LSD-Rumi

2-cb fly PCP and PCE derivatives (3-ho pcp, 3-ho pce,..etc) 3-fea, 6-Apb (MDMA like) 4-ho met

@Leo GuraI understand that life can be very hard especially health issues, I my self have multiple mental ilnesses and still seriously consider suicide every couple of days but what I don't understand is that you did like 300 trips and you meditated a lot, how on earth such things still affect your happiness, aren't you supposed to be invinciple . Maybe your relatively low baseline is the problem, maybe this shows greatly the limitations of the psychedelic approach Or is it that suffering cannot be practically transcended by humans?

5 meo is not suitable for shadow work or people with mental illness. It is so harsh and cold.

@Schizophonia Nice! Thank you for the info.

It has some dirty chaotic feeling to it as the name suggests. Basically most the characters in this show are degenerates with no real ethics but they got this energy and love for life. you enjoy their sneaky ways for making money and their strive for survival. You also enjoy their bond as a family and how they care for each other. It taught me a lot of things about stage red and expression of my sexuality and aggression. It also teaches stage blue and caring for your own family too. Watch like 3 or 4 seasons of this show. Then it is more or less the same stuff and defenitely don't watch the last couple of seasons.

@Matt23 effexor and Clompramine are antidepressants, the other one is a mood stabilizer. I have been taking them for more than a month now.

@Emrie 2 antidepressants and 1 mood stabilizer.

@Emrie most of my other doctors just gave some weak dose of an SSRI, which was a very bad experience. I Lost my trust in medication until I met this doctor and prescribed me multiple medications with high doses. If you suffer from mental illness, make sure your doctor treat you generously. I had almost zero side effects, don't worry about them.

@Emrie This is a huge mistake. I experienced it myself. No matter how much time and effort trying to resolve my fear and anxiety, I failed, but now with medication It pulled me out of that negative depressed state, and it is much easier to work on my psyche.

@onacloudynight it is not a problem with the people in your life mainly, they could be bad people, I don't know but what I know is that you are not a strog individual and this is what causing all these problems. If you are not confident and if you don't love and respet yourself enough, you will not set any real boundaries and most people will walk over you. You need to develop a sense of safety inside you. This will make you strong and capable of standing your ground effortlessly. Start little by little removing fear and anxiety from your heart, face people instead of running away, create a vision of how you want to be and works towards this vision everyday.

@Schizophonia I did some microdosing recently, it felt nice bit drugs are much better. Drugs calm you down and remove anxiety from your system, the drug is always in your system and make changes always while micrdosing last for a couple of hours then you get back inti thats state. But still you can take drugs and microdosing, I had many trips on acid while taking SSRIs.

@ZenAlex I sarted making lifestyle changes recently. My lifestyle was very bad, I couldn't change it while feeling anxiety and depression all the time. I was imprisoned in that mental state, I needed something to pull me out of this state so I can make changes to my lifestyle.

@Lana Faye Also, I used this substance to heal a lot of my bad thoughts and repressed emotions, it is amazing, it is like a mini version of MDMA. You can try it but don't overuse it

Not yet. I still want the drugs to reach their highest effect before I start therapy. But I used to do therapy with myself for years and it didn't work

@Lana Faye Medications are essential. I tried working on my thoughts for years with little success, I couldn't get out of that weird state. But after I had proper medication, it fesls much easier to work my thoughts out. And yeah SSRIs were so bad for me. They made me tired and emotionless. SNRIs are mich better, They give me tons of energy. Here is what I take Effexor 225mg Lamotrigine 50mg 3 times Clompramine 75mg twice

@Lana Faye This is totally wrong actually. You cannot escape a severe mental illness without proper medication. I tried it for years and I failed. What worked for me recently is high dosage multidrug appraoch and it feels much better. I tried Psychedelics and they were a waste of my time. You just have a nightmare trip when you are mentally ill.

DPT is much more gentle and warm than 5-meo. 5-meo is harsh and cold, don't do it if you have a mental illness. Cure any mental illness or traumas before doing psychedelics, I learned that the hard way.

@The Mystical Man meh, the first movement is far better. I don't like the traditional "aggresive" piano style or music generally.

be aware guys if you already have too many stones in your gallblader and you do the flush, stones can get stuck and block your gallbladder and liver and it will cause an emergency.

what about sports like soccer and tennis? I have always thought they are a stupid life purpose.

@Leo Gura what about the imaginary death? There is an imaginary life and so there will be an imaginary death. How about that? I think people are wondering about this.

I was surpriesed when I saw Leo drinking that stuff, I thought he prefers less "organic" approach

@roopepa I think what you experienced is not a bad trip but instead, substance induced paychosis. These delusions you described are very common amongst psychotic people.

@Jannes I don't know about that. I made a post the other day explaining how racetams potentiate psychedelics up to 3 times the strength! So I think modafinil might do something similar.

Leo should really start making such sessions watch it till the end, it gets better.