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This is my old vision board from dec 2015, my vision board now may seem heavily influenced by "leo" but I just honestly love the images he used to describe god and absolute infinity, I'm also aware Leo lives in Vegas, but I've wanted to live in Vegas before I even found out about Leo. I debated even posting it for this reason, no one would really connect with it and the fact that it's not finished yet but.. I decided to anyway.

As I'm developing my vision board I came across these beautiful photos, and instantly I thought of this is a good representation of living with an accurate perception of reality, detailed, vivid, clear, complex but cohesive. Check them out! http://lindelokse.deviantart.com/ http://c-91.deviantart.com/

Honestly I didn't know that, but when I listened to some of his songs like "home" I got that vibe for sure, it's really awesome to see people here who know him, none of my friends do haha, ever since he remixed deadmau5 - Raise Your Weapon I've been incredibly inspired by him. I'm curious to jump into seeing how he got where he is now.

Wouldn't let me upload from attachments for some reason but here's mine so far, not even close to done, still want to add life purpose, gym, intimacy, more inspiring figures, wealth, art and adding important labels like passion, purpose, abundance, infinity, strategy, I'm kind of going all out on this one. I've decided to work on it until it feels right or when I've finished the LP course again.

Not that I can see unless you can point it out to me where at, thanks though.

This is kind of important, I remember Leo talking about being selfless, and I vaguely remember him saying something like "But Leo! If I want to help others shouldn't I be focus on myself?" and I remember him saying "no, you should focus less on yourself and more on others." I'm curious to understand true authentic motivation.

Yeah I agree in the abstract big picture notion, but not in the concrete or pragmatic notion which is what I'm interested in and focused on in this thread.

So this is the first time I'm actually doing some self-inquiry, I have no idea what I'm doing but I've decided to journal to help me in this process because I just became really frustrated without it. I currently have no idea how to do self inquiry, but I'm going to figure it out. I'm looking for some tips on how to do self-inquiry, questioning my identity and who I believe I am, finding out who am I, literally, and I want to know what's true. I'm not looking for you to tell me that "dude you're awareness! you're aware of it all! " or "you're nothingness!" I understand all of those ideas, but I want to experience awareness and nothingness for what it ACTUALLY truly is in direct experience. that's all I want, I just want the truth with the ultimate intent of living with an accurate perception of reality. and who I truly am. this is my first inquiry --> "What exists for me? I can feel things on my body, sensations, I can hear sounds, I can see objects from my eyes. What else? I can hear thoughts that I have no idea what they are or where they are located, they’re just there. I can bring up images that I have no idea what they are or where they are located, they’re just there. Anything else? No. this is all that exists for me. What are these things? I have no fucking clue, I just know that they exist and that there is an experience of them. Where do I exist? Take a guess. I exist in thoughts again I have no idea what they are or where they are located, they’re just there. I’m labeling them thoughts because I need something to ground me in this work. What is a thought? Truly? It’s an experience. What is an experience? The recognition that something exists. What exists and doesn’t exist? What exists is something that I can perceive or notice, whatever label I want to use here. What doesn’t exist is what I can’t perceive and what I can’t notice again whatever label I want to use here. So what am I? “I” am a label created inside an experience." I'm just looking for some tips and maybe a little guidance in this process and maybe how others do self inquiry, how you started, how you progressed, Thanks.

I do want to dive more into biology, physics and quantum mechanics in my studies, that stuff is like intellectual candy to me. but self mastery, life purpose and self actualization are my main focus. I already meditate an hour everyday, bumped it up to an hour a day 2 months ago and haven't missed a day, overall been meditating for almost 2 years, only missing a day here and there. I've only just recently become truly conscious of the problem of human identity in the process of living up to my highest potential in life, already during this self inquiry process I've become conscious of these labels you describe, thinking, believing, knowing , etc. and my assumptions of them. thanks for the input.

I'm looking to ask more questions about my ego, Examples: - What are thoughts? - What are beliefs? - Who am I? - What is truth? - Why do I suffer? - Why do I try to be so certain? Things like this, what are some questions that you've asked that really gave you insights into truth? I was watching the Secret to spiritual success - Matt Kahn. and he gave me an insight into contemplation which is pretty awesome "You can ask any question, you can contemplate any question spiritually, and if you did it from a place of relaxation, you wouldn't necessarily find the answer that is other words to resolve the question you have. The answer would be realizing that the question was only manufactured in your consciousness as a reflection of how out of alignment or how unrelaxed you live your life. So what if an answer is just words that conformed you've returned to relaxation and questions are reminding you how unaligned you are, but they have nothing to do with one another. People have questions and think an answer is gonna resolve it, people say "Who am I?" and they're waiting for someone to say something, instead of saying "the question I'm asking is proof that I'm not relaxed, let me relax, let me become the answer, not the one listening for an answer and then whatever amazing insight I have is just my consciousness shifting out of question mode to answer mode to confirm that I've returned to relaxation as proof to how aligned I now am."

Thanks @Leo Gura, I've been going pretty deep even with just the first questions you gave. I realize I need to get better at questioning, asking proper questions, double checking, triple checking my assumptions and continue to build up my mindfulness to really "see" what's going on on the meta level. Thanks again.

to me experience means the recognition that something exists. I don't think I'm the perceiver perceiving the perceived. I experience that there is perception of these things.. that's all. "I" refers to "me" "awareness" "nothingness" whatever label you want to use. I realize that I do still identify that there is a me experiencing these things because I need a premise that explains the experience that's occurring right now. Your premise is based on that "I" don't exist. which I understand. but that doesn't deny that there still is experience happening regardless if there is someone behind it which of course enlightenment says there isn't. I'm looking to find out what is the source that even recognizes that something exists in the first place. that's the thing I'm interested in. which is nothingness. which I'm really trying to get to the bottom of even if there is no bottom to be found. Sorry if there's a lot of confusion.

well, for me, clearly there is a face with eyes watching objects in the distance, and I am aware that I'm currently experiencing that right this second, the "experiencer" is the "I" label in thoughts, and "experienced" refers to the past which I'm not interested in. I'm not really sure how you jumped to these conclusions.

yeah that makes sense, thinking about it more that sounds like a good question to re-frame roles from the root that is identity. hook it up wit suma dat 5-MeO :D?

@Leo Gura Can you rephrase this question --> "How does each role feed into your sense of being a self?" don't really understand what you mean.

I've come to realize how little I understand about this concept and why it is that leading the body the mind will follow and leading the mind the body will follow --> If you can't control your mind, control your body, if you can't control your body control your mind. My question is what exactly is going on here? Why is this the case and how does it work? and also what are the practical steps I can take to developing this? From what I currently understand it's about alignment. I hear things such as "honoring your highest wisdom and doing the things you want to and know you should be doing." it seems as though the mind has it's own agenda and the body has it's own agenda. Why can't I simply do the things I know I should be doing? why can't I just flip that switch? Why is it so hard for that transition to occur? It could be limiting beliefs, it could be fears, but I just want to know what's that's ultimately grounded in, is it identity? is it fear? is it not knowing? Is it unconsciousness? Is it distractions? what is the root? so in trying to understand all this I realize I'm missing something. hopefully someone here can help me find what this is rooted in. Any takers? I'm completely open here.

@Alicja_ I agree, it seems as though there is a type of separation of mind and body and there's a state of equilibrium that has to be developed. It's interesting how my mind can know exactly what It wants, but on the other hand my body literally doesn't know how to achieve it or it just flat out resists doing it (distractions, fears, limiting beliefs) and this creates the misalignment. So I guess my strategy is to just slowly teach my body how to just start doing it. I have to know it in my head just as equally I have to know it in my body. The mind is on board and understands. now it's time to help the body be on board and understand. And I believe this is done through leading with the body so it can learn and understand just as deeply as the mind understands.

So I'm writing this because I'm curious to see if anyone has gone through the life purpose course a second time? I've recently decided to go through it a second time because I've learned and improved on so much since a year ago about strategy, structuring, studying, understanding and many more things that I feel I'm actually up to the task and have the skills to actually make a deep understanding of what Leo is showing us and have it nice and neatly laid out in my journal so I have a deep understanding and I'm developing the embodiment that Leo talks about in this life purpose vision. I've decided to take it slow to really get all the gold I can from this. Because before I kind of rushed it, I took all the notes last year but it wasn't really grounded in anything because I was new to this whole thing. I'm actually really excited to be working on this Life Purpose again for the next 2-3 months. Even if nothing comes of it, even if it doesn't work at all and even if it takes me back a notch, It's still worth it. I'm aware this is all talk but I don't know why but I wanted to ask this question and share my view on this hole thing.

Everything @CaptainFlint said. To truly embody these concepts will take you a long time. And to be honest, even if you're incredibly determined and do everything (as I did). I believe what you put in is what you'll get out of it (if you know how to get the most out of it.). this is long term strategy and this rule of 80-15-5 explains exactly why most people won't get much from it, this is very long term results we're aiming for here which I don't think most people prepare for.

I'm 100% shooting to be in the top 5% among many many other things he mentioned. It's kind of funny talking about it here, because I mean it's all talk, not much point in talking about what I'm gonna do but I guess I posted this because I'm curious about what results others have gotten which according to the 80-15-5 model there probably isn't many people with awesome results. But yeah I finished it last year and it felt great, I learned a lot about myself, my values and important concepts that Leo hadn't covered and that opened things up for me but now that I know how to use this information, it's a whole different view going through it again and I'm really looking forward to it. I actually feel I'm capable of really embodying these things and I've never had that feeling before. "there's a lot of time and effort you're gonna have to put into this course to really work this course. But then again if you're a person who's really serious about living a powerful life then this will be a negligible cost in terms of time and money for you because you can see the potential that this has if you just get this part of your life taken care of. "

IMO, those big three aren't what you should be focusing on, if anything it's Enlightenment, Purpose and Strategy. I can see that you have your mind closed to some concepts because they seem " non-sense or it simply is contradictory to what the sciences says." You don't have to believe people, you can find the truth within your direct experience if you actually try to look for it in your life, in fact this is the only way you should be looking at life. How can a person surrender to their motivation or their vision if they have limiting beliefs about it, a resistance to it, a kind of "but how do I do it? Is it even possible? What if I fail? What do I do? Yeah but this contradicts this." mentality. Motivation is a feeling thing, it sits in your mind and feels good when it shows up in your conscious awareness. You're sabotaging your motivation by whatever limiting belief you hold, whatever resistance you're having when that vision pops up in your mind you gotta ask the important questions like: What kind of reservations do I have about this vision? or What's honestly holding me back? (it's not external things btw) and that's where strategy comes in. This is the inner work that needs to be done, and identifying and strategizing these things is a process.

It's hard for me to see anything getting accomplished without journaling everyday. It's not just about next day things, or plans, I put EVERYTHING in my journal. strategies, things I contemplate, what I want to accomplish, things I need to learn, skills I need to develop, practical action steps, note taking of principles, mindsets, even practical knowledge like how cars work. Everything goes in my journal. It's kind interesting to see how Leo hasn't really covered how important journaling is. It's definitely a foundational thing.

I remember when I first became aware that I was going to eventually die, I think 5-6 sounds about right, I had the same experience pretty closely as you. In the middle of the night, except I sat in my hallway crying, I remember that night so vividly, not so much my thoughts but my emotions and thoughts about death.

Now the fun part begins getting out of your existential crisis

You never know until you're actually in the experience, to make a judgement based on a "what if scenario" fails to acknowledge that it can go either way, so setting a rule dependent on a future projection seems pointless. I just see you trying to come to a conclusion that is based on being fulfilled with someones personality vs being fulfilled with sexual desires when it reality it doesn't work that way, some people have boundaries when it comes to that, some don't. Some people outweigh the sexual desires and the emotional desires but they go hand in hand. it's dependent on the personality type of a person in the actual experience, not black and white thinking of a yes and no, in reality it's more complicated and you gotta accept that.