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I totally forgot to mention another major issue with the "think for yourself" mindset. Leo suggests listening to different perspectives, thinking through each one, and selecting those that you can logically and experientially validate to fit into your overall view of reality. The problem is, there are so many perspectives to consider that it can feel overwhelming to process them all, especially when you don't have much life experience and are still young. At some point, I feel like obsessively trying to piece together a perfect model of reality can actually hold you back from making progress. At least, that's how it feels to me. I think I'll just commit to following one "mentor" for a time being then after I exhausted his teaching, go to another teacher. This multi-perspective thing to me just seems overwhelming, and impractical to implement. edit: I didn't articulate the post properly this is actually the main issue lol (I realize)

lost hope, want hope

I rather die fighting though

Fuck self-improvement it literally doesn’t work. Most people that tell me that self improvement changed their lives are fuckin losers aswell. only a small percentage actually win. Spend money on some course and they find “life purpose” but their life purpose is not even an accomplishment it’s some boring shit. Niggas maxing out 200k salary and are like I’m successful. To me 200k is dissapointinf and I can barely make anything because I’m useless. Can’t work for shit. It’s not adhd I’m a pussy and retarded.

I hate myself so much. Everything I do gets fucked.

Hey everyone, I came across a video review on YouTube about Jordan Peterson's Future-Authoring program while searching for feedback (I'm currently going through the program myself). This post doesn't really have anything to do with the program itself, more so the video. In the program you just basically get to outline your goals. In the video, the guy shares his experience after using the program. I found it quite interesting because, although he seemed to have started working towards his life goals, he hasn’t made any substantial progress in any one area. This got me thinking about the possible reasons behind this and what mistakes he might be making. I ended up taking some notes and making my own observations. I don't want to end up in his position. 3.5 years into chasing your goals but not achieving them. I'd love for you all to watch the video and share your thoughts on why you think he's not making significant progress? What is he doing wrong?

@Asayake I agree with everything you said here. I think personally that he doesn't commit. You got an idea and was ready to do a music video, and then quit because he realized he wasn't as passionate. I think he should have created the music video, it would be like he has something to show. I also suspect that he has an expectation that he should enjoy everything he does, or all parts of the job should be enjoyble.

Last year I used a technique to get me to study and score high on a math midterm. I think that was the highlight of the year academically speaking. Apart from fear mongering, this technique is also something that worked. It's just more mundane, boring, and is bad for cramming but great in terms of putting in consistent work. I will start using that instead and report my findings here.

@integration journey you too G

I want to understand more of the benefits of speaking truth. I intuit it to be very important. I am going to commit to speaking and acting more in line with truth.

Been going crazy because I don't have any stable belief system or anything body of knowledge. It feels like I cant orient myself in any direction, I increasingly becoming more concerned because I literally have no foundation of knowledge to base my life on. Maybe a better way to phrase it is I am unhappy with my current understanding of life

I’ve been obsessing over things that are hard to change like height. It’s probably wasting a lot of my time. This started to happen only after consuming black pill content

i keep finding that for me, it’s very hard to separate my search existential truth from my career or other parts of my life. it just happened again, and it’s not the first time where, I was forced to confront truth of an aspect of life. But to understand any truth about life, it’s always in the context of existential truth. Example: what do girls find attractive? —> how do I know for sure, should I trust my own experience someone else —-> I should probably trust my own experience because that’s the only way I can confirm for myself otherwise it’s heresay ——> How can I trust my own experience, maybe my experience doesn’t represent truth —-> boom we entered existential domain, now I’m questioning what experience is, how can I know it’s real, how can I be sure that I can trust my rationality to get to the truth.

I got to start thinking for myself. I got to stop fearing being wrong. I end up adopting the beliefs and view points of others. I realise that when you adopt other people’s beliefs, you start living their life. You adopt their lens from which they see reality.

I've been trying to get a job. I applied to 5 dishwashing jobs. I'm thinking of developing my sales skill instead and get into sales.

Last few days I’ve been implementing a new tactic that seems to be helping become much more effective than before. I started to leverage my OCD or neuroticism. What I basically did was I made myself obsessive compulsive around the idea of doing things perfectly (perfectionism) to various degrease and found that it yielded a huge improvement in my productivity. Like seriously. I was super motivated. The cons of this was that you don’t feel relaxed ever. I’m going to keep trying to improve my productivity this way, and see if I can implement it in a more sustainable manner.

Im almost posted the following message two nights ago because I was certain this is what I wanted to do, I’m posting again in order to document the process. Here I’m underscoring the conviction I felt one night I guess. The next day (the following two days, I still felt the conviction but it was clear that the initial conviction I felt was like a momentary impulse sort of thing) : I’m going to start the music career that I always wanted to. It’s now or never. This is the chance. I want this more than anything. Failing the year has really fuelled my hunger for success. I’m scared. Scared of missing out. Scared of making the wrong decision. In the midst of all this fear, I know that I want this the most. I want to pursue rap. I’m good at it. I have the talent. I’ll give it ago for the next 5 years, till the age of 25. It’s probably seems like a random impulse decision to anyone reading this. It isn’t. This is something I wanted to do from childhood, but now I’m sure. My failure experience, has somewhat directed me to what’s important. I want this. It’s clear that in order for me to have this dream achieved I need to go all out. I must sacrifice everything for this. Now it’s clear that I am willing to do it. Let’s go world-wide. Metaphysical truth will take a back pedal.

I’ll kill myself if J don’t become an over-achiever by 25

Am I being a good person because I‘m weak and can’t cause harm or because I am genuinely a good person . heard this idea from Jordan Peterson but it didn’t click until today. I might just be a good person because I can’t cause harm.

Im pretty sure you can hide a thread aint that basically the same

This is more of just a reminder, Leo promised these episodes on the Psychology of being wrong video. Super super interesting concepts. Time stamp: 2:23:53

Leo on being positive early on in self-development journey Go to time 2:20:55

When I smoke weed and close my eyes I see patterns

I'm going to try to be more positive moving on. Being overly positive and deluding yourself with falsehood isn't good, but the opposite could happen too. I think my pessimistic attitude is a bit extreme, I tend to be overly pessimistic which is also deluding yourself with falsehood. I will try to be much more positive going forward and report changes I feel.