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Gifted or not, it's allowed to have a brain...

One way to think of God is as an infinite “playground” in which finite forms can appear and exist, like children playing within it. In this view, humans and all other finite things are expressions within that field of existence. Truth, love, and consciousness can then be understood as the “ground” or “medium” of that playground. They are not separate objects inside the system, but the underlying conditions that make experience itself possible. They function like the background container that allows separate beings to arise, relate, and persist as distinct yet connected forms within the whole. If that “playground” (universe or God) were not truth, then there would be a fundamental bias in which forms could exist and which could not exist, making it an inaccurate medium for the expression of ALL infinity. If that “playground” (universe or God) were not pure, unfiltered consciousness, then there would be a fundamental bias in which forms could be perceived and which could not be perceived, like a human eye that cannot see the full range of the electromagnetic spectrum of color, making it an incomplete medium for the expression of ALL infinity. If that “playground” (universe or God) were not love, then there would be a fundamental bias in which forms are preferred and which are not preferred to exist, more or less loved, creating separation and hierarchy, making it an inconsistent medium for the expression of ALL infinity.

In order for God to be God, it has to create finite forms. This has been said many times before. It has to “forget,” metaphorically, that It is One, the same, all of Itself. So to do that, it creates other forms, finite forms of Itself, that forget they are It. The process by which you remember and “reunite” with yourself, with God, is called Love. When you recognize and remember yourself as God, you experience beauty, love, awakening, bliss, and ecstasy. When you fall in love, you recognize the other as yourself, or you recognize God, the beauty within the other. Then you want to unite completely: through your thoughts, your eyes, your lips, your bodies, your genitals, your sounds, your moans, your whispers. That whole process is Love. Love is one of the aspects of God. It is a mechanism through which God “others” Itself and then reunites with Itself once again. You cannot have unity between finite beings without Love. You cannot have finitude without observation. You cannot have finitude without Consciousness.

As mentioned above, definitely be very careful about what you assume is true. What you are describing sounds like this is more of a human thing (adult vs. child) than necessarily a man vs. woman issue. Most humans don’t initially enjoy being responsible, and many, if given the choice, will prefer fun, leisure, and a lack of responsibility, an “easy life” focused on pleasure. You could say “a lot” instead of “most” since I don’t have statistics on this, but the point is that this is more about the transition from being a child to becoming an adult, rather than a gendered difference. A lot of men in today's society get a simple, steady job and then spend their time on things like weed, bars, clubbing, video games, doomscrolling, and social media. Just as many women do the same, maybe with different or the same jobs, games, or types of social media content, but this is a very much human pattern, not a gendered one. Both men and women have to deal with the job market; they have to deal with health issues, breakups, financial stress, family responsibilities, loneliness, mental health struggles, workplace pressure, uncertainty about the future, housing costs, debt, and the general ups and downs of life. We are all kind of conditioned, unless you had a very difficult childhood, to have a breezy, fun early childhood life. So, going from being a child to an adult, unless you truly lacked safety or freedom, will almost always, by design, feel painful or "worse off". Most women need to work, be responsible, and deal with the hardships of life, just like most men. And most women don’t want to be gold diggers or overly dependent on someone they cannot trust to survive. A lot of this is more propaganda than reality. Look around you, how are your grandmothers, mothers, and friends living? That’s normal human life. The flashy, easy life you see for women is a fantasy for most people. The same goes for content on YouTube and social media; you need to be very careful about what information you believe and what fantasies you let influence you. People portray a picture-perfect life on social media, but in reality, it isn’t true. That being said, it’s completely normal not to feel like what society says you should be. So I definitely empathize, and you should look into this more yourself. I just wanted to add my two cents: be careful not to accidentally convince yourself that you’re in the wrong body. From what you’re describing, this sounds more like personality or responsibility struggles than actually feeling like you’re in the wrong body or feeling uncomfortable or disgusted by it. But obviously, reflect on it further. Support to you! I wouldn’t say there’s anything wrong with you based on your post!

It's awesome! You can even start a blog!

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@Majed I just wish people would define, at least to some extent, what they mean when they say things. If you say, “He is intelligent because he can make a lot of money, but he is wise because he understands how to make money and that there is more to life than that, so he focuses on spirituality,” then you’re basically defining wisdom as a more advanced form of intelligence. It reads context better, has more input, and uses intuition to make better decisions. Intelligence, in that case, is just working effectively within a given framework without really questioning it. So yeah, wisdom is superior. But you could also argue it’s superior because it’s a broader form of intelligence, since it includes understanding the limits of the framework. And if you define intelligence as pattern recognition, seeing through bias, and understanding truth, then wisdom already depends on intelligence. I am not sure it is even worth discussing at that point. It seems more like a semantics issue than an actual misunderstanding, but I could be wrong.

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@Raze I'd say it’s basically equivalent to psychology and philosophy. If you ask what the practical use of philosophy and psychology is in your life, it gives you a framework or a systemic overview of how to actually understand what things are, where you and others are heading, and how to evaluate and filter information for truth. It’s tweaking the foundation of how you make decisions. It’s extremely practical, but abstract in that it doesn’t give the kind of immediate, concrete payoff people are used to, like “here’s how to make a high-protein meal.”

One thing I wanted to ask: how will the psychedelics be done? The group might be a bit uncertain for me. Will there be times and places where you contemplate alone, then meet with the group? Are those details known? Thank you very much!

How exciting!

God is a Happy Birthday! 🎁 (Self / God) Is-ness A (Singular / One) Happy (Love / Goodness / Allignment / Whole) Birthday (1st Primordial Beginning and End All Creation / Origin / Creator) 🎁 (All packaged into a Grand Union!) 🎁୭

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Someone insert the GTA meme for Leo's New Course?

If the absolute truth is that there is no absolute truth, that'd be the absolute truth. It's a self-loop that always leads back to Truth (is-ness).

Yup! Fully agreed, responsible, and very much needed blogpost

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You can. Just be smart about how you will survive. How will you monetize this? Who will feed you? Do you have a roof over your head? What people will be around you, what community will you have if things go wrong? What if you go insane? Homeless? Leo is basically cautioning against going too far into "airy" abstract thinking when you do not have the life support to practically sustain yourself. It is much easier to function and work 9-5 when you are not constantly questioning the metaphysics of your walls, the couch you are sitting on, and Alien God Awakening Intelligence! It's the same concept of being a Soundcloud rapper.

Agreed! I suppose I was just a little rebellious Shroom monkey. . . 👽🙈

I think a better frame is that there are people who are more orbit-like (more dependent, people-pleasing, other-focused) and some people who are more orbit-line (more independent, immovable, self-focused). Some people can endlessly pursue with no issues, and some people hate the feeling of chasing because they need extra security and clarity in confidence that the other person is genuinely interested in them. This is more a personality trait or preference than a gender thing, to be honest. There are also people who like to “reach beyond” what they think they can get, so they don’t mind pushing further and assuming they have to work for it, and in the end, they feel satisfied when they get what they wanted. That’s where you get common tropes like a man seeing a woman as a muse or a siren, a symbol of beauty, and perfection to admire. And will do anything in his power to keep and protect her. In a more toxic form, you see this in the “simp” meme. Then you also get the opposite trope: a woman who adores her man, wants to please him, and deeply admires him. In a more toxic form, this can resemble BPD-meme patterns of obsession, drama, etc. I actually think kink communities sometimes understand this a bit better, ironically, haha, because they don’t frame it strictly as man-woman dynamics, but more as dominance and submission, attachment roles, and psychological preferences. I’ve met men who genuinely enjoy adoring their partner, and women who genuinely enjoy being adored. In those cases, the relationship can work very well. I’ve also seen the opposite, and more “equal” dynamics, too. But I also think that once the initial phase passes, if neither person is able to shift out of being only the adorer or only the adored, the relationship can struggle long-term. For a successful long-term partnership, these roles will naturally switch back and forth. Plus, if you are a spiritual person, this should excite you because you get to experience both yourself making someone else feel like God/Love, and also someone making you feel that way in return. I feel like people often treat dating like politics, as if it’s a team sport, like “does red win or does blue win?” It becomes competitive in a way that misses the point. Gender and dating are often treated similarly, which is unfortunate. "Should the woman or the man submit? Who should love whom more? Who is the actual sucker here?" The ego has and needs both sides. It’s a fundamental principle of holism. Just like everything is a holon, the ego is one too. The ego has two sides: the admirer and the admired. It wants someone to admire so it can feel love, humility, and connection. When you have someone as an “other,” they can become almost mesmerizing in a way that makes you feel expanded or stunned by their beauty, whatever form that takes. So you get both the ego humbling itself enough to experience real love and a sense of expansion. But the ego also wants to be admired so it can feel safe, valued, and appreciated. So it can also be touched by someone’s love and gentleness, and actually let go of its defenses, allowing it to expand more toward ego dissolution and love. Both men and women have this ego structure, and if neither side is being met in a relationship, it becomes very hard to maintain anything stable or long-term. But again, I never really know if we are talking about hookup culture and dating strategies, or actual long-term spiritual relationships. If you mean the initial stage, then yes, you probably do not care that much about the person themselves, but more about what you can get from them. So to maximize results, you need to be receptive to people who are easier “wins” (who like you way more, that is.) That applies to both genders. If women don’t choose men who genuinely like them a lot or even more, they also tend to suffer. If we are talking about actual relationships, these concepts are quite meaningless. You need to deeply understand your partner’s preferences and not assume you already know what they want.

I personally started at 18. I’m not sure I would recommend it, but I’m glad I did for myself. The trick is that, after a few trips, I eventually realized the “burning through karma” concept. You just feel during the trip that there are so many things your ego is still clinging to and worrying about, mostly survival or ego-related, that prevent you from having a more open and flowing mind. I would think about things beyond myself, but then my mind kept asking, “But how do you know? You haven’t experienced this or that. Absolutely none of it. Who do you think you are?” I had a lot of self-doubt. I feel like if you are too young, you just don’t have enough life confidence to even ground yourself properly, especially if you can’t yet feed and shelter yourself independently. So for me, if anything, it helped because I kept feeling blocked, and it motivated me to get my survival in order. But it’s tricky to know whether you would have the same response, because it’s very subjective. I feel like there’s no clear answer. It’s too case-dependent.

Ideally, when you are a youngster, you try it a couple of times to get a glimpse of what is possible. This can hopefully give you more hope, direction, and ambition for your life. You realize you need to get your survival sorted out first, so you can later fully enjoy the richness of consciousness properly. But obviously, no one can guarantee what will happen once you “get a glimpse” of it . . . Oopsies, now we are all addicts!

What would you think of your daughter? What do you think of little girls (children)? You can try starting from there. Just as you are a boy in a man's body. She is a girl in a woman's body. Just as you are a child in a man's body. She is a child in a woman's body. P.S. Don't anyone dare turn this into anything pedo . . .