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That’s great you’ve done that! The psyche has a lot of depth to understand and explore for sure I will def explore this when I get the chance. I have transcended 90% of my mental emotional suffering but not physical pain so that is def an area with development potential. I found this video on YouTube about it, this man had trigeminal neuralgia also called the suicide disease. He transcended the pain with mindfulness. Only sharing in case you would be interested:

That’s so cool. Funny that you mentioned me too I have always been fascinated by these different states of sleep For example I have had at least 50 episodes of sleep paralysis in my life and I’m still young I reached a point where I was no longer scared of them at all, so instead I explore them, and they sometimes turn into astral projection I have been visited by a presence during sleep paralysis who told me a deep spiritual truth, I’m convinced it wasn’t a hallucination I have felt massive vibrations and energies during it i don’t have a lot of experience of hypnagogic states but I’ve had some cool stuff happen like a clairvoyance event It all just fascinates me. I think there’s potential for exploration

Yea for most it’s difficult. Most don’t really know it’s a structure they just think they have regular thoughts and that’s all that there is to the mind, and their self feels physical (some might be aware of the mental aspect to it). In some cases when you feel unwell inside it could be sign of high self/internal awareness. It’s like how you speak about how there is so much fear in human psyche, not all people are aware of that, it might be masked by anger and judgement but at the root is fear . Some people need something loud inside, like a strong emotion to pay attention, meanwhile if you’re more self aware something more subtle is enough Btw I’m not judging anyone. Just an observation/intepretation

Many, if not most, people have minds that functions in such a way where a significant portion of their attention rests on the external. Attention somewhere means less attention elsewhere. The lack of attention inwards on the psyche contributes to the psyche remaining in tact and not dissolving. Unawareness, in-attention on the self contributes to keeping it alive. Because the internal is not being properly seen for what it is, is not able to be properly investigated, is not being properly faced, is not being penetrated by attention. It’s like attention/awareness when shining on the mind/self drives the dissolution of it. From my experience

Lmao ultra mega mystics

It seems to me with age people get more self secure, maybe the ego solidifies and also because the clock is ticking one is more likely to let go of petty reasons that would inhibit one entering a relationship

Yes ofc those exist. But I bet you that they, at least in the beginning stages, encountered a lot of frustration and resistance and restlessness within them. But the difference being that they persevered through that and didn’t let it stop them and eventually overcame it, meanwhile the average person would give in. Then maybe there are exceptions, genetic freaks who can instantly sit still without the frustration. That’s something to study

In non duality nothing matters. Like the radical non dualist Jim Newman said : Killing babies doesn’t matter. That’s non duality. And maybe it’s possibly to reach a state where you don’t care about your own or anyone else’s suffering. So it has nothing to do with truth, it’s all truth But you aren’t in that self less state where nothing matters to you. So living by that is you not being true to yourself. Because you do in fact feel like you exist and you do care about your own suffering. You could be selfish and only care about your own suffering, but that is a kind of double standard. The golden rule says treat others as you want to be treated. On the human level that is the ideal. We should strive to reduce unnecessary suffering, it’s one of the highest things to do. Because as long as your mind is within the human level you have to operate from that place and find a path that aligns with you. Otherwise you’re fooling yourself by trying to live by some non dual truth.

I have thought about this too, why do I find it frustrating to sit still for long? One thing that comes to mind is that I have impulses. And to resist those impulses seem to cause a certain friction in me that can feel frustrating. Like I’m going against my natural flow, meanwhile following the impulse is me going with my flow. It can be the most simple impulse, like the impulse to look around me at the enviroment rather than having my eyes closed. It can be the impulse to say something to someone, the impulse to move my fingers around. I think it’s very biological, those impulses seem biological . So us humans are made to be active. We have active minds that are made to get input from external enviroment, to get no input except your own breath and the black under your eyes feels off.

Everyone cannot be ultra mega super mystic…

The neti neti method

Sorry. I made a general joke i didn’t expect him to joke about me in particular

I have had fanatic will to break through myself but with the goal of finding a sort of authentic better version of myself. It works to break through significantly but it doesn’t lead to complete breakthrough Might not be easy to understand as I find it’s a rather unique experience

Infinite load.

I went through a lot of untangling too. There’s a lot of layer so it takes time

You have the right to your preferences I might take it back idk

And that means?

That’s so petty lol

I have had no problem finding guys it’s just I’ve got my issues preventing me to date at all In the past I used to refuse to date until I became the best version of myself, like I couldn’t enjoy receiving love and feeling attraction the way I was, like my sexuality was on hold until then

I read it again and it sounds like I’m saying two people LOLLL

I know I just said something silly Mr nobody

Maybe you should start a YouTube channel and pretend to be a radical non dualist

no

Two ways to go about this is one you go through the hassle of finding someone or two you go through the hassle of transcending this need, which one depends on what you desire

Having kids is for normies