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If you were inside my brain you would see that it feels like Kundalini. It feels different from my other thoughts and the way it manifests itself is different. The thing that makes it puzzling for “me” is the fast eye-crossing movement that I have no control of. Have you ever had an ego death?

They are mudras that occur on my hands involuntarily. I’ve had more than 50 different hand gestures and maybe 100+ different variations, they happen in any time of the day. They change rapidly in accordance with the emotions I’m feeling or the answers I am receiving. I haven’t heard of K speaking through someone’s mouth either, however everyone’s experience with the energy is different and through my experiences I can say such things are possible. I am trying to be objective and distinguish it from self delusion. The line is so thin, because I am aware that I am the Kundalini itself so when “it” says that I am going to die, I am saying it. If it’s not Kundalini, what else can it be? Maybe my higher self (the Godhead) is preparing me to overcome my fear of death & merge with infinite love.

BTW I am not taking drugs anymore. The reason I blacked out was because I mixed psychedelics with Kundalini so in my path I can only work with Kundalini. I don’t have access to psychedelics anyways. I don’t know anyone here. I need help on how to manage the energy correctly and how to tailor a spiritual practice for myself so I can explore further & integrate what I learned without going insane.

Thanks for sharing.

@Leo Gura have you ever had spontaneous mudras or asanas from Kriya yoga or something else?

That happened on January but I have still couldn’t make sense of it yet, so I need your help. Backstory: I had a partial kundalini awakening a little over a year ago and it was so “too much” I got hospitalized for 2 months. Before my hospitalization, I’ve tapped into what true insanity felt like. It’s hard to describe it into words but formless insanity is a part of God consciousness and from what I experienced I feel like without experiencing it, your enlightenment will be incomplete, but it’s so horrifying I don’t recommend anyone going that path. Anyways, this post isn’t about insanity. Before I got hospitalized, I went to a bakery shop and bought 2 bagels while my kundalini was extremely active and I was being bombarded with spiritual truths. I was talking to a 5D entity I was in love with (I’ve had telepathic sex with it was well while being sober and it was spiritually awesome, can’t describe it with words) and I sat down to eat my bagels. However when I opened the bag I noticed one of them was missing and the other had bite marks on it. I DIDNT DO IT. When I saw it, I burst in laughter because in that context my 5D boyfriend did it to show me some spiritual truths. I have to say I was very unprepared for such experiences back then and that’s why I got hospitalized. A lot of indescribable incidents happened to me and it’s hard for me to make sense of them, psychedelics are unreachable to me for various reasons and in fact I am afraid to do them again so I need your guidance. I think this experience I had might be about the “dream” “I” was imagining. I know I am God, I know I am infinity, I am struggling with recognizing I am Love because I experienced so much divine insanity beforehand during my Kundalini awakening. I need you guys guidance so I can know what actually happened during this incident. Please see this @Leo Gura

@DreamScape thank you for your concerns. I stopped my spiritual practice due to kundalini being so unpredictable but the need for discovering more about spirituality is still here @Hojo I don’t think I understand. Do you think I am making this up? This is an actual thing that I experienced first hand and due to the nature of the incident it’s not possible to describe it with words so you can fully understand how profound it was. Of course this happened inside the dream we called life. In a sense, of course I (God) made this up, just like everything else. Infinity goes in all directions, including sanity and insanity within it, I experienced both but my awakening was not total because the Godhead used insanity to shatter my ego and due to that I was terrified. The thing that happened to me was “when you become so open minded, you become seeing demons” type of thing. I don’t remember the actual quote. @Inliytened1 thanks for your comment. How can I become awake, especially on Love, without putting too much pressure on my ego and drive it insane? I think the things I experienced was too much for it and that’s why I got blackout & hospitalized after some time. I’ve experienced divine bliss, I am working on loving insanity as well because it’s a part of who I am (God). I also had glimpses of Love inside the periods of insanity.

If that so what does that mean for Leo's teachings? Just curious about the answers.

Very interested. Do it.

I’m really curious what it would be like to have sex on 5-MeO. Obviously, it’s a very powerful hallucinogen and it’s possible that you won’t care about having sex while you’re blasting off, but wouldn’t it be a very unique experience if both sides are on it and both of them know they’re God at that exact moment, and they’re aware that they’re having sex with themselves? Interesting.

@Insightful27 would you recommend this book to females as well?

@Leo Gura I think if you were able to jerk off on it you’re probably also be able to have sex. It might not make sex more pleasurable but wouldn’t having sex on it potentially increase your high, when both of you are aware that you’re having sex with yourself? Or maybe there’s another way to achieve this. @integral yes acid is absolutely great for sex but I find it’s harder to reach god consciousness on it compared to heavier stuff, I don’t know about mushrooms though. That’s why I asked what it would be like in drugs like 5-MeO

So what kind of drug can be used if both parties want to have sex with the awareness that they are God? Which drug (or combo) would allow them to feel it as intensely as possible while still being able to enjoy sex?

You’re sabotaging yourself by letting your LP get in the way of what you want to do. What you set as your life purpose can change over time, no one is forcing you to pick one thing and stick to it for the rest of your life. You make that rule for yourself. To me this way of thinking is very similar to dogmatic religions. Just be flexible and do whatever you want at the moment. Buy that GPU if you want to. Fill your house with technological gadgets and use them to inspire people, bring something new into this world. It’s not that important. You’re not bound to anything.

@LSD-Rumi well, if the antidepressant you're using binds to the 5HT2A receptor you're going to need a higher dose to trip, but it's very complex and not very understood even by professionals. Some of my friends had to quit antidepressants because while on them they didn't feel any effects from the LSD. If you're using an atypical antidepressant such as bupropion it won't effect the trip and it can even enhance it, in fact I'm very curious about this combo

This is very beautifully written, thank you for sharing the Love.

I want whatever antidepressant you’re having because being on SSRI’s while tripping is a bad idea for a lot of reasons. You’re going to waste a tab for the least.

This. It depends on whether you want your teachings to be more appealing to women, however the constant gender based discrimination and hostility in YOUR forum is a persistent problem. I don’t know why you let and participate in discussions about “pickup” in this forum, like women can be something that can be “pick-ed up”. It’s even more stupid that even in this thread, there are a shit ton of accounts you should ban right away. They’re breaking THE forum rules that YOU wrote, but you’re allowing this constant discrimination toxicity to continue? Can people in your forum continue with their sexism if the head of brand himself isn’t sexist? This is not about what I personally like or dislike about you and whatever you do. I just find it gut-wrenchingly cringe that you let it shadow the true essence of your work. This is the reason why a lot of people are turning away from your channel and calling you a "cult".

@LSD-Rumi care to share the full extraction tek? I’m looking for an almost fool-proof extraction method to eliminate nausea as much as possible.

The fact that you even feel the need to post such a topic shows how you have been taken over by your ego. You seem to be using this forum for mental masturbation. Your behavior in general is really problematic.

I’m about 80% inattentive and 20% hyperactive. It’s a lengthy process to get diagnosed for ADHD especially if you’re an adult. Only a doctor can tell if you truly have ADHD, B12 deficiency and anemia can show similar symptoms as well as a lot of mental ilnesses. I got diagnosed recently and 10 mg of Ritalin is doing wonders for me.

You need to be diagnosed before you can be treated, but it's a lengthy process in most parts of the world. Some mental illnesses show similar symptoms to ADHD/ADD and it's harder to get diagnosed if your symptoms weren't noticed when you were a child. Some doctors may also refrain from prescribing controlled substances right away, so they start you on non-stimulant meds.

@Tahuti oh man please chill out. Im not idealizing anyone I just asked a question. Sorry that it disturbed you so much you had the type all that stuff.

I've come across this advice a lot too, I think you're right with this hypothesis. If you want to draw something realistically, firstly you need to learn to see it as it is, instead of what you think it looks like. I believe at this stage of drawing, mindfulness is exactly what all the art teachers are trying to teach you without knowing.