Sugarcoat

Yea it’s like I have stereo type in my head how some US women are but I haven’t encountered it in Sweden Also I don’t meet a lot of people so it’s hard to make conclusions

Omg have we became a joke on the forum @Schizophonia

Do you think the brain is involved in enlightenment?

You have developed a strong mindset then. Good for you

Good for you … Even if life for most isn’t like religious hell people go through a kind of hell still. Chronic diseases etc

Didn’t you just describe your life as constant suffering? Sounds like hell to me

If consciousness/awareness is reality then what do we call the personal consciousness/awareness that the person possesses and is aware of itself (subject) and the world (object)?

What am I according to that radar? You can probably smell my self from a mile away

I don’t meet many people but for example in high school (I’m still young so it’s not too long ago) I went to a high school which required high grades to enter, and I saw many women I’d consider pretty mature, not non emotional like me but somewhat balanced. Maybe it’s a difference depending on education level you go to Im going to uni soon so there I’ll see more women…. I’ll see what I see

lol what kind of women are you guys interacting with. Where are these ultra emotional ungrounded women you talk about. The women I’ve met in my life seem pretty balanced. I’m a woman and I’m stoic asf. Detached from most things, even human relations. I know I’m rare but I feel this ultra emotional woman y’all talk about is like a minority who is easy for you to attract or something because you come off as her polar opposite when you play your little “game” of subtle manipulation trying to come off as masculine. Just admit you attract unstable women LOL

I’ll have to explore those substances more to grapple this

Would you say the negative experience is because there’s still some ego left that is reacting and resisting its dissolution or is “the void” just scary in itself even if the self is gone in that moment(or as you’d call it “open”)

Maybe he has spiritual wisdom and has had plenty of temporary glimpses but maybe isn’t permanently enlightened. With Krishnamurti he seems to have good understanding of the mind and fear. What state of consciousness he’s in on a daily basis I don’t know

Suffering is so core to the me

I’d do psychedelics. No effort required just trying to not get caught

I watched a little of nahms (sorry if I spelled wrong) YouTube videos in the past and I thought it was pretty profound (I don’t remember what I say because it was years ago )

I’ve done that too. It’s a different kind of self centeredness than a narcissist. The average young woman in the west is looks obsessed , but not a narcissist because of that

It shows you have self awareness that you have realized this. I doubt the average narcissist in classical medical definition has that self awareness, maybe maybe not I’ve always been obsessed with myself too. Trying to become best version of myself. It has had both upsides and downsides but mostly downsides because my life has been filled with mental suffering. it’s not the smartest way to go about life in my opinion also the classical narcissist affects others negatively through manipulation, needing attention, lying, controlling etc. If you don’t hurt others in the process then you’re not it

In my past I used to put self image first. But it was not in the classical narcissist way of depending on others, controlling others, being manipulative, needing attention, at the expense of others. It was just a strong desire to have a nice self image, because it’s just so nice in itself It was not about deception. I tried to find my authentic self, which was synonymous to me with a confident and charming self. Because without the fear I had the ability to be that

Yea psyche has many layers that’s my experience too

Genghis khan be like

Yes I can’t imagine what ultra runners go through I plan on starting run again after vacation. I wanna go hard at it

I should make a thread: don’t confuse normal duality with ultra narcissistic duality (me)

Btw I’m the greatest narcissist of all, it’s just not obvious I’ve spent countless hours compulsively fantasizing about this ideal cool hot self that impresses people LOL (I don’t do that anymore but it still shows my narcissism)😂😂😂

Maybe me replying is a sign I haven’t…… 👀I’ll try again