Inception

I’ve lost faith.

Post #1 This is the begging of a new phase and thread. For now no replies please.

From personal experience my dream was about to collapse as I was about to awaken. Leo’s awake but his reality is still intact, how come?

CORRUPT COWARD!!!

Tomorrow.

I was the luckiest guy in the universe to have you. I was the dumbest guy in the universe for leaving you. Not a day goes by without me regretting it.

Coward, I’ll never forgive myself. The regret is eating me from the inside out. As it should.

All it took was one mistake. How this could happen to such an intelligent person i don’t know.

If you saw my life back then you’d be envious. If you saw it now you’d vomit. If you saw both and the fall you’d cry.

I got your message.

HOW COULD I’VE BEEN SO STUPID. I DON’T GET IT. I HAD EVERYTHING. THIS IS NOT A MISTAKE YOU GET OVER.

I’ve been stupid, ungrateful and lazy. I used to be the most intelligent person I knew.

Ever since I left my love, things went downhill. Now I’m at an all time low. Not even those cute lows, where we say things can only go uphill from there. Worst year of my life. Going to the psych ward ruined my life.

The question still remains, if you’re awake how come your floor isn’t melting like you talked about in that video.

From “What Is Reality - A Radical Explanation”: ”If you were to fully accept what I’m saying here, and not just to accept it but to become fully conscious of it, you would have a mental collapse. Some people will call this a psychotic collapse.”

How tragic this all is.

I’ll make a video explaining it all. And giving away all my esoteric knowledge.

Anxiety and paranoid schizophrenia. I went to the psych ward and it ruined my life. Mental health issues was just an excuse. I was about to awaken from the real psychosis of egoic life. I pretended it was an issue. What we call mental health issues was the awakening.

Through love, although it never fully happened. I never did a psychedelic in my life nor any other drug besides alcohol.

When I was about to awaken I was about to go insane. My objects was “talking” to me, time moved unusually fast, things where shaking. It was clear that my reality was about to fall apart and the dream would end as i knew it. Yet, you’re fully awake and seem to be living a normal life. You’ve said it’s possible to continue life after you awaken, but it seems to me that awakening is the end.

It was perfect.

When you die don’t you automatically become the highest intelligence, so that you’re too intelligent to choose women. How would you land on that spot when you’re still less intelligent enough to imagine material comforts?

So that option never gets utilized?

In the universe * If you guys knew what I threw away.

All that work, all those videos, all that suffering for nothing