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Has any of you found the truth. If yes, do you think if we can put truth unto words?

I want to experience more psychedelic states. There is not much I dislike about reality. I have fallen in love with just existing. Maybe I will start a business in a couple of years when I will be well.

A little of my background. I was addicted to weed for 4 and half years when I was in Canada. Now, it has been three years that I came back to India my home country. I have not been working since then. I am relying on my family for my basic needs like food and shelter. I have an urge to smoke hashish everyday but my family isn't allowing me to smoke weed or hash. They put restrictions on me. Also I am on my anti psychotic medication. I don't know what should I do.

I don't have goals. My only goal is to live. I can't work because I am anti psychotic medication which makes me sleep 12 hours a day.

@AerisVahnEphelia Oki lol

They don't allow it even that much.

My head rush with suicidal thoughts and I feel uneasy. Everything seems point less.

How should I make money? How can I plant? I don't have land. And I don't have money to start a business.

I don't have a girlfriend lol. Like what I see with my eyes is truth? But it is all normal. Is normalcy truth?

I understand thanks leo.

Like what I see with my eyes is truth? But it is all normal. Is normalcy truth?

Hahahaha

It would be perfect but I don't go real deep even though I have done psychedelics before. Thanks for rest of the advice.

Lol

@Joseph Maynor what do you mean?

What do you mean?

@LordFall I think it makes me calm and relax that is why I want to smoke. I can't meditate because I am on anti psychotic medication. Medication makes me so restless.

@Thought Art thank you Jared. I will continue to listen to the doctor and live a more simple and grounded life. @LordFallthanks man. I really appreciate.

A bit of my background. I was in Canada 3 years ago. I took 5meo dmt for almost 20 times, also 5meo malt and shrooms and and lsd and also used weed for 4 and half years. After coming back from Canada I came home to India. I had several psychotic episodes where I broke my brother's iphone and became naked on the road after mastrubating thinking about my mother. My family sent me to rehab in India for a couple of times in India . I had a road accident in India where I tried to commit sucide on the road (I hit myself with a car in 2023. Also I Ram away from home and went to jammu and kashmir on bicycle and went to a village in jammu and kashmir people of that village thought I am a terrorist and they beat me with the stick. They were going to shoot me. Now I am on anti psychotic medication amylife 200 and anti depressents which is making me obese. I watched leo's videos where he says deconstruct science. Now I don't know if I should continue with the medication or not. My doctor doesn't even know about what is dmt. I used to hear voices from my family. If science is unreal and scientists don't know anything than shall I continue with my anti psychotic medication that scientists are developed? I don't know whom I should listen to. Please shed some light if you guys know what to do.

@LordFall I see what you are talking. I think it is all ok. As I have told in my last post that I masturbated thinking about my mother and I became naked on the road is because I gave birth to myself. I think when you open your mind fully nothing is good and bad.

Hey @Leo Gura In which video did you say the following:- You can have sex with your mother and give birth to yourself.

@LordFallthanks man. I really appreciate.

@Shaktipat thank you.

@Elliott thank you

Have you guys read Jiddu Krishnamurti? If yes, what are your thoughts on his teachings?