Razard86

Just came across this one, notice the message he receives.

So hard to let you go, wherever I have gone and been through you were there, You always were on my side, always showing you care, You challenged me, you cried with me, you pushed me through and through, You were so close to me I forgot who was actually who, We were one and the same for so long, parting was the scariest thing I could do, Separation from you was death, but it also was liberation, No more getting lost in contemplation, or stacks of story compilations, Finding the truth for me has been the highest of my elations, Who knew this day had to come, that it ultimately had to be this way, Who knew that you had been lying to me with every word you say, My closest ally, was my greatest adversary, employed by me from the very beginning, And once I awaken to this fact then in the game of life I start winning, Because the point of the game was to awaken that I was the game, This game is love, I'm the child, I'm both father and mother, and I'm the closest lover.

Anybody who has done multiple sports for any particular time understand that every movement only trains the parts of the body associated with that particular movement. Big whoop what does that mean? It means there are different types of fitness, or what we can call sports specific fitness, or movement fitness if you want to get more particular. I won't even get into body types, and how different body types provide different strengths and weaknesses, just know don't judge a book by its color or you can get a rude awakening. Also....I don't think this guy has a Dad body lol.

Being aware of a mirror and experiencing it is totally different. Notice how you said its a mystery. Why would you not assume that living a life for God is also a mystery. If it wasn't a mystery....we wouldn't be here discussing it lol.

1. Story, pure unadulterated story. God doesn't struggle, it tricks itself into thinking it struggles. Again more story. Fight for survival is also more story. The whole awakening path is a story. Have you not yet understood? Good/Bad, right and wrong, is a story. Traps, story. This is literally a story God has created to enjoy. You really think Infinity has to do anything? It doesn't have to do anything, it is immortal, omnipotent, omnipresent, it does everything for the sake of the act itself, not because it needs too. The entire universe could be wiped out in one fell swoop, and it would still be here. It's why its a dream. In your dream you must do this, and that, then you awaken and realize oh it was a nice dream. Everything on this forum is pure unadulterated love, its not done for any other reason but for the sake of itself. BUT!!!! You can really become so involved so identified with it, that it becomes real, a struggle, and then it must be overcome, it must be fought against, which is ohhhh so beautiful and magnificent!! Then you wake up, and realize YOU FOOLED YOURSELF AGAIN!!! LOL!!! The infinite dreamer, infinite trickster, completely deceiving itself forever. Constructing the most engaging and juicy dreams, that both terrorizes and amazes itself. Then argues in its mind over notions of right and wrong and good and bad until....it awakens.

1. The Ego was created to experience contrast. How can God NOT be amazed and awaken to itself if it doesn't do a memory wipe, and limit itself in so many ways to it can experience the contrast between the infinite and finite and go WOW!!! 2. Everything you just said about him especially this part "What Leo is doing is nothing but the tickling of his own ego, using the Divine to stimulate himself. The best evidence of this is this forum, which has grown to be little more than a platform to fullfill his own egoic desire for self-expression." If you are here then you are doing the same thing. Also...what is wrong with tickling your ego? Do you not know what ego is? Ego= Language....which you are using right now, so tickle away. Ego= The body suit you are using right now. Ultimately Ego= Material World, the Impermanent Form in all its appearances. So as long as you are experiencing the impermanent form, you will always be playing/tickling the ego. The key is being able to recognize the ego, and not get lost or hypnotized by it. But how do you demonize....what you literally created to awaken to yourself. Your first memory of your life was your first awakening, when you awaken to your infinity is your next awakening. Everything that happens inbetween is just the drama that precedes that big awakening moment. Don't get caught up in downplaying the wonder and amazement of God. God is so beyond amazing that its to beautiful to keep to yourself. To deny that IS EGO. Hell you are denying your own amazingness and calling it ego!!! LOL that's a good laugh. Accept how amazing you are and stop TRYING to be humble, that itself can be a trap of self-righteousness which is a fear of becoming arrogant....which makes you arrogant is a preachy, look how serious and UNAMAZING I AM!!! I have freed myself from ego!!! I'm boring and not amazed at all!!! Prostrate yourselves and be bored!!!!

Came across this Ad and I shared it with a couple of friends so I thought why not share it here as well. This is one of the best advertisements I have ever watched. It was full of a childhood, a search for answers, fun, confusion, redemption, impact, and legacy. It also reveals how many take for granted how many things they have to be grateful for. It also shows how loving others can be. People really have a fear based model that just cannot hold up, if you look deeply you can see the love in everything. Check it out and tell me what you think!!!

Lol why you think I like you so much we on the same page!!!

I don't disagree there, but hey survival is relentless lol.

So I came across a guy named R.J. Spina and he said something profound for entering a NO THOUGHT state. He said "Pretend you just got here, and you have no past and no future." I noticed that once you entertain that...all thought immediately stops...you could keep that state forever if that becomes your baseline. Also I must warn again, if you deconstruct your mind.....you need to be careful. I've done it before and it will stop reality as you know it. Your reality is held up by how you were educated, if you were to drop many of your beliefs your reality WILL SHIFT. So be prepared if you ever are curious enough to do it. To give you an example.....what do you think psychedelics are doing? They are dropping your ability to maintain your beliefs and thus everything goes haywire. Here is a secret, your brain is a filter. It filters your reality based on what you believe, if you disrupt the filter....your reality will become unstable, and if you sever all belief...only what is true will remain. Because all belief is an illusion. Test these things for yourself, but be careful you have been warned.

Lol I had good teachers. Nothing wrong with that just know that you can heal yourself of all your traumas in like an hour if you wanted too. This isn't me short changing the severity, I'm just telling you what's possible. I've had a lot of help from various teachers/gurus and tested this my self and it blew my mind. We really trick ourselves into believing that we are hurt. Time to let those bottled up emotions flow and the stories that created them go. Hope everything works out for you!! Do everything at your own pace!!

They aren't responsible for what they do. Me finding out their wasn't a Me didn't make me go start killing people. It did briefly make me act out a little lol at the time. But this dream enforces its own rules, if you do things that are harmful to those in the dream it will lash back at you. Live by the sword, die by the sword.

Really sit with this video. Contemplate on it daily, and if you are brave enough test it out in your life. How? 1. Let's just say I have tested this with people who most would avoid. It was revealed to be true. Seek to see your true face. You are infinity. So everything you come across is you. The Saint, The Sinner, are one and the same. This process is easier said than done, just know that you are no less or greater than the holiest Saint or the evilest Sinner. Don't succumb to the story, realize that you are the creator of every story.

Love your responses I can tell you do the work of integrating. Keep sharing that wisdom.

Nice trip report. Couple of things. You said you are God right? This part "I realized that it’s impossible to work with this type of traumas on a conscious level." That part is a limiting belief. I understand why you believe it because you currently have access to psychedelics so you think you can't do that work without it. This is false, psychedelics while a wonderful tool, powerful tool, are not the only tool. Psychedelics make it EASIER to do what you can do without them. You can search your subconscious without psychedelics, but the purpose to gaining greater emotional mastery is to loosen your attachment to the stories you create. If you are not careful, you create more emotional storylines and will be lost in a trip of I need to do this to heal, and that to heal, and you will HEALING for the rest of your life. Your true nature has never been traumatized, has never been harmed in any way. Your attachment to any story or concept is the source of the trauma. Use this psychedelic to cut away like scissors on paper ALL YOUR STORIES and concepts of yourself. If not, you will end up using psychedelics to increase your ego and you will expand your suffering. You are not the story you tell yourself, you are that which creates the story itself and then tricks yourself into believing it to experience said story. Other than that great job!!!

Exactly!!!! Glad you get it!!! LOL.

Ehh I am not good with names and I have no desire too either, I meet too many people on a day to day basis lol. It's fine you'll eventually remember the names of those you deal with more frequently.

Reading does a couple of things. 1. Raises your ability to think, as you think through language. 2. Expands your point of view, if you don't read you will just reinvent the wheel on everything you do. If you don't want to read fine, listen to people who do read at least you can glean something since they have done the work for you. 3. The more you read= the more life times you have lived. You are literally gaining perspectives of people who have gone before you. 4. Makes you a better communicator in being able to organize your thoughts and communicate them effectively. 5. Increases your ability to make sense of what others are communicating. But hey you can always not read....and not gain any of these things. Then your conversations will be only about music, current events, and the news. That totally sounds like someone that is interesting to talk with....LOL. Now you should pair reading with CONTEMPLATION as well. Otherwise...you become a parrot lol.

Exactly, don't demonize anything, don't desire anything, and allow others to be influenced by your lack of desire/agenda.

What is a game? An activity that is engaged in through competition to produce a winner and loser. The biggest game obviously is the game of survival. Now because the biggest stake is your life and losing means the end of that life there are no bigger stakes that can be played. To gain any advantage in a game you must deceive your opponent. In basketball to beat your opponent off the dribble you have to feint (pretend to go in one direction) and then go in the opposite direction as quickly as possible with the ball. This is called a cross over. When finishing at the rim, to avoid being blocked you can do what is called and up and under. Where you pretend to finish with a layup and at the last second bring your arms down and finish at a different angle. In chess, you place your movements in a way to trick your opponent so he cannot figure out how you hope to obtain his King. In the jungle the iguana matches whatever his environment is. The Lion sneaks up on his prey and at the last moment pounces on him and eats him. This means that all games that involve competition are inherently deceptive. This means if you play any game being a great deceiver is a strong characteristic. Notice this!! As long as you are competing to get what you want, not deceiving actually holds you back. So the very core foundation of all games, rears its ugly head in the extremes when people find ways to even bend the rules or create entirely different ones. Notice how we justify some deception and others we demonize. This is how you can get lost in your own games that you cannot even see straight anymore. All deception is lies, manipulation, greed, and a desire to gain control. Now I am not demonizing it, I am just presenting what it is. So a white lie is deception, manipulation, greed, and a desire to gain control. People tell white lies all the time because they fear the reaction someone will have if they really knew how they felt about something or someone. Since society runs on white lies that they call being civil or polite, the shadow that comes up out of that is gossip, envy, jealousy, and cliques. In sports such as basketball and futbol you get awarded points for being fouled so what some players do is they pretend to be fouled called "flopping" to gain an edge. Gossiping is not different. Think about it? If I cannot say how I truly feel around you, I'll say how I truly feel about you to someone else. So all gossip is deception, manipulation, greed, and a desire to control. Again this is not demonization, it's illumination. This is why all identity games create conflict, and always contradict themselves. Why? Well its obvious, if there is only one being playing all the roles, then paradox, contradiction, is inevitable. So what is the solution? All identities awaken to the fact that they are one self and then the gameless game can be played. What is the gameless game? The game that has no desire to win or lose, the game that transcends survival. Paradoxically when this game is played survival will actually be taken care of much more efficiently than when it is a competition for it. This is why awareness, truth, love, are curative. Until then, every game is just a game of who can trick/deceive who better.

Glad you got it. To me the creation of gender has not been used properly, as the people who use it don't even understand what the purpose of it was and have been wreaking havoc on it. Gender = Cultural understanding of male and female roles. Sex= Cultural understanding of male and female anatomy. Its as simple as that. The moment you start forgetting this, and using it interchangeably it can start to get confusing which is what has been going on. As the world's soup of definitions start mixing and mixing more you start creating more chaos. Currently in America we are starting to stifle freedom of speech, you have no clue how much worse you are going to make things. It's why majority of terrorist attacks are domestic and are done by home grown extremist groups. Whenever you try to suppress/control anything, you actually make it worse. Don't even get me started on America's war on drugs, and everything else. These identity games are confusing because most don't even understand the identities, and you keep erecting even more identities. And here is the kicker....they don't have to agree to your definitions either.

The point I'm making is the solution is to raise awareness. Humanity's highest evolution, will have them reach balance of both non/dual and duality. From that point, corruption will cease. It's not impossible to get rid of corruption, if it were what we are doing is a fool's errand. Humanity is constantly striving to be more loving for a reason. The only reason corruption exists is because humanity denies their corruptibility. The moment humanity can honestly face the truth that survival= corruption then we can transcend survival and corruption entirely. Also I am not demonizing arrogance, if you want to make that argument I could say the opposite is true which is don't demonize demonizing arrogance as both produce the same result a split identity and thus devilry. The point being made here, the belief of good and evil while entangled with survival will just create an infinite cycle of corruption and ignorance. To transcend it, realize we are all innately corrupt, and that corruption comes from a desire to survive and thrive. The desire to protect that is based on identity. When we can take an honest look at this aspect of our psyche and how it functions we can finally have an honest conversation. Until then, we are just like children pretending to be adults. True maturity is self-knowledge both from the infinite perspective and through knowledge of finite expression.

An Alternate Version of Leo!!!

Read this excerpt from Osho about Men and Women. https://www.osho.com/osho-online-library/osho-talks/woman-men-insanity-07d4b208-7b7?p=64909c37dc40631a5d43c0c5fffab1c0 Now notice from one perspective, the feminine desire to express itself in the present moment randomly with no forethought can be seen as insane, ungrounded, and also can be seen as sane and grounded because the feminine is present. The feminine is concerned with the immediate things at hand, it isn't lost in dreams of what might be, or could be. That is sanity, that is being grounded! The Masculine is concerned with future possibilities of problems, and solutions and can get lost in conceptual thought that they can be lost in thought and not be present or grounded. So the Masculine and Feminine are both grounded and ungrounded, insane and sane. Its all a MATTER OF PERSPECTIVE!!! The sanity of the Feminine. Being present. Being aware of the current circumstances and being able to feel or intuit the happenings around them. The insanity of the Feminine, it has no forethought, it has no agenda, it just expresses based on the feelings of the moment. The sanity of the Masculine. Being present in thought and conceptualization about possible dangers and how the current circumstances could impact the future. The insanity of the Masculine. Lost in thought about new perspectives, new inventions, new possibilities. This thought has no agenda, it brainstorms and expresses based on the trajectory of the previous thought. If you look, you will see, the two parts are one and the same, mirroring each other. Its just a battle of logic and emotions, thoughts and intuition. Both are different expressions, being expressed the same way. When logic and emotion merges, when thoughts and intuition merge, then you have balanced the two.

Good point, but them believing that sex and birth defines what masculinity and femininity is ignorance. You can't renounce the masculine and feminine they symbolically are the two parts reality itself. So this renunciation is a farce. Additionally the wars are not the foundation of society, peace is. There is no sustainable progress without peace, just like their is no growth without rest. In fact, more progress is made during times of peace than war. War only spurs technological progress, but peace improves social connection. The time period of war was pervasive because survival was harsh, now we currently have the technology to feed every mouth on the planet yet still we fight. This is ignorance and greed.