Leeo_SA

Date: 10.1.25 Relevant incidents today: Had back pain again. Went to medical center. Sleep: good sleep Difficulty: 0/10 Supplements: Tyrosin What I am proud of: Was happy altought I had pain. In the evening, before I went to the doctor, I had a nice conversation with a new Client from HI. Date: 11.1.25 Relevant incidents today: M in bed today, without yes / no, Yes / no thoughts. was nice! I have the controll, not my automatic behaviour! Sleep: good sleep Difficulty: 3/10 Supplements: Tyrosin What I am proud of: Worked for about 2h, organized my dashboard in notion aso. Was a nice day!

Good Idea! Thank you for that Input! That makes Sense! date: 9.1.25 Relevant incidents: nothing Sleep: very good Difficulty PM: 2/10 Supplements: nothing What I am proud of: I got invited for an Interview. I Spoke the truth about myself that I want to be Self employed in the Long run. I am Proud about that and that I dont let my anxiety take over. further I had a hard but nice day. I got another offer for an interview as well as a Coaching request 🤗

@mmKay Thank you for your reply. I understand know, why I am more tempted after a phase of abstinence. I read the book several years back. But since then I forgot a bit, will do some research.

@mmKay Yes I tried. But I am afraid a bit that I overdue fapping as well. My biggest struggle is that I see myself, that I have periods of 3-4 months were I fap to porn regularly followed by 3-4 Month where I dont even think on porn. I tried several methods for recognizing the thought which triggers the behaviour for looking at porn at the end. And that works at the moment well. But when I have the urge again in a few weeks or months, than I don't remember, that I need to look at my thoughts and bring distance in between. But that is also just a believe I think ... Date: 6.1.25 - 8.1.25 Relevant incidents: Just today: i fapped in the shower, felt good! Sleep: very good Difficulty P: 2/10, M: 8/10 Supplements: nothing What I am proud of: I meditated again but stopped today in the second meditation. I asked myself, why I am overdoing it. Further I had again a really nice conversation with a friend. I feel like I am in a transition. Topics Enlightenment is very present at the moment and also letting it go.

Date: 5.1.25 Relevant incidents today: Was really horny the whole day. In the evening I had an orgasm with my GF. After that, my mood got uplifted like a withstand went away which was very surprising bc I didnt want to have an orgasm. In the afternoon I felt a big resistance to work and to do anything. Sleep: very good Difficulty PM (mastrubation & porn): 9/10 Supplements: 0.12g Iboga and 1 capsule of Tyrosin. I stop now with Iboga. Maybe I do it again in one year in winter. The experiment with Iboga and Tyrosin was superb! I experimented a lot with different substances in previous years but this combination had the biggest impact on my mood and handling with anxiety. Every winter I am another man, have more interest in meditation and spiritual pratice but have also winter depression. With this combination (or also without Iboga) I am in another mood. What I am proud of: I meditated today 3 times, 1x 30min, 1x 25min, 1x 20min. Tomorrow I start with walking meditation. Further I had a new client in my part time job: an 101 year old man, he runs like he is 40tish, he eats fruits (in comparassion to other elderly people who are eating just garbage), he is pretty optimistic and has a really good brain (no alzheimer or so). Was nice to be with him! In the evening I made an exercise for introspection due to my resistance to work. Was also a great excersise! Further I applied to 5ish jobs.

@Princess Arabia Thank you for your reflection. Perhaps the ego feels more threatened when it knows that it is real. @The Crocodile Crazy!! As long as we know it is fake, it is funny. It's like comedy and satire. That is social accepted even if the comedian does some racist, female, or minority jokes (ok not by everyone). But when it is not in a context of comedy, it is a problem.

@June June Hi, thank you for sharing your experiences. When I tried the first time Ayahuasca in the amazonas, I didnt have any visions and grand experience as well. Only after the 7th night I had my first introspection. It was really beautiful! In my experience it was due to "living in the head". Psychedelics are something frome nature and I bond them with heart, intuition and more female engery (without wanting to sound too new age-ish...) The second reason was maybe unconscious trauma and a projected lack of trust. After that 7th night, I had several other ayahuasca ceremonies and other substances. Since then every experience was awesome. But my experiences are manely in my head, especially ayahuasca. I have so many thoughts and insights but dont have visions with colors and scenes. I suggest also trying other substances like LSD. OR: Maybe the energy of the substances are too subtle or feminime (like ayahuasca, the mother) for you and because you are (as I was) more living in the head, you need something "stronger" and more masculine like YOPO. I really hope you will find something which suites you well, psychedelics have so much potential!

@Princess Arabia I understand the point of @Buck Edwards and have a similar view. I have really problems seeing violent gore videos. But why? Is there something deeper than just "I know it is not real vs. it is real" ?

Date: 4.1.25 Relevant incidents today: Nothing Sleep: very good Difficulty PM (mastrubation & porn): 1/10 Supplements: 1 capsule of Tyrosin. What I am proud of: I meditated today 3 times, 2 times 20min and 1 time 45min with an online Meditation Group in the evening. Had many thoughts, I believe due to too much (unhealthy) eating and beeing tired.

That is bodyshaming. What do you know? Maybe he has an illness or he had normal weight before and due to psychological issues he has eaten much. A Cop needs good mental health with all the bs in this world, and they Are the First one in contact with criminals. Further du you Like it if somebody says something against your nationality?

Date: 4.1.25 Relevant incidents today: Was horny in the afternoon, but had controlls over my thoughts. Sleep: very good Difficulty PM (mastrubation & porn): 8/10 Supplements: 0.13g Iboga and 1 capsule of Tyrosin. What I am proud of: I meditated today 3 times, 2 times 20min and 1 time 45min. Further I wrote applications for 90 min and read for about 90min. Was a good day!

@Terell Kirby How they slamed him in the car at 8:19 😂😂😂😂😂😂

Date: 3.1.25 Relevant incidents today: Was horny when I woke up, had a filthy dream. In the evening I was in the internet and wanted to see, if there are some porn categories on an online stream plattform. As soon as I saw my thoughts, I stopped and shutted down the website. Sleep: Good Difficulty PM (mastrubation & porn): 7/10 Supplements: Didnt take anything today. Tomorrow Iboga and Tyrosin again. What I am proud of: I really enjoy meditating now. I meditated today 2 times each 20 min. I was very still in the second meditation which was a nice preview of the next level in my meditation journey.

@Exystem Nice to hear 🫶🏻

Date: 2.1.25 Relevant incidents today: Nothing. Sleep: Good Difficulty PM (mastrubation & porn): 0/10 Supplements: 1 capsule Tyrosine, didnt want to take Iboga bc afraid that it could have some effects one day after mushroom trip. What I am proud of: Had a really nice chat with @Exystem. Was great to talk with somebody, which is on the same intellectual and spiritual level. Further I was proud of myself that I respected my mood and body and didnt pressure myself in working. I was tired today and respected that.

Date: 31.12.24 Relevant incidents today: Nothing special. Sleep: good sleep Difficulty: 1/10 Supplements: What I am proud of: Date: 1.1.25 Relevant incidents today: Had a really nice 3.4g mushroom trip today. Discovered reality and myself. I took videos of myself speaking to me for insights in my life aso. It did go well but 3-4h longer than usual (I think due to iboga micrososing). Sleep: good sleep Difficulty: 1/10 Supplements: 0.14g Iboga and 1 capulse Tyrosine What I am proud of: I was amazed by the intelligence of our existence. I really want to share my deepest greatfullness of my life. For that, I am doing my meditation praxis and sometimes mushrooms.

since those Substances Are illegal, I cannot think of another way which isnt sketchy...Even if you have a dealer, you never know for sure what you are consuming. For this case I Like switzerland. There is public authority avaiable, where you can test your substances for exact ingredience.

I See your Point. Never Seen it that way but you are Right! Thank you for your Reflection 😊🙏

Hi guys, I started watching Leos Videos 4 years back and want to get serious with spiritual work. I am searching now a meditation habit and came across Culadasa "the mind illuminated". I like it because it seems there is a map how you know when you need to progress to the next step. It sounds plausible, and would prefer to have some feedback: Is it good? Or are you guys recommending something else with similar approach? I am not religious, don't want to follow a Guru (didn't work for me in the past). What are your spiritual practice / habits? I really prefer something with step by step instructions and I´ve done Kriya Yoga, Kundalini Yoga, Qi Gong, different kinds of meditation practices, breathing excercises aso. My mind searched all the time for a better practice, so I switched from one to another. Now I want finally to stick to one practice.

@Something Funny i got it from my father. He tried it but didnt have Any effects. He got it online Form germany because it is legal over there. maybe you get it from darknet?

@Buck Edwards I would add "observe the Part in you who judges"

@Breakingthewall I See it similar. Getting rid of everything, which I am Not.

@Soulbass I've Never done it but read a Book about it. I have a Problem to wake up in the Night, stay awaken for 15-30min and go back to sleep bc I sleep with my GF together and dont want to wake her up. (Books recomendation). are there other ways to train LD? How Long did it take in your case?

I had some Deep talks to another human being which is awaken. My "goal" is to See currently myself as that which I am really and demonstrier Reality. problem with a teacher outside of me: I Feel it is a trap. They Are just here to pinpoint but I have to do the work. I had Deep awakening experiences with psychedelics, I know that I am god, and other stuff but I want to manifest it in life.

Date: 30.12.24 Relevant incidents today: We drove back to our home today. I was not in a good mood in the car, didnt know why. was tired, exhausted. At home I was somehow filled with pressure and was angry. After meditation I felt a bit better. Sleep: good sleep Difficulty: 1/10 Supplements: 0.13g iboga and 1 capusle Tyrosine What I am proud of: Sexually active with GF, tieded up my stuff, ended drawing flags, done 2x meditation.