You" are the same being/mind. You are thinking I am saying I as the ego am the only mind exists. However, the ego is not a mind. In fact, even if you are a materialist, the ego is not even the brain. The ego is a series of thoughts, perceptions, and feelings that occur in Mind which falsely creates it's own identity. You have this metaphysical assumption that there are 'multiple' minds and I am saying my individual mind is the only one that exists. Notice that such a thing has never been empirically proven (remember, I am talking about Mind, not the experience of a brain or an ego that the Mind dreams up). You will never be able to validate there being multiple minds through science or direct experience. Science has not and cannot ever prove there are multiple minds (again, I am not talking about multiple brains), and your direct experience tells you that everything occurs within your Mind. The mind I am talking about is God's Infinite Mind which you and I both are, which is located nowhere and everywhere at once. It is where all experience happens.

Yes. However, don't assume that what 'You' as the ego wants is what God wants. For example, I would love to reincarnate into a rich and super powerful harem protagonist in a beautiful fantasy world after my current incarnation. However, notice that this desire only comes from my survival needs. After physical death, when I am at the highest states of consciousness as the Absolute, my desires are not necessarily going to be the same as this. For example, the nature of infinity is so radical that I could have already incarnated into a life like that over a hundred trillion times. Imagine what it would be like if the ego got what it wanted, not once, but for the next 100,000,000 years. Biological immortality. Sex with the hottest women everyday. Food that is amazing and healthy. 50 mansions. 150 cars. Infinite money generation. It may seem like an utopia at first, but really think about it: If the ego got EXACTLY what it wanted for that long, you would fall into a deep hole of boredom and nihilism after the first hundred or so years, if not literally within a few weeks. Basically, anything that seems like a great universe to reincarnate to right now is distorted by your survival wants and needs. Which necessarily will not be there when you reach the Godhead. But you absolutely could imagine any type of existence after death, like you are imagining your current life right now. Honestly, I am not so sure. Remember, at the highest states of consciousness, God is ultimately sovereign. Causality and karma are dreams within consciousness. Something dreamt up by God. Just because karma plays out in this current life does not mean it will apply after physical death. God is Infinite Will.