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How many people in this forum question Leo? I want to be one of them. I don't want Dogma. I remember the first time I saw how delusional mass amount of people can be is when I read actualized.org haters, it's like they never even opened a fucking video to see the lessons and depth. They don't even do the basic research. If thats how the masses operate to find truth than I can't trust the masses, I have to find truth for myself.

I just realised I was going to adopt and force a full on blackpill ideology because it allowed me to live a certain way which seemed appealing, like a sort of fantasy. Trying to align with truth is so hard, it's like you sacrifice happiness for it. It's so hard to align with truth no matter the emotional cost. I want to know what's really going on in the world, not yet in the metaphysical (I will get there), but in normal human everyday life. Fuck it, I guess I just won't be happy then.

I took one of the exams today, I did so badly, its confirmed. I failed. Im failing the year. Fuck I got to repeat it. I don't know what to think about it honestly. I've been getting back into blackpill lately, I really don't like how I was avoiding it, I was scared of it being true, and I was using actualised.org as hope for it not to be true. I don't like how I was scared of truth and so was unable to properly explore this perspective. I think I'm slowly getting into it. This is my journey, I'll try to find truth, I'll explore different perspectives. Blackpill YouTubers do have some points. I really started to dislike false hope. Blackpill ideology is still an ideology however, I am aware of that. There are clear ideological aspects of blackpill, which I don't like. But I will try not to be afraid of adopting ideas from the blackpill if they have truth in them. Anyway yea so I pulled an all-nighter yesterday and I fucked up the test today, I can't sleep right now I'm pretty depressed. It is what it is.

Hey everyone, I’m really struggling and could use some advice or direction. For as long as I can remember, I've had a hard time focusing. In high school, it was a mess, I was struggling to get through. Now, in university, it’s still hard. I’ve tried so many things to be productive, like motivating myself with fear (which is super harsh on me), but nothing seems to stick long term. I’m constantly feeling like I’m trying so hard but getting nowhere, and it's really messing with my confidence. On top of that, I’m super impulsive. When I get angry, I sometimes break things, which just makes me feel even worse afterward. I know it’s not healthy, and I need to get this under control, but I don’t even know where to start. I’ve been thinking it might be ADHD, but I really don’t want to self-diagnose and end up relying on medication if that’s not the real issue. On the other hand, when a lot of ADHDers describe how they feel, it feels exactly the same. A battle uphill. It’s also crossed my mind that this could be something else entirely, like heavy metal poisoning or some other underlying cause. But how do I even know the difference, I can get tested but that takes money and time, so does getting professional help for ADHD. What should I start with? I’m looking for advice on how to find the right professional help or resources that could point me in the right direction. I need a real plan of action that works, not just more tips on organizing my life. How do I get proper professional help? Should I first check for heavy metals or go to a professional? How do I make sure im not mis-diagnosed? I don't want to take meds unnecessarily. What should I do in the mean time? Any useful websites or forums you know dedicated with ADHD? Please help, I would appreciate it.

@Leo Gura Awesome Im 19 and have it pretty much my whole life. When I was 16 it got pretty bad, then it got better. I went to doctor and everything, they didn't help it, I just got a hearing test and I was good but damn there really weren't any cure. If it's seriously a cure I would be amazed, I don't know how silence sounds. I was pretty desperate for cure or smth back then.

@Realms of Wonder Thats super awesome, some questions if you don't mind me asking: What would your current more mature self say to your 19 year old self? Also, how much of maturing process do you think just comes with age?

I'm panicking and procrastinating. I watched this video. Here he talks about how doubting yourself is normal, and having anxiety about whether you ahiceve the goal or not is completely normal.Even billionaires have this fear. He also explains also how riding highs and lows are important, but during the lows to have a list of successes you can remind yourself of. Sort of like David Goggin's cookie jar. Anyway, now Im going to embrace the anxiety I have and maybe that will be conducive to work.

Oh I do remember this one time I was super motivated ans basically lost 10 killos in 3 weeks, and thats when I liked this girl. I don't think I ever wanted something more in life ahahaha. Maybe I just don't want it enough and it's not ADHD. or maybe if you want something enough, it doesnt matter how much ADHD you have. But even then I mean, I wanted her so bad I basically fear mongered myself to work so...mhmmm idk

Realised how important money is. Money actually moves things. Money makes things happen. I was born pretty well off, was oblivious to how important it is. Its fucking important.

Alright yesterday didn't accomplish everything as planned, I will try another strategy again. I don't even know why I bother trying but honestly I have nothing better to do. This time I will use another strategy, I don't think I tried this in particular. The idea is this: I know that I can only work productively for a certain amount of time until I become unproductive. So I will use that as motivation and urgency. I will recognise that me procrastinating basically wasting the only time I have where my mind will be productive. After this productive timeframe, eventually no matter how much I try productivity becomes harder. Ok so I will try this out now.

@Raze This is something I really want to do. I tried many many many times I tell you but I failed. Maybe you can help me here: I relapse back into social media because without it I actually start thinking some horrible thoughts, which fucks my mental. Like it's hard to get through that, I start overthinking and ruminating about problems that aren't even that big of a deal, this becomes painful and then I relapse.

@Human Mint The teachers are fine is my school. The education is actually really good. I am interested in the subjects, it's just that I struggle with standardised tests, presentations for me a very easy. Standardised tests are hard asf, cramming for them seems impossible, and even if I know the knowledge many times I don't apply it well in the test. I know ADHD is overdiognosed, I don't want to fall in that trap.

@Ulax thanks dude!

@Ulax Yea I know, appreciate the help regardless really.

@Sho fio Exercise and any techniques have minimal effect. The main thing I found that works is severely fear mongering myself to work which is something I cant get myself to do all the time. Also it's not to say I cant work at all, it varies, but its a gamble every time. I have to rely on motivation, building discipline hasn't worked.

The method worked for 2 and a half hours but Ive procrastinated not for 2. Fuck man. Back to square one.

Coffee has a weird effect on me. If I drink it on good sleep I feel great on it. However sometimes I do get very hyper-active or sometimes it makes me sleepy. I know I'm giving you mixed answers but thats because it really does have varying effects on me depending on how much sleep I got the night before. Yes, I might get a psychiatrist. Thank you for the video recommendation, I looked through it I will try it later today.

@Human MintHey, I am studying business and economics. I failed half my subjects this year. Each year we have 10 subjects (5 per semester) and I have to rewrite 5 of them. 2 of them Im not rewriting because Im simply not prepared, three of them I am rewriting. If I pass the three subjects I am chasing to rewrite I will be able to progress to second year. Yes so for me, I have very impulsive tendencies and huge troubles focusing which are symptoms in line with ADHD, I have always been a relatively hyper person. Right now, being impulsive and my lack of focus is disrupting my life, thats why Im trying to find solutions. Yes, Yes, Yes, I am skeptical about doctors, I don't want unnecessarily get on meds.

I'm watching this video on ADHD, I need something right now to study for the test thats in 2 days. This is what ChatGPT says after I gave it the transcript of the video: Based on the transcript from Dr. Russell Barkley's lecture on ADHD, here's a study plan incorporating the strategies he discussed. This plan focuses on managing ADHD-related challenges by externalizing information, making time tangible, and optimizing motivation and executive function. ### Study Plan for ADHD #### 1. **Externalize Information** - **Use Visual Aids**: Create charts, diagrams, or mind maps for the material you need to study. Place these in visible locations around your study area. - **Sticky Notes and Reminders**: Write down key points or reminders on sticky notes and place them where you can easily see them while studying. - **Checklists**: Create checklists for your tasks. Check off items as you complete them to provide a sense of accomplishment and progress. #### 2. **Make Time Tangible** - **Timers and Clocks**: Use a visible timer or clock to keep track of your study sessions. Consider using a countdown timer to create a sense of urgency and focus. - **Break Assignments into Small Steps**: Break down your study tasks into smaller, manageable steps. For example, instead of "study for the exam," break it down into "review Chapter 1," "practice problems for Chapter 1," etc. - **Set Short-Term Goals**: Set small, immediate goals, like studying for 10 minutes or completing one section of a chapter, followed by a short break. #### 3. **Externalize Motivation** - **Reward System**: Establish a reward system for yourself. After completing a task, reward yourself with something small, like a snack or a few minutes of a favorite activity. - **Accountability Partner**: Study with a friend or group who can help keep you accountable and provide immediate feedback and encouragement. - **Gamification**: Turn your study tasks into a game. For example, earn points for completing tasks and reach certain "levels" for extra rewards. #### 4. **Manual Problem Solving** - **Use Physical Tools**: When studying subjects like math or science, use physical objects like counters, flashcards, or an abacus to help visualize problems. - **Interactive Learning**: Engage with the material physically—write things out by hand, use flashcards, or employ apps that allow you to interact with the content. #### 5. **Frequent Refueling Breaks** - **10 and 3 Rule**: Study for 10 minutes, then take a 3-minute break. During the break, do something relaxing like deep breathing, stretching, or a quick walk. - **Healthy Snacks and Drinks**: Keep healthy snacks and drinks like fruits or sports drinks on hand. These can help maintain blood sugar levels and keep your brain fueled. - **Exercise**: Incorporate short bursts of physical activity into your routine. A quick 5-minute exercise can help refuel your mental energy. #### 6. **Routine and Structure** - **Consistent Study Schedule**: Establish a regular study routine at the same time each day. This helps build a habit and reduces the cognitive load of deciding when to study. - **Pre-Study Ritual**: Develop a pre-study ritual to signal to your brain that it’s time to focus. This could be as simple as organizing your desk or taking a few deep breaths. ### Additional Tips: - **Practice Self-Compassion**: ADHD can make studying challenging. Be kind to yourself and recognize your efforts, even when things don’t go perfectly. - **Medication and Professional Support**: If you're on medication, ensure you're taking it as prescribed, and consider consulting with a professional for additional support tailored to your needs. By following this structured approach, you can effectively manage the challenges of ADHD and improve your study habits. This is what I will do: I've been down this path before, the only major thing thats changed this time around is I am not going to blame myself for not being able to work. I will 10 min work, 1 min chill. I'll do that for one hour. After every hour I will take a 10 minute break on YouTube. Eat. Breath. Stretch. Basically this is my reward, and Time to Replenish. I will use a relaxation technique from the book Psycho-cybernetics by Maxwell Malts. It works great for me. I have a physical clock placed on my desk. I will also keep a todo list tab open with my tasks Todays Tasks are: 1. Respond to Actualised messages on my thread 2. Complete Micro Part 1 in class questions 3. Start Micro part 1 revision questions I will constantly remind myself and accept I have trouble working, I will not blame myself.

Bro you say this course is great, what results have you achieved after taking it?

Ate a bunch of shit again aswell, pizza, Chinese takeout. Back to bck.

I posted a thread on the mental health section of the forum, I want to solve this ADHD issue that I have. One other thing that bothers me is how many people in this world who aren't self actualised, like there are very very little. And of the people who are self actualise, do so by coming up with their own way of living life. My point being that maybe buying Leo's course is not just an end all be all solution but rather a large collection of material that you need to process on your own. Maybe for me, I have to use the flight or fight motivation that I know works even if it's unsustainable long term because thats the only thing that works. I mean how many people do you know from actualised that fully are taking part in their actualising. I don't think there are many. Maybe thats because for each person there are certain pieces of the puzzle that are fundamentally different. Maybe one shouldn't be afraid of being different pr using techniques ill advised by someone else. edit: maybe im jus desperate

ps. my parents do think I am dysfunctional in some ways and I think will be willing to help. I really don't want to get mis-diagnosed though, like taking meds for the rest of your life seems scary, and I know everyone and they mother is diagnosed with ADHD and have medication.

Today I was struggling to study and kept watching random videos in YouTube or getting distracted. My 10 year old brother came down to my room to give me a hug. I immediately had a negative reaction when he opened the door. I was like "I am studying, leave", in a nasty tone. In reaction to this, my brother was hurt and he slammed the door. I got really angry at this and impulsively smacked the door with my hand. The door was made of glass, the glass broke and my hand started bleeding. This obviously made my parents mad, as it is increased expenses. It's clear to me that the reason I got angry and smacked the door was because I didn't like the fact that my brother acknowledged my bad behaviour. So yes pffcourse it's my fault. This isn't even the first time I got angry like this, I am a repeated offender. It is clear that I have anger issues. I'm seriously considering going to therapy, I might have indiagnosed ADHD or maybe heavy metal poisoning. I seriously have to get this under control, I can't make other peoples life worse because of my anger problems. I saw a video that explained that people with ADHD are extremely volatile and have problems as they act on their impulses. I testes 99 percentile volatility on Jordan Peterson's test. I have anger issues. I can't get my life on track. I also might just be a pussy, I am sheltered asf. I'm scared, I don't wan to depend or meds, but I desire more tp solve this fucking issue. I feel like im fighting uphill.

I was just going down am ego spiral where I felt like I need to become better than others etc etc. Then I started watching Leo's wage slavery video, 30 minutes in I get reminded how un-nuanced and egoistic my thought process was. Damn bro, I'm greatful lowkwy. I really hope I don't fall into this dog eat dog mentality because deep down now I know that there's this whole more nuanced way of living life, where you are aware of your own and societies manipulations and work around in consciously. Its crazy how much more nuanced Leo videos are compared to like Hamza