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@JoeVolcano I go to sleep with a rope around my neck, and the other end around my ankle, so in the middle of night my ankle will unconciously yank down and hopefully successfully strangle myself in my sleep - What other options are available ? I'm willing to die, and I don't think death is bad, but life can be boring and unbearable

Everyday, if I could swallow a pill with instant results, yes without question

@Leo Gura can this be translated into sexual assault, if one makes spontanious moves such as you mentioned, especially if she's intoxicated?

https://youtube.com/shorts/KLs5C5j5Tfo?feature=share In this YouTube short, Sadhguru says the Universe does not care about human life, and the Universe is not about love, it is mere intelligence doing whatever it wishes, and has nothing to do with myself nor anyone else ... I can take this that life is indeed meaningless, my parents forced me into this mess because it made them feel a sense of meaning, Currently watching Leo's video about What Is The Point Of Life? - An Advanced, Life-Changing Explanation, and Leo says this life is about allowing in more love, but this goes against Sadhguru?? Second, in Leo's video, he says life is not about sex or food, but Alan Watts says in a lecture that the reason neurotisism starts, is because people push aside sex and food to search for higher meanings in life such as spirituality, and forget that life is all about getting laid and eating, which spiritualists play off as not important ...

@RMQualtrough How can infinity be nothing? If I experience this finite form, and non-dual teachers suggest "this is it, nothing to seek" ... how can this finite experience be IT and there's zero infinity beyond my finite senses to experience ... non-dual teaching reeeeeeally get on my nerves, as they try to turn myself into a stone budha who does nothing, which is so boring,

@Nilsi Dude, I'd love to be your friend ! Edit: Do you identify as she/her?

Your Mum giving birth to you was the entire point to all of this,

Wow, I felt like a child visiting a toy store and marvelling at the possible delights ...

@RMQualtrough If you are pointing out some of my own suspicions, this makes my analysis of this happening both the more interesting and concerning (to the degree of free will, or if the environment is spontanious and I'm a symptom of that unfolding pretending to have a sense of freedom over my being,) ... Though I have zero answer how I beat my heart, digest my food, breath and neither can I stop these functions and live freely otherwise, since it's out of my freedom to control it (which brings in the dangers of Artificial Intelligence and do we really know what we can achieve from technology without hampering the natural world into turmoil/pollution/obesity) ... I don't know where my thoughts spring from, or how to handle my emotions, or why I like chocolate more than vanilla, or why I see 3 main colours specifically, or why cinamon smells the way it does, or why alcohol exists, Then again Leo also points out, all this was my own design, and I can get high enough to discover these answers for myself - And I have done to a degree, but I also realized I don't want that, because it'd be boring and game over?

@Leo Gura Excellent, thank-you !

@Razard86 Excellent Response, I continue to keep some of these sentences in mind, and faith in cosmic love and creativity expands, thank you,

If say the creator, or God, manifested/imagines this Universe with ease (all the atoms, hairs, bodily cells, galaxies and so) - Does that suggest God created the speed of light? Is God beyond light, especially the speed of light? I will say yes, because not all animals on Earth, I don't think, necessarily require light to survive, hence some alien species may not depend on light like us humans in particular do,

@A_v_E Appreciate your response - Well, he does say that to be loving, where people have no choice but to love you, is a higher truth than to expect only this Universe toprovide and share love ... Is love just a human emotion? Is love a hallucination, and God is beyond love? The same way God must be beyond the speed of light, because he manifests the speed of light ...

@Jon_Bundesen No, and your hobbies may evolve into engineering and inventing new musical rhythms later down the track, have fun and see where you can take all of this. Forget money, and learn from the bigger stars,

Adds tiny amount of prespective, but still, I have no idea what my sufferening will add into except death. Surely suffering isn't the only thing that motivates us through evolution, surely something else can do,

@Leo Gura Why is the ego so tricky - Sometimes hard to imagine that life is infinitely beautiful,

Contemplating about posts I've been reading online about being God and imagining the Universe. I watched the solipsism video, and recently binging plenty of Leo's videos. Previously depressed, suicidal even; but, the solipsist video was quite ... thinking up a word - calming. Thankfully I'm more interested in the nature of God as of recent months, instead of hiding away from the world in fear. The solipsisim video, I enjoyed and hope to receive further videos likewise. I can combine this information with personal psychadelic experiences (far out ones, practically closing the book in denial I am it,) and quantum mechanics, for example. Understandable, on board. And I'm hallucinating Leo ... to which I imagine your teachings to be the most awakened teacher thus far; and in many respects has gone the furthest, to which I appreciate. Although, I want to know, possible to awaken to this sublime realization I'm imagining reality without drugs for the time being? Or will I require the drugs to make the needed profound and radical leap? If I accept that I am God, will I die? As God here and now, can I imagine receiving a perfect job position, or will this take time and energy? In terms of imagining, like do I need to be determinitic about this invisible god-quality (imagination), or passive and one with the flow of God's will? Should I avoid awakening in case I were to die and ruin this life-movie I'm living (die)? How do I move past denial, and recognize I'm denying? Currently incorperating this god-realization into everyday life, and perhaps there's far more layers to the onion. Which may be fasinating rather than work.

Hi, possible to receive a personal phone call with Leo - Perhaps payment for the 1 hour and a half phone call? Appreciated, - Isaac,

@Reciprocality About drugs, existencialism, suicide, imagination, creativity ... letting go, trauma and if there is contrast or purpose, virginity/sex, internal frustration where I could break things, difficulty finding love amongst social circles, daily chaos life proposes, am I a puppet without free will ...

@Phil King Brilliant, honestly, but I want to avoid becoming aloof and an odd ball to which people are unable to put a finger on as to what's up with myself; while I'm self-aware that I speak to imaginary characters alone on drugs and come off these trips with enlightening cosmic conversations that are difficult to communicate with others,

@OBEler Literally watched a leaked 1 hour phone call between Leo and this Conner person, or I'm sure he's the same one, and I actually think he's kinda out there in a way that I admire and also envy, Literally it,

@KoryKat I dismiss your comment, I imagine a playful conversation about divine metaphysics is inspiring exhilerating and liberating, when two intellectuals meet to discuss such topics - That alone can be worth more than money or any selfish aim one imagines to be worth achieving, within an overall meaningless spontaniously random and perhaps disposable Universe,

@Vivaldo Of course it is possible, haha,

Reading older posts - Ekhart Tolle was suicidal and then he reached enlightenment, which Leo says is rare? Side notes for ethical debate and reasoning ... I think suicide should be made legal, except you must be on a waiting list for six months and if you're still feeling like life is a trap you can opt out. And I do not believe in a terrible afterlife full of human regrets, because the body turns to dust which is exactly what we want, Now I get intense frustration, and people then say there is no 'I' or 'person' who is frustrated, but then they say oh you're such and such, stop being selfish ... but wait, there's not a 'person' or 'I' to stop being selfish? I genuinely do not think one can be any less selfish and become selfless, and anyone teaching so called selflessness, I can only continue to disagree; because surely the singularity will be selfish, as it cannot be selfless to an apparent 'other' if it were a singularity? Further on, a singularity I imagine goes inwards, not outward. Moreover, isn't the the apparent 'observer' of say intense spontaneous thoughts and emotions with all the rest of the complex processes occurring to the supposed frustrated experiencer ‘I’, also a dualistic teaching? To explain myself more clearly here, to say there is an invisible observer separate from the complex frustrating experiences which occur and make up the supposed 'I'? Isn't that a dualistic teaching? Third - Third, Leo said in a previous post that I was immature and perhaps I'm best to stay away from DMT, but I was joking around and the comment was more so a light hearted parody of lets say Ram Dass who rubbed his Ghuru's feet. Hence I got frustrated and I took it personally, because I hate people telling me things that aren't accurate and its likely a false judgement. So the question is, does one continue to take life personally, I mean lets say you're trying to be a certain way like working hard, but your partner in the household says you're lazy when you leave your socks on the floor each time you come in after work, and your partner doesn't understand how hard you have worked in the past, no one does, and yet there's not a whole lot to show up for the hard work you're commited to in the past, and your partner thinks you're lazy in the house hold? Side note - perhaps the comment Leo made was for my own safety to avoid drugs and not be immature about spiritual development, understandable, however I was still personal hence my question about things being personal in relationships that hurt, irritate and frustrate myself, Fourth - I do not think enlightnement exists, as does U.G. Krishnamurti, and two different people who preach about it probably have two very different ideas or experiences about "enlightenment". Fifth - Love DOES NOT exist, it does as a selfish human experience. For example, I like the way you make me feel, but I dislike and hate the way the other people make me feel. I'm selfish and I want you to continue to make me feel good, and so when I receive extra affectionate and non sexual intimacy do I feel really good and call that love. But those people who disregard me as deserving special attention, I hate those people. Okay, and Leo, I've been liking and appreciating your videos on YouTube recently, although I'm going to stand on the otherside of the fence and debate - Now, people will revert to saying I need medication or to be locked up in a looney asylum when I make points that I feel are valid, like these ones, and it would get on my nerves and I could escape these people either - I'm willing to perhaps alter my current ideas if yours resonates, although perhaps you won't alter your own to see these few points of views I've made to begin with, which I also question, so at the moment there's a fence and I'm happy to question selfishness and if enlightenment is an illusion, and if love is a fake transaction for survival, and suicidal should be legalized as well as drugs, Thank you in transaction for anyone's response or reading,