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Knowing intellectually that from an absolute perspective there’s no evil doesn’t take away your preferences for things you deem as “good” and aversions to things you deem as “bad”. Evil and good are a duality like any other duality . Might as well say a chair doesn’t exist becuase a chair is a made up distinction. The fundamental distinction/duality is the one of self and other, and it gives rise to all other duality. As long as that “sense” is intact you will inevitably have dualities like good and evil. It’s not really possible as a human being to be completely neutral towards everything and discard that duality . It exists as long as you exist, or as long as you “sense/feel” that you exist

Maybe trying to love your shortcomings is a bit too far, it’s not necessary, but rather you could strive for a neutrality about them. If you are genuinely interested in your own nature, then when judgements or other flaws arise you can view them with this interest and be interested in their nature. You’re observing them from a neutral view instead of being caught up in them. Know that the way the human mind functions is that it has to judge, it has to have flaws: you’d have to literally break yourself down to be able to be free from those flaws. It might or might not be possible for you, that’s something one could strive for. But as long as you’re not there, there will be flaws and I suggest you meet them with this self interest as if you’re a scientist studying your own nature. Interested in finding your “authentic” or perhaps ideal self

Understood I maybe wanna leave a little mark and make myself look wise or something that might be a possibility other than that self expression is like an end in itself it’s almost all my mind does anyways, it’s an extension of my own mind activity, to write it out. It’s not annoying. I think I tend to say what I think I’m very straight forward

@Schizophonia said: “It's not a big deal. How does this evolve btw ? You can reply on your journal so as not to derail the thread. Because you are still "human" and "humans" are "curious". 👺 Or "polite", maybe you "put up" with "me" mainly out of "politeness" lol i don't know.” It’s a big deal for me becuase i feel empty all the time, like i have nothing, barely even my own thoughts. “How does this evolve” I don’t really know what you mean. But basically I have experienced too much self dissolution which is the reason for my emptiness and barely feeling like I exist. Im still human somehow but I have a very weak sense of self. When I write it’s to express myself but I struggle with having access to my own brain. Its not out of politeness .

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Understandable . My stupid f*cking mind is so empty as usual I don’t even know what to reply. It’s like I’m not human, I’m not 🤷🏻‍♀️why do I even try to write something from the beginning

It might be normal but it doesn’t reflect the most secure attachment style But there’s degrees of it ofc, and depending on which stage of the relationship it is, more normal in the beginning phases

I just took 3 shots a little while ago and I'm feeling a little drunk. It's hard to describe how it feels but it's like I feel more "automatic", like there is less thoughts involved in my action, like I'm less self conscious. I'm not fully sure. But yea the question is in the title.

It happens too often

If you manage to get through this it would be really cool

People can’t have relationships without fighting because the way the human ego is structured. It has to judge, it has to be defensive, it has to dislike, it has to be in control, it’s all to ensure its own survival and proliferation. It’s built into us. You’d have to literally deconstruct yourself to rid to your self of these tendencies

When something is emotionally triggering or loaded for us it warps our perception of the other person so you think you’re just listening to them but it’s being filtered through your own world view you’re attached to so you hear a biased version of it.

Wow that you’re doing that. That must require crazy discipline. I’ve tried 3 hour meditations and I find that hard enough. Maybe if you face frustration and agitation from the boredom that will inevitably come, just know that it’s temporary and it’s like a wave that will pass, so if you pass that wave each time it’s like you go deeper and deeper. Your brain/mind getting more accustomed to the lack of stimuli, forcing it to rewire. I bet you’ll release a lot of emotion, anything that has been hidden has the opportunity to come up and be cleared out of your system. I bet it’s gonna do amazing things. You go man

I remember when I took 5 Meo it was slightly uncomfortable. So maybe that’s the self resisting

Every morning I wake up the self reappears. Seems to me like something the brain is doing like the brain is constantly imagining itself, is aware of itself, it’s a structure of the brain. That’s kinda what I experience.

It sounds like it would feel expansive. I’ve experienced when you shed layers to the ego it feels like a release and expansion. So what you describe would be a full expansion

Very complex answer I like slaying zombies on minecraft

Ok😹

@Schizophonia What type of games are your favorite explained in a simple manner?

Describe it

I don’t agree that the human created the self rather the self was just created. But yes we are involved in maintaining the self so contributing to its structure or it’s deconstruction

Ok understood

Why did you tag me?

hahah omg didn’t think of it

Thanks