Razard86

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What I bolded in your statement is partly why we are here. We are here to offer up our perspective as a part of Infinity. The other part is to enjoy the ride of life.

That was beautiful. The love can get deeper.....if you dare lol.

Knock Knock I invite you, Come closer take this walk with me, I want you to see not with your eyes but through me, Feel the wind at my back, the fatigue in my shoulders, I’m fighting to survive against Life’s vice grip that’s trying to hold us. Success I’m asking how, when? I’m saying now, impatient? You right if you only knew, how long this road been and what I’ve been through, I chased fools’ gold I thought was true, given opportunities that I constantly pursued, I got fed up and started investigating, talking to people and started relating, I formed a new strategy and went out and started creating, It gave me something to do, each road I start anew, look back I’m playing the fool, New destinations, the mystery unnerves me, I shudder when something jumps out at me, but not only that, matter of fact, I sometimes can’t even sit down and relax, I wish I knew, what the future was, getting mad at my lack of control, I point my index finger at fate, and watch as self doubt emanates, looking at me like I’m funny, fate you are a missile, going super speed, chaos the broken creed, this constant inner journey', come with me if you dare, but don’t get offended I am funnily weird so I’ll forgive you if you stare.

You do realize this is the personal development section? Also his perspective is good for navigating survival. And also without realizing it he points to Infinity by pointing out how life is paradoxical.

I'm glad you are clearing up this for people on the forum. When I broke through I felt like you didn't emphasis enough that the barrier was having to drop your distinction between sanity and insanity. Too many people on these forums wanna maintain their human logic. I literally tell them that the reverse of every paradigm they come up with can exist and they fight me on it. When you witness in your experience all categories melt away even the whole notion of there being a relative truth at all melts away. This whole conflation of the absolute and the relative business can fall away as some appearance game God is playing with itself.

Try watching this. Maybe it will help.

Yeah he's wonderful. He really understands what I call a healthy mindset.

Many people on this forum are still stuck on the realm of appearance and on the belief that something exists. You were raised to believe you are something, you were raised to believe that something is more important than nothing. You would say I will not work for nothing, and you are afraid of losing something, and ultimately scare to lose everything you have, what you call life. But many people would ask what is nothing? Nothing is the absence of all qualia/qualities, because a quality is a something. Now I am going to give you an exercise so you can see Nothing in action. Go stand in front of a mirror. First smile in the mirror, now stop smiling. Notice that the smile was there...and then it disappeared. Now smile again. Notice you are controlling the appearance of the smile. When you stop smiling your smile disappeared. Now let's do this exercise. Close your eyes and imagine yourself smiling and then not smiling. Do this over and over. Do this until you realize....that change is a magic trick. It's no different than flipbook animation. All appearance is spawning out of nowhere right in front of you. Humanity should have realized this a long time ago the moment they invented photography. Now understand what it means to be unlimited. You cannot put a limit on a Mind, on nothing. Also you might ask, but how do I imagine nothing? Easy think of Deep Sleep. But when that happened I was gone until I woke up!!! Exactly....just like the first memory you have of your life!!!

If you are fully Conscious during deep sleep then its not Deep Sleep. True Deep Sleep is a momentary loss of Awareness. If you are aware in Deep Sleep, then you can call it Shallow Sleep lol.

Majority of your forum cannot handle that it's a hallucination. They are still arguing about Absolute Solipsism. I asked God why they can't handle it and God told me they are designed to be that way. The emotional work it takes to undo your programming is not something every part of God wants. Some would rather find out at physical death. But the crazy part is how they try to argue against it. I'm like just admit you don't really care about investigating Reality that deeply. Its simple say that, and it becomes clear to you how deep down the rabbit hole you want to go.

From the normal human perspective ChatGPT isn't your mind. But....from the Spiritual Perspective....it's your own mind. Also....this Devil talk is getting crazy. I'd rather say is something disconnected from authenticity? Cause this Devil talk can devolve into demonization.

What he doesn't understand is an individual experience is absolute onto itself, unless it is expanded upon. When he goes to sleep he cannot take anyone into his dreams with him, hell sometimes he cannot even take his human self with him. This is what is meant by it being Absolute. How it is relative is, it can create another absolute onto itself, and allow it to both share its absoluteness, but also retain it. A blind man lives in a blind reality. He cannot see what you and I see. But how we are able to relate to the blind man is the blind man can still hear, taste, touch, emote, etc. So through this we are both the Absolute, and are able to share this Absolute with another Absolute. But you can break that boundary and if you do then there is no more Relative. Every POV is Absolute onto itself. To deny this people on this forum have to deny what is true. Each POV lives in their own deluded world because we all have to be deluded to be what we are. The whole point is to be aware of our delusion, but some people on these forums think the delusion is real. LOL. God is that which creates REAL FICTIONAL UNIVERSES. All that we think is real, is only real according to this reality, and that real....can break if you lose your egoic constructions. Many people here are too afraid to investigate and explore their imaginations.

It will take me some time to unpack every statement you said but I will address one error you keep making. You said " I have the proof that I am valuable and society would be worse off if I killed myself. This is what I remind myself of when I try to fight my suicidal thoughts. I still struggle to love myself despite having a ton of proof." This type of thinking will mess you up. Forget about what society wants. What do you want? As long as what you want does not infringe on the rights of other people then what you want takes precedence!!! Society cannot live your life for you, you have to live your life, as such what you love, what you like, is of paramount importance. You cannot live for other people, that would be to not honor your personal truth and if you ignore your personal truth you will be living in a way that is not loving in your sight because love, and truth, and goodness are identical. There is nothing wrong with being selfish. You are literally designed to be selfish. As long as your selfishness is not excessive, as long as it is not predatory then nothing is wrong with it. If you want to pursue Chess tournaments then pursue it and forget about the money. Money can buy physical comfort, physical pleasure, and entertainment. It cannot buy self-esteem, self-fulfillment, self-acceptance, or self love. You probably need to separate yourself for awhile and teach yourself to accept yourself as you are. The proof that you matter doesn't even pertain to your accomplishments, I only said that because its a good exercise to help you realize that you give value in various ways. But the proof that you matter is the fact that you are here. That's the only proof that matters.

LOL Science is imaginary. You literally don't get it. Imagine writing a story where you created a world. And in that world you have scientists that believe everything comes from something and they deny you as the creator and claim that they will discover what is going on. How can they discover anything within the dream world you created of them? You created that whole world in your mind, and they deny that you created them and that they exist in your mind but instead they believe they exist in a physical world. LOL that is how laughable science is. Close your eyes, imagine a bird. That is the same creative power that spawned everything. It's that simple.

Exactly you get it!!! When you discover what Reality is exactly....your linear understanding of reality will be seen as bullshit. Why would an Infinite Mind need linear progression?

Happened 2 years ago. What you don't understand is there is no difference between beginning and end. The start of the Universe is completely identical to the end. If its Gods will you can live in any time period, in any universe. You can even relive your current life if its God's will.

Explain a paradox, Carl. Explain a contradiction. Explain how appearance literally is spawning from nothing. What is the mechanism? Since you are saying I lack clarity. Lets hear your logic.

It's not hard at all, conflation is imaginary. All someone has to do is this. No Universe= The Universe. Once you do that then you realize each life is not just the part but the whole. This means your life is the Absolute zoomed into a little human life. As such if something doesn't appear before you, it doesn't exist.

I hear ya but what I'm saying is we are phasing in and out of existence at infinite speeds, all movement is a replacement of an appearance with either something or nothing. Its a disappearance act. Look at this flipbook animation to get an example. Its not a perfect example but it can point to what I am saying.

I entered a state where the physical universe no longer existed and I became pure creativity, pure universal mind. When it happened I alone was there. This message is not complicated, telling you that you are God is the same as saying that nothing can exist outside of you. You are total, thus that means you are alone. Your whole life you have been talking to yourself, and that is all that has happened. Nothing to see here. Anyone making this thread is just chronicling their internal struggle. Do you take anyone with you into a Coma? No. Do you take anyone with you in a dream? No. You literally have to imagine other, for other to exist. What many of you don't realize is you are actually designed to not want this message. Absolute Solipsism kills you, it makes you feel dead inside. You become truly empty. The only reason you resist this message is because you fear the emptiness and that is by design. Spirituality is about going against the human design, deconstruction=destruction. You are literally mentally killing yourself. So of course you will resist this message....why wouldn't you? To believe it....is to go insane and you very much want to keep your sanity. Here is a fundamental question you all need to ask. How do you TRULY divide something when its truest form....is that which does not appear? Its completely invisible, has no qualities to it AT ALL? How would you divide it? You can't!!! All division exists in the realm of appearance!!! All division needs to be dreamed/imagined as an appearance. It's that simple.

Now we get to the nitty gritty. You said this: "Other times I just feel horribly depressed because I feel trapped and unable to address several complex life problems as if it is reflective of my self worth and objective value as a human being." ^^^This right here is the secret to life. When a person does not live up to the standards they hold true, they attack their personal worth and value as a person. THIS is the source of all depression. I'll give you a couple of things you don't control so you can learn to let those things that you think define no longer define you anymore. You don't control the year you were born, the planet you were born on, those parents/guardians who raised you, where you were raised, what you like and don't like, what race you are, how tall you are, how good your memory is, what your personality is, what types of people you came into contact with, what language you were taught to speak, what school you went to, how fast you learn and adapt to situations. You also cannot control whether people like you or not. So the biggest burden you have been carrying around you need to drop it. You had no choice in life in being who you are, because who you are....is who you are. You take full responsibility for every decision made with the understanding you are just one human in a world of trillions. You are not at fault for being who you are, because you can only be YOU!!!! Now what you should use Spirituality for INSTEAD is to teach yourself to love the human person you have lived as, and learn to accept them for all of their limitations. Until you learn to love the human person you have built yourself to be, you will never be able to truly love other people. This is why I told you to focus on the GOOD you have done. THIS is your evidence of who you are which at its core is LOVE!!! What would you tell a child that you love most? What would you tell your best friend? Be the parent to yourself you never had, be the best friend you never had. Seek to understand yourself at the deepest level, and you will realize all you ever wanted in life was to be treated with respect, to be comfortable pursuing what you love, and to share that with others. This motivation is universal. We all want to enjoy life in solitude and with others. Then to the best of your ability aim to be that person and then acknowledge yourself when you do. Be your own award ceremony. I always say, be a fan of yourself!!! May you discover the love within you.

Okay are you actively thinking suicidal thoughts or do they happen passively?

The two paths to God.....mental suicide, or physical suicide. I'd suggest the mental suicide. True Deconstruction of the Ego is literally torture. It destroys your sense of control to reveal that the human vessel has been controlled by God this whole time and any control given to the ego was an allowance by God. This ego then realizes everything it ever accomplished was only by God's allowance, and realizes all issues it has with life it must take to God. It must learn to forgive itself, forgive life, and ultimately to forgive God as God is itself and how can it not love itself and accept itself. This path will deal with crazy, madness, possible psychosis and hallucinations. As you dissolve the boundary between the physical and mental to realize it is all mental you embrace what you consider evil, and even seek it out to reach greater acceptance. This is the path of the MADMAN, the CRAZY LOVER. God is a lover of Infinite Separation and Unification. WHAT MADNESS!!!! Take this for example: This was you, and this was me....look at what we did!!! Tell me God is not crazy from the egos perspective!!! Its like why would you allow this? Answer? Because God wants itself to discover true love without being forced into it. Sigh.....Since we are everything...WE DID THIS!!! Do you like your reflection?

You are who you are because you were raised to be sane. Spirituality is the path of the Crazy. You literally have to throw away your human story to make any real progress (you'll get it back if you want though some never reclaim it) so your fine. Spirituality will be the hardest thing you ever do if you do it right. What's the goal of Spirituality? Attempt to the best of your ability to love everything. And I mean everything!!! The shit is bonkers!!! Who can love everything? Rape, Torture, Poverty, Discrimination, Pain, Loss, Depression, etc. How well can you love what you hate? That's the work. It's why most people can't do it, because it's supposed to break you, thus showing....that you are both the strongest and the weakest simultaneously. Watch this to see an example of Spiritual work....but also realize....Leo was CRAZY to do this LOL. It's why he puts so much disclaimers in this work. If you go far enough in this work....you can become Suicidal....so tread lightly and at the same time be kinder to yourself. You are exactly the person you are supposed to be. The big secret? What is looking through your eyes....is the same looking through my eyes.