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I’ve changed my meal frequency lately. So nowadays I eat two small meals a day, and one small snack Monday to Thursday. Then Friday to Sunday I only eat two small meals plus if I want, dessert. So I make space for the eventual dessert. I have been practicing portion control, meaning I’ve reduced my portion sizes to small. I also follow , when the food fits it, the plate model. It’s good for reducing the calories because you’re filling half the plate with non starchy vegetables. For example if I’m eating chicken, rice and veggies. Only a fourth of my plate is chicken, a fourth is rice, and half is veggies. I like the feeling when I eat less. I also like to feel light. I might incorporate fasting sometimes too. That’s something I could play around with too. I don’t know how much I believe in true breatharianism. Maybe one would need extreme self/body mastery/awareness to be able to sustain it

Because it’s frustrating being separate

Celebrating gods infinite lifetime

I’d like to receive infinity for my birthday

If you are healthy. If you are in the prime years of your health. If you have strong healthy digestive system. If you’re not sensitive, then you shouldn’t really feel a difference when you eat a little junk sometimes. If you do, if you feel it makes you slower, sluggish, affects your ability to think, bloated etc, it probably means you are sensitive, don’t have the best digestion, maybe have some chronic illness, aren’t in the prime years of your health etc. So don’t blame the food…. It’s your body that isn’t in the best shape: Because a healthy strong body should be able to handle some crap. I notice this in myself. I can eat a little crap sometimes and I feel no difference in my state. Because I’m top healthy so my body can handle it. Dont come on here thinking you got some exceptional interoceptive awareness making you notice the most subtle changes. Maybe it’s possible, but most people don’t have that so…

It takes a lot to overcome one’s problems. For example I had social anxiety and it took me like 4 years of consistent work and emotional labour to finally overcome it. The weird thing is that for me that required a certain degree of self dissolution. Because think about it, if you’re going to change something deep about yourself, something has to die off, and for me it looked like layers to my ego. So it’s a bit of a spiritual process too. If I were to break it down to its core, I’d say it’s important to observe yourself closely, so you can understand the mechanisms behind why you do like you do, the thought processes. Neutral observation also becomes like a practice of detachment. Observing literally means you’re stepping back and simply observing instead of being engaged and feeding. Understanding can help. It’s like a good foundation. Some problems literally survive out of UNawareness of them. Also exposing yourself to your fears, challenging yourself , with things you find difficult, gradually, so you’re not too overwhelmed and it backlashes instead. Also medication can help in some cases if you don’t already take them. In my case they didn’t help me, but I still believe in giving it a shot.

That’s a lot of time

I need to start masturbating so I can be this smart. That’s what I got from your reply

Damn that’s rough. Im also going through stuff, but very different Do you think they are genetic?

You don’t have to answer but what illness is it?

He tends to write in uncommon, complicated way with uncommon terms. Your English seems pretty good, English is also not my first but I’m still fluent in it. I agree. When I write I always try to write in a simple way that people can understand. And to make it shorter and more digestible is preferable too

Hahaahahah I swear. Do people read such long posts ever. (No offense, I’m impressed by such writing)

I haven’t read yet but damn did you write all that from your mind ?

What if you feel no emotions

You’re strong for going through this.

Agreed. Cool that meditation is working for you. Great that you managed to have cool experiences during the retreat

Hahah thanks ❤️

I couldn’t imagine not resonating

I wanna bring it back too. It’s because of issues I deal with too, emptiness, disconnect within. It’s not fun

She should have said “now worship me” 😂😅

yea

I had a period in my teenage years where I had a TONNNN of sleep paralysis episodes, and feeling energy rise through my back and strong vibrations. It also happened once I talked to someone and opened up to someone and felt energy rising up through my face and releasing. I’ve also felt energies while doing positive visualizations of myself. I think it all connects to kundalini. It’s a process of dissolving the ego, but it’s very slow. It’s releasing tension in the system, blockages too, all that connects to the dense ego, the structure of the psyche. It feels like release of tension, can feel really good. I did meditation but didn’t find correlation to it, but if you do then it’s worth continuing. Maybe I just didn’t do enough of it. I’m lowkey impressed by people who do these retreats, like must be so boring to meditate for so long

If you dissolve the self enough the world almost stops being 3D but nobody is ready for that conversation

i imagine something like this: (I really like the music in this video too) Not the same vibe lol

It sounds majestic.