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Marcus chose to exit this realm on Friday August 22 2025. In the coming weeks and months I look forward to sharing more about his legacy and all the ways his work and his spirit touched so many.

https://www.gofundme.com/f/grailfamilymedicalexpenses Hey everyone. I'm coming to you on behalf of Marcus Grail and his family in their time of need. On August 6th Marcus suffered a major stroke and has incurred considerable medical expenses in the time since. A GoFundMe has been created on behalf of Marcus and his wife Geffen, to offset those expenses and to provide ongoing financial support. Marcus, along with his close friend Bill Atkinson, revolutionized the use of 5-MeO-DMT perhaps most notably through an Erowid article published under the name Grace Within. Out of respect for discretion I won't share more at this time. Please consider sharing the GoFundMe, and donating if you're in a position to do so. We are a community, and I personally consider it a sacred duty and honor to support one another, and especially our elders. I'm open to any questions or any clarification you may be interested in. Thank you 🙏🏻❤️‍🔥

Here's a recent interview with Marcus talking about 5. https://youtu.be/69gbOrRKmpo

Everyone is different, and each experience may have a wide range of possible directions it may go depending on dose, mindset, setting, and other factors. I have had completely jaw dropping God realizations with ketamine and I've also had experiences where I'm just some abstract conscious sensory phenomenon. And many things in between.

Those who know don't talk, and those who talk don't know. Also it's not so different from any other hobby. To generalize, most people aren't open to a deep conversation on a topic about which they're inexperienced, uninformed, or uninterested. That together with the subject and strong opinions surrounding the subject, it's no wonder conversation isn't forthcoming. Try meeting people where they are, being interested in them and their lives.

Synthetic 5-MeO-DMT, and in particular the StepWise Protocol, may be of interest to you.

It's the dance, the infinite eternal blooming and becoming.

Yes

I received coaching certification in the addiction and transformation space with an emphasis on psychedelic prep and integration. Send me a DM if you want to talk shop.

I am full of shit! And to a degree that I might never fully appreciate. If the particular shit I am full of helps OP realize and orient with the truth of their felt experience, that's the kind of shit I'm happy to sling.

Respectfully this is a dog shit perspective. The so called "ego backlash" is OP encountering more of themself, which means more opportunity for embodiment, insight, observation, expression, inquiry, reprocessing, integration, and love.

It's all part of the unfolding

Yes, a powdered sugar like texture is normal For small doses, volume (scoop) may be more reliable than weight (scale) due to the scale tolerance and margin of error below 10 mg.

The colors are for enticement. There's more to it than that. Once to accept that, and humble yourself, and be open to the experience as it is, more will be revealed.

I've had subtle reactivations while driving, and I personally know several people who have had intermittent reactivations all day, every day, for weeks. They chose not to drive for obvious reasons.

This argument consistently fails to even consider the environmental and ethical impact of synthetic. Synthetic is more deeply abstracted than natural. One has no idea of, and would struggle to accurately model, the impact that purchasing synthetic 5-meo-dmt has. Natural there is, ideally, zero abstraction. You squeeze the a toad and set it loose. There is room for both natural and synthetic.

This is not an either or situation. There are reasons to use synthetic and there are reasons to use the toad. Especially if you live in the right part of the world the toad is abundant and it is a beautiful opportunity to get to connect with the natural source of this incredible transformative medicine / teacher / tool

My first batch looked exactly as pictured fresh from the vendor

Generally speaking salts such as 5-MeO-MALT HCl are quite stable. That being said, ideal storage conditions are a cool, dark, dry, airtight space.

Much of the 5-MeO-MALT vs 5-MeO-DMT conversation seems to make the mistake of conflating certain qualities of the route of administration with qualities of the molecule. 5-MeO-MALT and 5-MeO-DMT have the same ROA possibilities, with the variable being whether you have freebase or a salt form. Additionally, it isn't as of one is for breakthroughs and one for more subtle work. That is entirely dependent on dose and ROA.

Heptane

Not so. Cocaine by and large is extracted from coca leaves.

You could look into how mambe and ambil are traditionally used

https://erowid.org/chemicals/5meo_dmt/5meo_dmt_article2_vape_pens.shtml

@r0ckyreed@r0ckyreed are you getting the mushrooms fresh? If so they need to be eaten immediately after picking or completely dried in a dehydrator and then stored in the manner I described. Fresh mushrooms require preservation for storage, otherwise they will spoil and turn to goo.