Anton Rogachevski

Hello, and welcome dear fellow, First of all there's nothing wrong with being unconscious. It is, as it is. Secondly, what you describe is a very conscious happy life. So you are lucky to be born in a healthy environment , with a brain hardware capable of high levels of consciousness. You were an egg, and now you are chicken. You're previous form was happy with unknowing, as you developed, you realized that there's more to life. An egg has no anxiety, but it can't really experience much can it? In a sense, anxiety is the first stage of awakening. It was like that for me. That's a signal that an old bubble of reality bursted, and now there's a new one to explore. Also don't believe "authority" figures of sorts, as to what you should or shouldn't do, develop self-honesty, and intuition, and decide what's right for you. (No one else can tell you that.) Also good luck on your journey! Cheers.

Thank you very much for sharing. The most selfless person I've heard. So deeply integrated, so pure. He's an inspiration! This is an awesome lecture: Omg, does Ken Wilber have a lost brother?

Weed may cause paranoia, especially to THC sensitive types. I know cause I'm also that way. One puff and I can go for a 2 hour worst nightmare paranoia vision. Try to go clean for a couple of months, expect demons to rise, deal with them in silence and grow.

@Joseph Maynor I believe you didn't get my non dual humour. Hahaha

Really, this is the most profound topic on all this forum. I think any serious seeker should first visit here, and see how foolish all his "spiritual" beliefs are.

I tried that, but found nothing.

This sounds more like an alter ego. Believe it or not, but there can be multiple sneaky copies of the ego hidden out of sight. "Ego is the you that has preferences of reality." Very intresting and uniqe way to put it. Thank you for sharing! Cheers

@Joseph Maynor In the intellectual sense, it does seem right, except I guess my query was a trick question, because in direct experience there is no mind, nor ego. So how can one idea be an agent of another? The way I see it, the ego is an attachment (along with a nice little back story) of the mind to a body. Its an action and not a concrete thing, and so saying it has agents is as ridiculous as saying it exists.

I'm sorry dear fellow, I've lost you there. What is mind and ego in direct experience?

To try and kill the mind, is like a cucumber that wants to kill the garden. Except without a garden there wouldn't be a cucumber.

Totally! Nothing like a walk in the mountains alone. Taking in nature and even doing some chanting or singing.

@AlphaAbundance It wakes up through you. That's your purpose: being a vassel for god to know himself. Othewise he wouldn't be able to do so.

@Joseph Maynor Intresting way to put it. Do you actually experience the two? In other words, how is it manifesting in your direct experience?

Giving the brain a spiritual practice, is like giving a baby a chew toy. As long as there's tooth ache the toy is a useful instrument, but as soon as the desire to seek externally is quenched, the brain drops it. In reality, the baby as it's becoming an adult, still needs to take care of its teeth, and the person needs to keep developing and integrating spiritual insights. So to keep developing, develop the tools as you go.

Incredible! Thank you for sharing.

"The which than which there is no whicher.”

@Seiden I wish you well dear friend, Thank you for sharing! Cheers

The ego is like a crutch of a man with a broken leg, it needs to be strong to allow him to heal, but when the leg is fully healed, he let's go of the crutch and walks freely. A weak ego is a bigger trouble, because it inflates and gets over protective. Like a physical crutch, it's an object without will or life of it's own. It's an inanimate puppet-scapegoat of the devil, used to draw your attention from his actions. "My ego did this, my ego did that." - c'mon, face it, it was you, don't blame poor little ego.

“If you see the Buddha or a Buddha, kill him”

@Shin Keep going and it will be obvious. You can't force this. Imagining it is not helping.

Systems are self balancing entities: There are reactions upon reactions as in a pendulum. At first women were discriminated, later feminism swingned the arrow towards emasculation, and so the reaction is what you see. Also spirial dynamics alone tells you that 70% of the population is blue, so what do you expect? Don't judge the whole by the majority. Many red pillers I've read are stage yellow sages that practice pure self actualization. You see what you wanna see. To learn more watch "The red pill" movie, a documentary by a feminist which is trying to explain this situation.

@Joseph Maynor Thank you dear friend, Good luck on your journey, It seems you are very serious at this work, it's inspiring.

@Gabriel Antonio Definitely. Would you care to help? What did I misspell?

Now you may practice surrender and dissolve into the silence you speak of. Let go of any desire for "deeper" truth, there's none.

You can't. There's no one to accomplish the task. This need is the very unnecessary tension in the forehead one must let go of.