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@Preety_India Look, I've literally only had YouTube videos to cope with grievences on many levels - I am literally a workaholic, I don't play video games, yes I did smoke weed daily to cope with father's passing, or the divorce which made my father suicidal, or to cope with full time study as well as working part time at two seperate stores, and to cope with my mother who was more interested in selling Dad's belongings after he'd passed ... and my best friend all while this occured was in a mental ward because he got into the heavier drugs to which I SAID NO, I SAID NO, alone multiple times, I said no not just to cocaine but numerous other substances he'd experiment with, and he never payed me back and he'd steal money, I quit weed and cigerettes alone, eventually, and for some reason women wanted my best friend who met multiple women and I was the virgin going through challenging times and working extrememly hard, and he'd call me names like I'm a loser, and no girl is ever going to like me, my dad accused me of being gay, women accused me of being gay, I'm frustrated bro, extremely frustrated inside, I WORK BRO

@FlyingLotus Thanks, I didn't mean literally chads and staceys, I'm just unsure with sex in music or t.v. and literally everyone around me in relationships and I'm a workaholic book addict studying freak who's infatuated with my hobbies, and literally 0 women, none, nuddah, so I was seeking advice from men who might suggest sex is overated and my feelings are valid but nothing to stress over, I've been somewhat suicidal in the past, but Actualized.Org has added the cherry to all my research that such depressive episodes are quite miniscule I think to a grander design, I don't know, unless I were to kill myself haha but like Alan Watts asks, Is life worth the candle? If so, then proceed the gamble,

@Preety_India You can clearly see a lack of boundaries from a single post? Well shows I'm wasting my time expecting any advice from yourself - I literally work all throughout the day, I'd work on a business with my father, I worked multiple full time jobs and studied full time, 0 women and now its collapsed and I'm just coming out of the hardest period of my life, still a virgin and readying myself to rebuild from the ashes having tackled numerous addictions and betrayals all on my own without anyone I could trust at all,

@Preety_India That's a harsh judgement, I'm actually doing the best I can each day, getting up at 4 am each morning, not touching any form of substance except coffee, having quite weed and cigerettes, I eat extrememly healthy and I repair my car to get around to libraries where I spend each day now striving to hand out resumes and start a business I am extrememly passionate about but also extrememly lonely, I don't necessarily want to slave my life away without ever connecting with someone, my only friend tried to tempt me into cocaine during my father's passing and parent divorce, but I tried my best to support him but his mind games and inability to reconnect with reality would really mess me up all the more, and I had no one to talk to and disliked my mother after she spend my savings on her divorce bills and hated my brothers who abandoned me during housing inspection which I took care of alone when I could have continue studies right near the end of the semester which I was doing well at but messed up and tripped over into failure towards the final weeks when forced to move out in less than 2 months instead of accomplishing full time study, No love, no one to talk to and my bitter horny self while literally my parents after their divorce immediately found new relationships right away and accused me of homosexuality which wasn't accurate,

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