pablo_aka_god

When I walk outside all I see are people full of meaningless tattoos and piercings wearing the same style of clothes walking while using their phones. 9 out of 10 girls I approach have a boring job, go to university to study something without passion, go to the gym 3 times a week and only think about having fun. The same seems to happen to man although I suspect men are slightly more original. It's impossible to talk about a sensitive topic like politics because they get triggered and start parroting whatever ideology they subscribe to. Occasionally I meet people who do different activities and feel more original. I've observed this recently and even got slightly worried, is it me that I'm becoming a hermit or 90% of people are just NPCs? maybe both?. I'm 30 yo, don't use social networks, don't have any tattoo or piercing and girls look at me like I'm the NPC

I lived 3 months in a coliving house in San Francisco. as an introverted tech nerd this experience was very good for me since I got to know people from different walks of life. After 3 months I was drained though and was missing my apartment. but I think it also was bc I shared my room. I would do it again but with a private room

Thanks for sharing. I'm also doing daygame every week so please keep sharing your progress. it's always nice to connect with colleagues this path is so hard, long and lonely that having a community is more important than short term success.

Cab driver in GTA VI: spend the entire day on the computer driving a virtual cab for a low wage on GTA VI's currency. Being a wage slave inside a videogame.

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I've seen this pattern in myself and in a lot of Tinder users. I sign up during lonely times with a lot of hope, pay for the premium subscription and spend dozens of hours swiping and trying to have a normal convo with people who show little interest. after 2 months I may have a date with a wage slave(and sometimes mentally unstable) girl and nothing may happen bc I'm not attracted to the girl or if girl is slightly fuckable we have sex (this happens once in a while). I end up not wanting to see the girl again after one or a few times due to wanting something better. Then I realize Tinder is bad for me and need to get out and do cold approach so I leave. 4 months after I'm still alone and on a lonely day I signup again and everything happens again. had this happened to you? were you able to break out?

@Lyubov smells like ego backslashing I'm am trying a combination of action+psychedelics to rewire my brain

@aurum my last comment makes it sound like I'll die virgin but I've had a some amount of good experiences, 2 GFs and a a few fuckbodies during the years that my life was all about this issue. so I know I have everything I need to make it work. I may suck physically but I'm also a very smart AI engineer/scientist. If I take massive action I get results. The problem starts when I put my energy into something else, it takes me an insane amount of energy to get new dates so a nice sex life feels incompatible with other (hard) goals like LP. feels like I should choose one or the other but I don't accept that. That's the mindgame I want to solve.

@aurum Thanks for your interesting in helping me. Actually I've been consistently doing daygame every saturday since June. I did 191 direct approaches, had one lay w a girl I saw twice, and a few insta dates. 2 weeks ago I stopped bc I got plantar wart removed and couldn't walk. so for the last 2 weeks I haven't worked out or gone out much and now I feel real bad. I'm slowly going back to normal now, I can't still workout but I can walk, so I'm planning on going back to daygame this saturday. the last few times I did daygame I was already getting discouraged bc I had a lay on my 82 opening and all the way to 191 I had nothing. My main point of struggle is on creating attraction after I open. I am a bald 5.6″ and wear glasses and even with those I only have 25% vision, also I think I'm slightly autistic. I've struggled w creating attraction my whole life.

@Princess Arabia Thank you! finally someone that gets me

@aurum Exactly! I do cold approach for a few months and feel discouraged because I may spend months without a single lay and that's when I fall back into Tinder.

@SugarcoatLOL!! I'm trying to be as honest as possible even if it doesn't sound right. This us uncensored content direct from my stream of consciousness

It's a very dark world a lot of escorts are scammers or con artists which modify their pics with AI and when you see them they are much less attractive or have a bad attitude. In my experience that's the worst part of this world. If you can find a good one that is nice, has real pics and doesn't break the bank that is awesome

I would love to go sometime in 2026 but I really fear the insect situation. @Mihael Keehl What is the animal/insect situation like, do you bump into creepy spiders, Cockroaches and serpents often? I'm vision impaired so I don't see those animals until they r in my face.

In relativistic terms someone could be evil for some people and good for others. Sometimes the boundary between good and evil is nebulous and no one can really tell.

there is no good or evil. there is only low and high levels of conciousness. What we call "good" people are people with higher levels of intelligence. Evil is just being selfish, having a small circle of concern

Use post rational intelligence to help revolutionize the fields of medicine and/or education with science and engineering. Or maybe just use post rational intelligence to build Deep Tech that can improve downstream products/areas including med and ed.

I realized I had another journal thread for other areas of my life other than dating/game. and this thread was meant for pickup stuff only. I totally forgot the other thread existed and been publishing everything in this game journal(this thread). from now on I will continue publishing everything here and will discontinue the other one. Here is the link to the entries in the other journal: Gotta keep things simple!

This is my first game journal, I've started gaming 3 years and 9 months ago. have gotten laid 20 times and was in a 9 month serious relationship since then and have approached close to 300 girls mostly at daygame some at nightgame. Didn't game all weeks but had couple weeks a year where I would focus more on game and then focus on LP for the rest of the year. I have grown a lot but still struggle a lot to connect with other people, specially women. I'm 28 years old. If I can nail this thing when I reach 30 that would be good. I'm setting this goal.

I've been thinking about this issue for the entire year because it has conflicting interests it's really hard for me to make a decision. I will be totally honest and try to summarize my situation here: I'm a single 30Y, live in Argentina and work as a remote contractor for US companies as an AI engineer/developer. Net worth: 53K USD in stocks, bonds and some Bitcoin. Monthly expenses: Between 2.5k and 3K USD. I have 2 part time clients: Client 1: Pays 36 USD/hr. very good company. project aligned with my LP in AI for health domain. can bring 3k USD /month. Client 2: Pays 55$/hr. Startup that has no idea what they are doing. but pay well and on time. I dislike job bc no one uses our product and it's a very shitty product. soul crushing work. but very relaxed work ethic, I work whenever I want as long as I can ship some new feature every week. On January I'll start an online masters degree in CS. and really want to drop client 2 to focus on masters. but I keep doubting myself bc I fear I may not be able to get a new high paying client w current market situation. I keep getting DMs on my Linkedin for jobs that pay much less and read a lot of negative things about the markets. I fear a Job market crash due to AI automating software engineering jobs Should I try to manage both clients + the masters or just drop client 2. and do what I like: client 1 + masters? I would be happier with dropping client 2, that way I would only do work I love. But I would not be able to save any money with client 1 as my single source of income. Some of my current reasoning: Getting extra $ gives me peace of mind but having free time also gives me peace of mind. if I don't have any free time I won't be happy even if I make good $. I fear losing money but also don't want to get stuck in my career and a high paying client that builds a BS product actually impairs my career. I could use that time to build something real. Would appreciate your perspectives.

@Elliott I'm not learning anything useful at all for client 2. Also they are a 5 people startup w nothing to show so has 0 weight in my resume. I want to do the masters as a an opportunity to get exposed to new ideas and mainly to network and add some pedigree to my resume. It's very hard to get a very good research or engineering position from Argentina since most of the best companies will hire people from the US or maybe Europe. So I think it gives me an extra chance for breaking into a good position.

I threw my post into Gemini 3 and gave me this wonderful response:

Something good about client 2, it's very relaxed. As long as I put in the hours no one questions me or gives me deadlines. but all my work gets put in a shitty product that will never be used by anyone and this is not a good addition to my resume. This company is unsustainable so it may even go bust in a few months. But i've been working with them for 1 year and a half and it survived so far.

I've been using Notion for 5 years but I am concerned with serious issues like privacy and the feeling that I don't really own my notes since they are stored in their servers eg: they could change the policy or pricing at any time and lock me out of my content if I don't pay or what if they decide to delete old files on free accounts to save storage and I never read the policy update until they already deleted my old data? or what if I get banned bc of some policy violation?. Also it's incredibly slow. I'm trying Obsidian right now and the first thing I noticed is a huge speed upgrade. and the fact that I own my notes because they are stored in my computer and I can read as .md files and backup them up with any method I prefer is giving me peace of mind. I plan to slowly transition to Obsidian during the next month