UpperMaster

I’m in a walk thinking about what area of my life I should commit to. Woman Business or Philosophy. their all very needed. Not pursuing each and any one of them comes with a price. Each area of my life comes with overcoming difficulties. I suspect that one of the reasons for why I don’t fully commit to one is because when I do temporarily commit I realise that it’s not that easy. No-matter what area in life I commit to I realise I can’t skip the pain and hard work. It’s unavoidable. That’s such a bitter pill to swallow. But this understanding is what is now forcing me to chose a path. I am currently convinced I should go for business. Simply because I am encountering a lot of people who are in business, I know people that are succeeding and so I have the environment to learn. Philosophy is the same, I can get that environment. I know a Ramana Maharishi teacher Micheal James who I can learn from. dating wise, I’m in uni so a lot of woman. But il be honest the amount of people in my city is small. So il probably need to save some money to go to bigger cities. each path is hard, I just gotta pick one and stick with it.

I also got in contact with my university therapist. Maybe it will help me with some of the struggles I face in life.

My mom gave me a speech about how I keep self doubting myself and that’s why I’m unsuccessful. She gave me such a speech before but this one hit different. Additionally I feel like I need to ground my life on a goal. I have to make a decision. What will I focus on, and just focus on that. Is it dating. Business. Philosophy. There’s drawbacks to not pursuing any one of them but I must decide and stick with it.

@Davino I appreciate your appreciation

I need to get some ass asap, I can’t think of nothing else shshshs fuck

@Sugarcoat The two surgeries he got, watch the vid dawg. One I think he already had, the other was almost complrelty artificially created from my understanding.

another video

I see self-improvement as having two modes: enhancing the quality of how you enjoy what you already do or working to change external circumstances. I've been focused on the latter, but maybe shifting to the former would be more beneficial for me.

I started meditating in efforts to try to fix my ADHD. After a meditation session today, I had a few moments of more presence. I realize that Im so unpresent naturally and I am emotionally too volatile. I'm in my head too much and am going crazy slightly. Im not grounded at all.

Who's Dan Joe?

Instead of asking whether or not I can do something, maybe I should ask what is the best decision I can make. And just focus on doing that.

I keep trying to look for answers outside me. I am starting to stop this habit, and am looking more inward. I really think this is a positive change.

I want to be an integrated man.

I think I have to become more ruthless in general. More ruthless with my time, more ruthless with people. I am the opposite right now and it's costing me success in life. This is all speculation, but I think its true.

If your reading this actually maybe give me your opinion. how can you progress in life if your busy processing every emotion. to be successful I realise you just gotta suck it up, do the work, cast out the unnecessary emotions involved. otherwise you can’t move forward. I mean try processing every emotion. You’ll just be stuck.

I think I am over emotional and have to develop the more heartless part of myself so to speak.

I’m thinking maybe the whole you should “process your emotions” is just dogma. I ate it up, and now I seem to be hyper emotional. it might not be dogma, but I definitely took it in as dogma.

I’m my own authority figure, I’m thinking through everything, I’m not gonna believe everyone just like that, it’s just heresay.

For a moment I went back to the mental mode of "following internet gurus online" but now I realize that this might be the sole reason for why I haven't been progressing. Taking yourself as an authority is proving to be more and more important.

I change my mind orange creators I kinda retarded, everyone except maybe Alex Hormozi.

I'm going to try to enjoy stage orange. Related to the last post, Im watching a lot of stage orange content, and I think it's helping me tremendously with becoming more productive and optimizing for success. So cool and weird to see how the content you consume can change your life.

This rant was slightly overblown. I didn't stick with it. I addicted to social media. I'll just be more wary about what I watch. I definitely will try thinking on my own more. I defenitly try now to think by myself. I don't really search for advice on line as much as I think for myself. I think that's really helpful. I just wanted to say that I didn't quit social media col turkey like how I may have implied.

Realising the inportance of creativity in the day to day. Super underrated

I want to move out of from my families house. I just had a fight with my mother and realised that it’s not worth staying here. not because I have bad parents. I have amazing parents, they’ve done so much for me. They are very very high quality. But I realise that staying here has been an impediment to my growth. I want to use my own wings to fly, not rely on my parents. I feel as if my life isn’t mine. I feel as if I am not living life the way I should. maybe this is just a temporary feeling. But I doubt that, as this is more of a realization then it is a feeling. I amm not living my life to the fullest because I live with my parents. I am using the fact that I am living with my parents as a safety net which allows me to live mediocrely. that much is clear

You're a slave if you can't think or verify things for yourself. When you rely on others' ideas without confirmation, your perception of reality might seem logical to you, but it's built on assumptions passed on by other, assumptions you've never questioned.