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You need to study thousands of historical people to answer this question But this one seems enlightened AF. Lahiri Mahasaya

I read medical literature.

Yeah, This one is atypical. I used to be a very cold person, I didn't use to feel a lot of emotions. But now I am totally different. I trained myself to be more emotional. It feels like activating your heart. I feel extremely empathic to any living being now. So I think you need to do something like this, in some way or another.

Second-generation (atypical) antipsychotics are good for apathy, Did you try any of them?

Oh, I see. Sorry I didn't read the part that you have been in 3 institutions when I read the post for the 1st time Cool. How long have you been stable?

Anyone on the forum is a man until proven otherwise

Yeah, Psychiatric diseases can be very unique and weird. I just wanted to make sure you are receiving the appropriate medical care.

At least two criteria are required. And I think you meet 3 or at least 2. Who knows why?

@KatiesKarma Go see a psychiatrist, don't self-diagnose yourself. There is a reason why psychiatrists exist. Do you mean Schizotypal Personality Disorder? This is more of a personality disorder that sticks with you since birth. Schizoid is also a personality disorder in which you don't like socializing and that's it. Those disorders don't cause dysfunction. You also may have depression with psychotic features.

According to medical literature they do and that's why they are used in depression too.

I think you meet the criteria. You have at least hallucinations and negative symptoms. You should see a psychiatrist, they will give you the definitive diagnosis. Don't get slobby when it comes to your health. "The DSM-5 criteria for a diagnosis of schizophrenia include the presence of at least two of the following symptoms, each present for a significant portion of time during a one-month period (or less if successfully treated): Delusions: False beliefs that are not based in reality and are resistant to reason or contradictory evidence. Delusions can involve various themes, such as being persecuted, having special powers, or having a grandiose identity. Hallucinations: Perceptions in the absence of external stimuli. These most commonly involve hearing voices, but can also involve seeing, feeling, tasting, or smelling things that are not actually present. Disorganized speech: Incoherent or jumbled speech that may be difficult to understand, with individuals jumping from one topic to another without a logical connection. Disorganized or catatonic behavior: Disorganized behavior may manifest as a range of unusual or unpredictable actions, while catatonic behavior may involve decreased motor activity or extreme resistance to movement. Negative symptoms: A reduction or absence of normal functioning and abilities, which can include reduced emotional expression, social withdrawal, lack of motivation, and decreased ability to experience pleasure." How long have you been stable without medication? You should be careful, it may just be a symptoms-free period.

@KatiesKarma It seems that you went through the classical symptoms of Schizophonia. What you described as loss of emotions is one of the negative symptoms of schizophrenia along with social isolation. The negative symptoms start before the positive symptoms which you described later like hallucinations and delusions. How long have you been stable? Are you on medication? Were you diagnosed in the first place?

I don't understand how noting and labeling things could benefit one spiritually, I prefer to just bathe in love and allow it to penetrate my body.

@Leo Gura Why is understanding consciousness your ultimate pursuit? shouldn't it be more of becoming consciousness?

@TheAlchemist Could you share it publically or send me a PM too?

Lol, just an honest mistake

Oh, I had a different meaning of canceling in my mind. I meant on average, only 4-5% of your followers watch your content.

@Derek White I think you are doing a lot of projections on Leo. He wasn't toxic or heartless and he continued providing a lot of very helpful advice here apart from some rants which I ironically enjoyed. I was never offended by any of what he used to say, nor considered it as arrogance. I think what Leo means, is that he was distracted with the spiritual that he forgot the humane aspect of life. It is something between him and his self rather than between him and us.

Not just for money, but to protect yourself from being canceled which obviously happened to you.

I see. I have a specific thing in mind if you don't mind asking. Would you have hidden your more advanced content behind a paywall?

Octopus is capable of using shells or trash to hide inside them from predators in addition to changing color to match the environment. They are very intelligent animals.

Yeah, that one you pay for.

@Leo Gura Leo do you regret anything in the way you operated actualized.org? would you have done something differently?

I think you mean this one I got terrified while listening to this episode the first time.

@Buck Edwards It is okay to fail, actually, you gonna fail a lot, but you keep standing up from every failure and continue pursuing what you want. This is how you become a better person, through failure! accept failing as a part of the process but don't accept losing. Don't hate on yourself, be positive, encourage it every day, accept the bad traits in you, and have a vision of what you want to become. But of course, there is no easy way around it, change takes a lot of time and effort and this is exactly why you need to be gentle with yourself. Treat it like a child with understanding but as a guide for it too.