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@Salvijus the post nut clarity hits

That’s ok

@Schizophonia So which one is true? (You don’t have to say if you don’t want it’s not important I was just curious) Good you don’t feel need to think like that anymore.

Ok…..🧐 You do what you want I just don’t get why someone would say they are virgin if they’re not (I don’t know which one is true now but it doesn’t matter). I’m not really exposing you btw because you’ve written before on forum here openly you had sex

Why you said before you had sex you liaa😂😂😂

Yea, I think it could be both. Maybe feeling like you have to maintain your self image in the eyes of others can be a contributing factor

Yesterday I did intense cardio on the treadmill. Highest incline, high speed. I tried to push myself hard. Not gonna lie, I notice a tendency in myself that I seem to have this “limit” that I reach, and then I stop. I wanna push past that limit sometime. I will try again soon. It got me thinking of suffering. How what separates the average from the pro is the ability and willingness to suffer. The king of this topic is the one and only David Goggins. I don’t aim to be like him because he basically has tortured himself (he once ran so hard he got rhabdo and kidney failure, pissing blood, broken feet etc) but he’s still really cool and I think he is the baddest m*cker. There’s even something spiritual about this. Like I hear about ultrarunners hallucinating while running, seeing all kinds of stuff. It’s almost psychedelic. Maybe there’s something to it. Like David Goggins said here he “unlocked another part of the human mind”: https://youtube.com/shorts/g8OdN9e8ttk?si=6kPeuMF9ZIDmzqga Stay hard!

Something I have reflected upon is that I think for the average person non duality is actually part of their daily life but it’s just not noticed. I don’t include myself in this group of “average people” because I’m different so I don’t share this experience, which I won’t go into here but anyways…. I talked a little on reddit about this and someone said : ”Your sense of self does go away, but unless you’re LOOKING for it, you probably wouldn’t notice it. It’s very hard to notice the ABSENCE of something”. Basically I believe that the self is not constantly in the awareness of the average person, but it reappears often enough and quickly enough for it to seem like it always exists. And as the person said, it’s hard to notice ABSENCE. Those moments of absence are for example FLOW STATES that a person can get into, for example if they’re playing a video game. It could be by being IMMERSED in something, like watching a movie, or listening deeply to a lecture in school. Basically states where we can get so immersed in something outside ourselves, that we forget ourselves, we are no longer aware of ourselves. But it’s like we don’t NOTICE this. We don’t notice how it’s a non dual state. Or is it? Am I wrong here? What you think? Do you think non duality is a part of life for the average person but it’s not noticed/recognized?

@Breakingthewall I needa quit talking and start realizing..

Oh to reach that place…

Yea people say different things..

Hard to not judge pain

Who knows what babies know…

I see

Women tend to have more options when it comes to sex that’s pretty much it

It’s ok

It’s in my lone wolf independent nature to not care what people think. Maybe what you say fits more younger people, I’m imagining stereotypically like college culture, because for example I work at kindergarten with middle aged women and they seem pretty genuine to me, with balanced egos . Maybe it lessens with age and the maturity that comes with that

Eyyy who let you just write out my problems like that😂 I don’t have derealization/depersonalization btw although it’s similar to it. The rest was right

Haha ok good.

I don’t know what that means

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What is this power you’re talking about? I’d say I’m an average looking young woman but I don’t experience this power. Oh what I power I have to be able to access sex easily, life is so good! It just cured all my misery!

I just think regards to solipsism. Why the hell would reality limit itself to only one perspective (yours)?

Spirituality in general is confusing. Have you noticed every person that writes has like their own unique interpretation of it? It’s like we all speak our own language. I notice this both here and in spirituality forums on Reddit. I’m okay with not knowing, with being confused though , so it’s not a problem. But damn there’s so many ways to speak of the same concepts, for example the idea of consciousness, let’s not even start with that

From my own experience I feel like the self is an imagination of the brain. The brain is imagining a self. At least how it’s for me. Like constant self imagination. Changes in brain changes self structure I’ve experienced that, so it’s like the self is the brain. Brain imagining itself. Consciousness is awareness of self, property of the self, it’s dependent on an other too. I have particularly strong self imagination tendency . Been like it all my life. Like breaking the wall said, psychotic duality, I swear it’s like that. It feels I’m gonna explode at times like I wanna rip my brain out Like I’m really struggling to focus right now my brain feels scrambled