Anton Rogachevski

So it really does boil down to the receiver's openness and investment, which means that if such a dynamic of lack of trust and respect is occurring, there's nothing to do but forfeit.

Experience is not a thought, but what you wrote is. Yep, it's like a non-dual religious person, rehearsing the wise phrase his guru told him, and angrily argues about some word.

This is very true. The more deeply I go, the more I can learn from anyone around me. I see them as teachers, and I'm forever a disciple. Also If people can be fooled by an authority it means they should be. (i guess all the stages till yellow perceive a sort of authority and follow.)

All I do is remove naive notions of people magically transforming up stages. It's better to be realistic. It's also useful in understanding why things really don't change much, and have a realistic expectation, being more accepting of people, not thinking they should go up stages and be wise all of the sudden.

I'm afraid I can't take your word for it, since I have never seen anyone change, not in behavior nor in appearance.

Free will exists inside of the illusion, and that fact doesn't make it less important. We have no other place to live, but inside the illusion (awake or not). Being awake helps in reducing suffering and worry, but it won't change the fact that you are still in a dream. It's not a complete freedom, but it does offer many predetermined choices. Your need to be certain needs to be let go of, if you wish to reach a higher knowledge. Doubt is a key ingredient in awakening. Being all too certain only means you believe your own delusions.

Where is this soul? Is the soul separate from ego? I suppose it's just another fancy title for the ego. Any separation is illusory.

This might be the case. Evolution doesn't stop at birth.

@Arkandeus Sadly I've never seen anyone change, not in behavior, nor in appearance. I can't help but recall what House always said: "People never change." Sometimes I fear it might be true.

@EternalForest Yes they are different, yet there are some commonalities. Obviously my pursuit is to better understand the model and not to judge. The emotions I feel are not in my control obviously, but rather instinctual.

Being a pretty diligent practitioner of spirituality, meditation, contemplation, studying non-duality, for more than 5 years, I can understand intellectually the idea and logic of no-self. The real question is whether It's even possible to let go of self control without ever experiencing a full no-self vision.

@Sahil Pandit Amazing!

@Nahm Amazing! Thank you for your insights. The only problem is the illegality and finding a good source I could trust.

"Self control" - Resistance to what is, a tension without any consequence. No subject or object present in this relationship. By now I can't bear looking at more non-dual teachings without a feeling of "Stop saying the same thing over and over.", I've exceeded the rational limit and now seek in the post rational realm. (direct method) i asked this because I thought if there's even a use of explaining non-dual concepts to people who very very far from "getting" these kind of things. (Basically that's how I got here. By just being shocked at the radical shift in describing reality that way.) Is the method you are suggesting useful without even knowing what it's pointing at? Let me rephrase - Is a conceptual understanding sufficient to actually letting go. Because how can one let go of what he hasn't seen? How do I know that my understating is even pointing in the right way? I totally get it (intellectually). My question was different: Is just knowing non-dual truths, and their consequence useful in implementing new patterns of behavior based on this knowledge.

@SoonHei @ground Thank you for your replies. In my experience it does seem to be useful. The way to utilize it practically is acceptance and letting go of desire for anything other than what is now. I see it work all the time even in people who are miles away from ever understanding non duality.

Is it viable to meet conscious people or to form long term healthy relatioships?

@Leo Gura Hi Leo, Please elaborate on what you said in the ending of your Spirituality video. "If someone works for a wage they are a bitch." So by that logic the only way of not being a bitch is to be an entrepreneur? Should everyone be an entrepreneur? After all our system requires that people work in simple jobs. So are those people who do for you the thing's you can't do (clean toilets, build buildings) bitches? Besides that you are always "someone's bitch" because you are a part of a system, and in order to exist in it you must be a an essential part of it. There's no complete independence unless you live in a cave.

Spiritual practice begins after the house is clean. True or false for you?

Enlightenment is the truth and awakening is the process of revealing it. Awakening is dependant upon states, but enlightenment is unchanged even upon death.

Mind you I did take LSD before and I think in higher doses but it was my recrational past, and it was nothing, not even close to what it's like right now. It all started this morning, saturday. I've rested well for two days and perpared since yesterday. Yesterday took a microdose of about 20 ug, and there was no notable difference from the regular midnfulness I practice for years. This morning I took about 130 ug. I've always heard about psychedelic experiences and wanted to get an idea of what it's like. It's nothing like described. It's amazing to see how different actual reality is from ideas about it. It's not so obvious from a perspective of never having experienced it before. The first two hours were a gradual climb and enhancement of the perceptual field and on about the two hour mark it started! First ever enlightenment experience! I just sat there perparing for the trip, streching, having a quality breakfast and coffee to get the body started. And I was very mindful of the experience, at the first two hours it seemed regular and then I just looked in the mirror and had a deep inquiry about the source of all this experience. I asked "is this body the source of experince?" and from then on the light of god strated pouring at me like a watefall. 3 hour mark: All the questions I've had were just washed away and disappeared. It was so obvious and so simple. The next instant I saw that I'm an angel of god looking in the mirror and asking who god is. And the duality between me and god finally united into a unified and infinite field of wonder. Take the regular everyday experiemce and multiply its intensity and magnification by 10,000 and you might get an idea of what it's like. Of course reality and self still in tact in such dosage, but for a first deep trip I found it useful enough for insights and seeing self deception around me. It becomes so obvious! It's like: "How did I not see it?!" I decided it's time for a deeper contamplation and further trying to interpret what is before me. Since I started writing I notice that as I write and understand deeper, the quality of the experience is deepening to infinity probably. As I write and for an idea it becomes my experience instantly. The notion of angels started to be very accurate in describing just the "usual" things we normally see. The first scribbles were just like mythical angels and god metaphores I tried to communicate as a message of god. Oh well at least I did my best. At this point (5 hour mark) I think i will dediacte an hour of just walking my dog and keep integrating what is happening more spontaneously. Experince is returning to usual gradually. Still many insights into my life, self deception, relatioships, and overall expension of the big picture understanding of life.

@pluto Indeed. Particularly in inspiring me to work on increasing consciousness, and cleaning up my way of life. Now I see the light at the end of the tunnel. @Serotoninluv Very good question! It's easier to doubt the short weird experience, rather than the long stable shared one.

@Leo Gura What worries me is the validity of the data collected. While I was in the trip it seemed undoubtedly true, yet upon leaving doubt returned and I can't yet escape the material paradigm in realizing it wasn't just hallucination. If one person becomes enlightened, or has an experience, how come all other people aren't at the same time. How is this seperation of experiences occurring? How to realize it's not just in my head?

The first raw insights: I've been on this path of personal development for about 5 years and have heared so much about mystical experiences, but never had a very deep non dual states, so I became very interested in having such an experience first hand. This legendery truth is much closer to everyday experience than I imagined it to be. I will attempt to put it into words as best as I can given the limitation of ideas and thoughts in describing pure reality. Be mindful of the stream of consciousness currently in your experience, that is what we usually call "regular" experience, now multiply it's intensity and magnification by 10,000, and all of the sudden alot of things become very "bright" and cristal clear, alot of the doubt about yourself and your choises just lifts and you see everything as so obvious and easy. At this point I see god looking in the mirror and asking himself: "what is the source of experience?" And instantly the duality evaporates and I see an angel looking at himself fully realizes he's an angel of god, and sees that there is no source other than experience, experience is it's own source. God created us angels to walk and explore it's infinte set of possibilty, to look at itself consciously and realize what a miracle it is to exist. Every point in this ever flowing experience is infinte, and is streaming towards the source and feeds back into itself. Every angel is god and is a channel for this infinte flow. Now look in the mirror and see how you have welcomed this angel that is you, did you treat him with respect, did he feel welcome in your world? Is your house clean to recieve god? How did you treat this angel or other angels of god? To feel complete a man must recognize and respect the divinty that is before him. We can look at this example as if the body is the house of god, but it's more than that, because the life you live and all that surrounds you is also your body, and ultimatly the body of god. That must be the meaning of building god a temple. Low consciousness is a shadow in which demons thrive and can act covertly. High consciousness is a bright light that burns the demons alive, and all that's left is to enjoy the cleanliness. Remember, the angel of god is always here, and when you take responsibility for your life you immediately win for the same amount you have put in. The same thing goes for all other messangers of god: your friends, your relatives, and all angels. How would you treat them if you knew god send them? God is not an idea, or far out there, he is right in front of you, if you don't see him you are blinded by low consciousness. Even a blind person sees god because all other senses are god too. The cleaner the angels' body is the easier it is for him to recieve the flow of god's consciousness. It's so simple. Be an angel and act like an angel that is the essence. So who are "people"? Angels who forget their godhood and forgot all other angels are god, and so they fight with each other about comfort. An angel who forgot who he is becomes a demon. All these terms are obviously metaphorical, they come up to mind when you see these such an experience and you are it.

@How to be wise Obviously I don't seek shortcuts nor expected to give me free spiritual growth. I used it to have a deep meaningful look onto my life. See where I'm deceiving myself to learn new insights about things I must change. @Serotoninluv Yes a good trip indeed! Now the only question is, do I need to go any deeper?