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For about four years, I've been on this journey, diving into Leo's work and trying to have what he calls "direct experiences." I've meditated, contemplated the ideas, and done the practices, but a lot of the time, I feel I'm still where I started at. I've had what I think were some fleeting glimpses—moments where the ordinary world felt thin or transparent—but they always feel so fragile. I can’t seem to hold onto them, and the a-ha feeling quickly fades. Soon enough, I'm back in my default worldview, and the doubts come flooding in. The entire concept of solipsism initially terrified me. The thought of being completely alone, with everything and everyone being a projection of my own mind, felt like the ultimate nightmare. But lately, my perspective has completely flipped. Now, I'm finding a strange sense of comfort in the idea. The thought of a world with other people and a truly solid, external reality feels much more threatening than a world that's just me. There's so much to fear in a world of others: judgment, loss, and the unpredictability of human connection. The idea of being the absolute for eternity, able to create and insert myself into a dream world indistinguishable from "reality" whenever I get bored and need an adventure, feels like a serene and welcoming escape. This is where I'm at now: I desperately want to fully know and experience that solipsism is true so I can stop this back-and-forth doubting. But the biggest fear I face is the thought that this is all just a story I'm telling myself to cope. I keep worrying that Leo's ideas are simply bullshit and that the terrifying, messy, "real" world is the only thing that actually exists.

@Jehovah increases I've done psychs many times, probably more than many people here, including 5-meo. And also dissociatives. When I'm on them it seems like I understand this "secret of the universe" but then when I come back I can't be certain it wasn't just hallucinations and delusions.

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@r0ckyreed i mean…. if we assume physicalism is true and each mind is contained within each physical being wouldn’t it be the same? each person would only experience their own experience quite obviously…..

Non duality

So can all of you “truth realized” beings start posting fluently in foreign languages you’ve never learned? Surely as an omniscient God who created all languages you should know and understand all languages?

@Raptorsin7 it never began

Lol this forum is insane. Holding a gun to your head is in no way a “spiritual practice” and if you think it is, well I don’t even know what to say

@Holykael wow good thing ur not the main dreamer bro. I’m impressed with ur insights tho with you despite tho for being a dream character. Not like your Capable of appreciating the compliment anyways tho

@Razard86 consider the irony of what your doing. Your telling yourself in the dream that there’s someone who tells themself things in their dream.

There is no “ideal life” outside of your own idea of it. Do whatever you want to do, being an individual is the entire point of life.

Withdrawing from society is actually incredibly dualistic is it not?

@Blackhawk just imagine some hookers and blow bro

@Leo Gura try taking a bigger dose of ketamine. to get full effect.to me it Sounds like you didn’t take enough. Just keep taking like 15-20mg bumps of it until you get to like 150mg-200mg.

Try psychedelics + ketamine + nitrous The profundity of mixing a disso + a psych far surpasses either one on their own. Mind blowing stuff for sure.

Why does god need to use imaginary chemicals to awaken to itself? What’s stopping someone from reaching the “5-meo state” without 5-meo? Imaginary brain chemistry I suppose?

Opioids occasionally. Or ketamine/other dissociatives.

@Leo Gura there’s always changa!!