Inception
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Post #108 Some day before the 16/12 was sitting meditating and time sped up. Some day before the 16/12 I was in deep flow/wu wei, where it felt like time was speeding up. Yesterday (16/12) I had a very profound and deep and intimate DNOFTS, where I realized that there’s nothing I can do to let go of control. I was comforted by… I felt deep compassion towards myself. Yet I went back to being selfish as though nothing had happened. %control. Today (17/12) I had another deep DNOFTS, where I was resisting until I let go and felt a powerful sense of love. This lowered my selfishness. I was left debilitated by the damage of resisting. %Control. Also today (17/12) I had somewhat of an enlightenment experience, where I realized I was just a thought and there actually isn’t anyone in the entire universe. Shook me to my core. Also w… and emotions and
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Post #107 I might have experienced more and deeper emotions the past months than I have in the rest of my life.
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Post #106 I’m done with femininity. Also I’m done trying to act motivated. I’m really just trying to get by.
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Post #105 4+ years of spiritual work turned me into an unemployed bum.
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Post #104 I don’t want to be around others and i wouldn’t want others to be around me. So i isolate. It’s for everybody’s best.
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Post #103 For better or worse things didn’t turned out as i expected. Now I just want to live a quiet life. I want to make money so that I can stare out a window.
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Post #102 Forget that post ^ We still rolling.
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Post #101 I don’t care anymore. From now on I’m just trying to get by. That simple. Forget all my previous posts.
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Post #100 I don’t do fun anymore.
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Post #99 Seriousness, respect, reverence.
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Post #98 I need to slow down. In a sense I’m too efficient at the moment.
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Post #97 There’s no turning back, there never is. I’m going to keep moving.
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Post #96 Meaning well isn’t enough. Reality will hit just the same. Intelligence is needed.
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Post #95 I DON’T WANT TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH ANYTHING LIGHT-HEARTED.
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Post #94 %Complacency, beating around the bush, vagueness, indirectness, indecisiveness, vanity, distractions. Suit up we got work to do.
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Post #93 The mind is an excuse generator.
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Post #92 If you aren’t raising consiousness you’re doing side quests. With some exceptions.
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Post #91 I did all this to myself. I denied myself love.
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Post #90 I just don’t get it.
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Post #89 If I knew what was in store for me I think I’d just done it.
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Post #88: Sanity I don’t consider myself sane in the usual way anymore. Don’t worry I’m not a danger. The funny thing is the more you study your own mind the less sane you’re made out to be. Of course that’s because what will be revealed to you is that everything’s an illusion.
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Post #87: Doubling down I’m doubling down.
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Post #86 Doesn’t feel like my life anymore.
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Post #84 Woke up feeling like shit. Unemployed. The quest goes on nevertheless. I’m learning a lot about myself these days.
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Post #82: Maze Nothing changes I’m still in the maze. Not to self: Whatever happens remind yourself that you’re still a fake rat within the fake maze (unless you escape of course). I eat, sleep and live in the maze. I’m the only rat. Just a lonely little rat. I respect the maze. I try not to underestimate it.
