Xonas Pitfall

That's a significant assumption. Our ancestors, like Australopithecus, Homo habilis, and Homo erectus, lacked the advanced brain and cognitive abilities that define Homo sapiens. Their brains were smaller, which limited their ability to think abstractly, plan, or form complex social structures. Unlike animals that are better predators, faster, stronger, or more agile, our survival advantage came from our ability to think, create tools, and collaborate in large groups. Over time, those without these cognitive traits were outcompeted or wiped out, leaving Homo sapiens as the dominant species due to our brain's adaptability and flexibility. The approach you're suggesting was attempted in nature, and if anything, it was necessary for further development. These species were wiped out because they couldn’t survive, while we, Homo sapiens, remained due to our adaptability and cognitive abilities. You see, we don't have many inherent genetic or physical advantages: Humans have an unusually large brain relative to body size, particularly in the neocortex, the part of the brain responsible for higher functions like reasoning. Highly developed hands, specifically opposable thumbs, which allowed for intricate tool-making and manipulation. Humans are also incredibly social animals, and our survival often depended on cooperation and communication within groups. These are a few advantages we have, and all of them, to some extent, support the development of more complex structures of thinking and conceptualizing. If we were created to be exceptionally large, fast, or flexible, nature would likely have doubled down on those traits more. However, since most of our advantages lie in our brain structure, our ability to manipulate reality with flexible hands, and our social group dynamics, it made more sense for nature to emphasize these traits. Nature is very efficient at times.

@Jannes I think this is more of a practical issue. Obviously, you're going to need to do everything since well... you want to do everything, haha. There's no way around it, you won’t have enough information before trying. So, first, focus on getting your survival situation in order: secure your basic human needs and make sure your income is stable, so you're not stressed. Once that’s in place, you can figure out how much free time you can allocate for spiritual pursuits and psychedelics. Plan it out in advance: what kind of psychedelics? How many grams? LSD, mushrooms, 5-MeO-DMT, DMT, etc. If you prefer a retreat, I don’t have much info on that, but you can look it up. From there, start feeling it out and see how your body and mind respond. You’re going in without knowing exactly what will happen; you might get insights immediately, or you might find that your ego is much more stubborn than you expected. Based on your experiences, you’ll start to see what comes up, whether you need to work on things like dating, making more money, or traveling. Or maybe you’ll be able to let those desires go. For something like life purpose (LP) specifically, you won’t suddenly realize it during a trip if you’ve never had any external experience or input in that area. If you’ve never heard of a particular line of work, it won’t just appear to you during a psychedelic experience. Research and experience are key if you want to find your LP. If you don’t have any lingering desires, you can just continue with your spiritual pursuits. Over time, you’ll likely experience God realization. After that, you'll either be very clear on your life purpose (LP) and happy with it, or you might find that you no longer care much about it. In that case, your focus on survival and basic needs will help maintain whatever lifestyle you’ve found in the process. Basically, you don't have all the info yet, so there's not much you can do. Psychedelics (God-realization) won’t suddenly give you an insight into your life purpose (LP) without any prior input. To recontextualize something, you need to have something to recontextualize in the first place. For example, if someone was born to be a hockey player but never heard of it, a trip won’t make them think, “Oh, I should play hockey! What's that?” What’s more likely is that the desire was already there, maybe from childhood or while watching sports, or even while training in a different sport. They likely have a strong subconscious memory of it. Then, during the trip, it suddenly clicks for them. Also, be careful of psychedelic delusions. You might suddenly think, “I want to be a billionaire to save the world! I wanna start a healthy whole foods business!” But if you have zero experience with what that actually entails, it can mess with you. Psychedelics can help with LP discovery, but they work best when you’ve already had experience or exposure to potential LPs. Without that, it can easily become delusional. A better approach might be to start working on an LP you think you'd like, and then use psychedelics to help you gain emotional attunement and clarity. Let them help you assess and keep you in check whether what you’re doing is truly enjoyable and aligned with who you are. It’s really important to avoid black-and-white thinking, like believing there's only one true LP for you or that you must follow the most optimal path. In reality, the best you can do is minmax: gather as much experience and information as quickly as possible so you can make better decisions. It’s all about flexibility and adaptation. Survival is crucial and cannot be ignored even at the highest levels.

Mosquitoes evolved to produce many offspring because the survival rate for each individual is low (Female mosquitoes typically lay a large number of eggs, with some species laying up to 300 eggs at a time), and most of them won’t make it past birth. You could think of it as each mosquito exploring a different "path" in reality, and natural selection acts as a filter, keeping only the ones that survive. At some point, evolution realized that if an organism could "pre-abstract" the consequences of actions by observing past outcomes, it wouldn't need to spawn multitudes of offspring just to ensure one survives. This is especially important for animals that take a long time to give birth to a single offspring, making it impractical to have so many. The ability to predict and understand your environment became a huge evolutionary advantage, just like long-term memory. For example, if I can remember that the last five cavemen who went down a certain path didn’t return alive, I can deduce that the path is dangerous and avoid it. If I can recall past seasons, I can plan for the winter and manage my resources better. Even better, if I can understand the why behind the seasons, I can prepare for an early winter and avoid being caught off guard. This cognitive ability is a huge survival benefit, and the same principle applies in the modern world. You want to know the truth about your business partner because you don’t want to be taken advantage of. You need to understand your romantic partner’s behavior to avoid planning a future with someone who might betray you. Career planning requires abstract thinking too: understanding how you might feel in different roles, anticipating the harsh realities of corporate work before you join. All of these are high-level, conceptual, abstract thinking required to survive most optimally. In the past, understanding why thunder occurred helped you avoid placing your house in dangerous places. Today, if you understand why certain things happen, you can manage your life better. This is also why early religions and pagan beliefs developed; they sought to explain external forces beyond human control, so people could navigate their reality more effectively. "Okay, so I understand that a flood might happen at random times, and that’s not ideal. I don’t like that. Hmm, why does the flood happen? What’s the truth behind it? Oh, it must be a flood God! I should give sacrifices to the flood God so they won’t be upset with me! Of course!" This is a primitive example of how truth-seeking happens. Truth is both practical and, at times, impractical for survival. But it makes a lot of sense why we evolved to seek it. Think of it like this: If you were inside a video game, wouldn't you want to know if there’s a “God mode,” a cheat, or a glitch you can use to navigate the game better? If you could understand how the game was made, you'd have an advantage and could use that knowledge to "win." This is highly appealing to the ego. Ego loves the idea of God, using it as a tool for survival. Little does the ego realize, it’s actually seeking its own self-annihilation with that exact wish. Truth means understanding the cause, and most of the time, we seek to know the cause of things so we can navigate better.

Hmm... It’s really circumstantial. The issue with survival is that it impacts your inquiry. You can still realize God, but it’s less likely because desires and unresolved karma will creep back in. For example, you might have a peak enlightenment experience, but desires such as intimacy, love, or sex could still linger. Until those are satiated to a decent extent, you likely won’t be able to truly embody higher states (ignoring genetic freaks). Similarly, if you’re living paycheck to paycheck and stressed out, your mind is likely to dismiss deeper realizations as less important, leaving you less contemplative. I’d suggest saving up some money for psychedelics or retreats, and finding spare time to listen to Leo’s videos and engage in mind deconstruction. These experiences will broaden your horizons, give clarity to your desires, and help increase your capacity to handle survival, as well as boost your creativity. But at some point, you’ll probably face blockages that require more experience and karma to burn through. That’s when it’s time to focus on those issues so you have fewer regrets. Once you do, you can focus more on spirituality, rinse and repeat, until your survival starts aligning with your LP. Ideally, your LP and your spiritual growth will start fueling each other. Even if you eventually decide you just want to sit in a cave, avoid talking to anyone, and not help others, you’ll still need to figure out how to maintain that lifestyle. Your LP could then shift to how you use your skills to support that lifestyle. And if you decide you want to help others, great, you’ve already started, and you’ll be even more certain about it!

Do you think someone can be enlightened yet still have a toxic LP afterward? I doubt it, but it’d be curious to hear what others think. Maybe you just want to experience "evil" for the fun of it and for a deeper understanding of it. Or perhaps there’s still some leftover ego and unrealized karma (desires) that wiggle their way back, kind of like those spiritual sexual trafficking cults. Or perhaps you realize ego will always be there, so you might as well satisfy it and make yourself as happy as you can. Shrug, shrug...

Exactly! The way I see it, you can use these polarities to spot your blind spots on both sides. If you have too much masculine polarity, you might need more connection to the feminine to awaken. This could involve learning to "submit" to the experience, embracing raw truth without the mind trying to analyze it or over-intellectualize it. You might need to let go of the typical scientific materialistic arguments like, "This is too woo-woo, what's the use in this? How do I benefit from this? This is all too fluffy and irrational!" and be open to crying, expressing, screaming, or being a vulnerable curled up cry baby asking for Mommy during the trip to reach higher states. It’s about not being so ego-survival-focused, prioritizing connection instead of pragmatism. Being open to embracing more chaos, irrationality (insanity moments), and not being too grounded in reality during your experiences, without seeing it as you becoming too 'feminine and weak,' so your ego blocks you. Or being open to things like love, beauty, care, and selflessness as actual parts of truth, and not labeling them as too naive, utopian, feminine, irrelevant, or dismissing them. Didn’t Peter Ralston originally deny Love as an aspect of Truth at one point? Shows the blind spots that can happen, though maybe I’m wrong or he changed his mind. If you have too much feminine polarity, it could lead to deluding yourself into thinking you're "feeeeeeling the frequencies of the universe, deities, chakras", or that crystals are making you more aware. It’s important not to get lost in the fluffy, airy-fairy community-comfort side of things and instead be open to the "uglier" or more "hardcore" aspects of the experience, finding the logical structure of God and deconstructing it without trying to make the truth too beautiful or idealized. And obviously, all the other aspects Leo mentioned in his previous posts. That's how I see it. The path is androgynous and completely neutral, and the feminine and masculine polarities help provide lenses through which you can see what you might be missing and what's blocking you. I agree that saying the path is exclusively 'masculine' or 'more masculine-leaning' is unproductive and useless.

@theleelajoker is awesome!

Being with a girl is gay. Being interested in a girl is gay. Being jealous over a girl is super gay. Talking to a girl? Totally gay. Holding the door for a girl? Gay. Smiling at a girl? Yup, you’re just asking for it. Sharing your fries with a girl? Full-on gay. Looking at a girl’s shoes? Don’t even try to deny it, that’s some serious gay energy right there.

@Basman That’s it. Back under the bucket you go, kitty! 🥡🐈

Super interesting! Do you feel like you had a tendency to attach to one partner more than the other, or have a fixation point? I know for me, this is one of the blockages with polyamory, since I tend to have a singular fixation on a person and desire it reciprocated as well. So I’m super curious how it feels without it. Is it more that each party has traits, hobbies, interests, and ways of loving that soothe you better for one role, and another soothes you better for another? And therefore, you don’t really care if the other party reciprocates the same amount of love compared to the other? I’d love to hear about the mental processes and attachments, and how they play out, but obviously, no need to answer anything you’re not comfortable with ^^ I can just be curious at times. And my condolences... they sound wonderful. 🥀

How did it feel and unveil for you?

HAHA, what does this mean?

That's what she said... (˵ •̀ ᴗ - ˵ ) (Hahahahahaha...)

Thank you very much! It's designed to have very little to no meaning whatsoever. I like creating my usernames from,̵̩͓̊̈̌͒̑͛͒́̄̍̅̐̚͘͠ ̷̢̺̳̣̜̪̦̻͖̱̂͆̉̋͝͠ư̷̰̘͕̋̐̀̈́̔͆͂̄̓̔̈́͑͠n̷̨̡͕̲̤̖̪͇̙̉̆͐̋̍̅̚d̸̯͈͎̭̩̫̍̃̋̿̐́͑͐̋e̵̛͓̒̑͒̍͛f̴̢̨̮͚̗͍̺̱̫͕̥͒̇̌̓̊̓̅͘͜͠i̸͇̾̑͛̌͒̆͐̊͝n̸̡͖̖͎̺͓̘͈̟͇̠͚̠̞̬̿̽̃̎̈́̌́̌̚e̷̬̫͚̠̪͙̞̓̈̈ͅd̴̻̠̬̠̱̺̟̳͑̆͂̒̿̓̆͋͗͝͝ strings by humming random patterns as they come to me (perhaps a reference to Unfiltered Infinity? ). And for the answer... I’m very open to that. I probably should just do more trips and keep contemplating during them, as you suggested! I think the issue is that I still have some lingering 'otherness/materialism/separate reality from the mind' arguments in my brain that I can’t seem to deconstruct. I keep thinking: "Sure, I can conceptually and even experientially understand how the mind works, and how it uses concepts and experiences to define infinity, beauty, God, oneness, and the reality it’s perceiving." But I think the fact that I cannot truly control reality in both my waking and higher consciousness states makes me believe there is 'otherness' independent of my mind, with properties and processes I can never know. And this whole concept of God is just the ultimate way my mind can understand itself and ponder on itself, but the actual source, or the Creator, who is able to mold, spawn, and twist reality, is far different from what I could ever imagine. The best way I can describe it is: There’s reality, then there’s my mind, which evolved from that reality into consciousness to try and understand how reality functions. Sure, my mind is trying to understand reality, and it has plenty of infinite properties, processes, concepts like Infinity, God, and Solipsism, and psychedelic experiences it can create and explore, which is fascinating. But who’s claiming that it’s what created that reality, or is that reality? That's a huge assumption to make. I don’t know if I’m making sense. Leo’s post about being able to manifest a unicorn from pure thought and consciousness was curious to me, but I’ve never really experienced that, nor seen anyone actually do it, just claim it. The closest I’ve ever heard of it is Tesla and how he created his inventions, but even then, he still had to go through a process of materializing those creations. It’s not like it just poofed in front of him for all eternity. And also, this idea that the only present moment is the actual starting point of creation, and from there, I create stories to make sense of it, feels very weird. I had some psychedelic experiences that denied this idea, but it faded sadly. I guess I’ll just keep updating on the forum as I keep breaking my mind, teehee . Thank you!

Agreed! Hence, why I put the HUGE WARNING at the start, haha. Let's pray so!

Nope! It's not a choice; it's a tautology. Basically, it's infinity (all), and it cannot be anything but all. It must be, and include all because it is all. And in order to be all, it has to be both finite and infinite. That’s really all. It didn’t 'choose' anything, it just had to be everything from an absolute perspective. Choice implies an inherent preference for one thing over another, which can only occur from a non-dual, finite perspective.

Yes, please! Moving, maybe...?

Again, the point is to present a very 'biased' and myopic perspective to highlight the silliness! I realize there are a lot of things missing here, but that's the point, hehe! I'm dividing consciousness, splitting it in half, with the hope of uniting it once again! I suppose we can use this post to present biased perspectives and then show the reverse, with the aim of countering that bias.

What would be the male version of this? Attractive interaction with men is about one thing: Openness? Reactivity? Or maybe it all just points to "play", just expressed through different playstyles. Haha, funny... the key insight to 🎮 🕹️ GAME is PLAY! 🎮 🕹️

@Princess Arabia Your profile picture looks like it’s straight out of an epic retro 80s musical aerobics and Pilates weight loss training video! I'd totally get your tape, neon headbands, and leg warmers!

Again, this behavior isn’t gender-specific. People love hearing things that soothe them. That’s how cults persuade people, how political parties gain support. Who do you think brought Andrew Tate, Trump, and Hitler to prominence? Do you think it was women? Men also love hearing things that soothe them, and once you can whisper those things into their minds, they, too, can be easily controlled, manipulated, and will submit to whoever the authority figure whispering sweet words is. Another good example is when it was publicly believed that women were too stupid for schools. "Women can't do this... All this logic thinking it's a 'guy thing'!" Now that the majority of women are outperforming men in schools, suddenly the 'narrative' is: 'Well... uh, schools are just made better for women because it’s all about brainless memorization and people-pleasing to authority. Men like sports and activity more.' Instead of acknowledging that men are failing currently in the very system that was originally designed to cater to them. Plus, I think she was just accepting a cute compliment. Teehee >.<

100%! I was just pointing out the gender bias happening, both can be crazy crazy ones! 😅

Nisssse Silly Gueuïeoosee!

The hotter the guy, the more difficult it is to handle their ego, greed, lust, and narcissism. It goes both ways, haha. The more attractive you are in general, and considering you haven’t faced much backlash in life and are still relatively young, the more you can get away with things. This is an attractive-people thing, not just a guy or girl thing. (Also edit: As @Schizophonia pointed out, it’s more of just a toxic person thing, to be honest haha. It’s just that the more attractive you are, and if you’re a toxic person, the more you can get away with. But yeah, still non-gendered.) Again, you can’t call women the crazier gender when men, throughout history, have been more aggressive, impulsive, cheating, causing unnecessary wars, domestic violence, and creating laws that benefit them and disadvantage anything not like them. It took thousands of years just to get some gender equality, who do you think was electing for this? History alone shows plenty of blind spots on the men’s side. Again, I’m not saying women are the better gender now; I dislike these gender wars. I’m just trying to point out the biases here. You have to remember that anger, inability to control lust and horniness, and inability to be vulnerable are also unhealthy emotions that should be seen as "crazy" and incredibly toxic as well if not regulated.

Also, just a note: being 'outward' doesn’t have to mean bungee jumping or suddenly flipping to an extrovert; it can be as simple as 'speaking out loud,' 'writing out your thoughts,' or focusing on a movie/video game you enjoy. You can still be heavily introverted and contemplative, but just 'articulating' your thoughts helps, so you’re not just stuck in your head, daydreaming. That’s what you’re really battling, since that's the main cause of that 'trance-like state' that leads you deeper into depressive moods. It’s a meme, but... to not depress, you need to express. As corny as it sounds, it’s true. So, honestly, even taking time to write on a forum or slowly expressing your thoughts will help you get off to a better start. You’re not necessarily battling introversion and reflective interests; what you’re battling are ruminating thoughts and maladaptive daydream-like behavior. Anything that gets you out of that is much better. You need to externally keep explicating yourself in any way possible.