Sugarcoat

Maybe if you build a deeper connection with a woman beyond looks, where you two really click then that helps overcome the awkwardness if you get what I mean I don’t have to explain myself. That’s the first thought I had. It’s like how a woman might feel secure and relaxed with a man that she knows and bonds with rather than just superficial knowing after just having met. Another thought is if you found a virgin and you could learn together lol.

I just added some thoughts about porn that someone could gain value from damn….

When I was younger and watched porn occasionally I would watch it in a very focused way, focusing on different aspects of it and also imagining like an additional layer of imagination on top of it, adding like a “context” to it, to add intensity for me. I tried a few times to watch porn without doing this. Simply watching it with a neutral eye, not focusing on anything in particular and not adding my own fantasies to it. I noticed I wouldn’t get horny then, it just became neutral to me. Another thing I did is I had some sexual fantasies that felt taboo. So I would refrain myself from indulging in those fantasies , with the hope of neuroplasticity taking its course and me eventually not having those fantasies anymore after a long enough period of time had passed. i found though that even if a year + had passed, they didn’t go away. So one day i did the complete opposite. I just let my mind roam free, and I completely indulged in the porn and the fantasy tied to it, in full intensity. And what happened is that I kinda exhausted it, and I saw how this idea about neuroplasticity was just a belief I held, so that dissolved, and eventually I was free from those fantasies counter intuitively. just some thoughts

I can kinda relate. I dissolved myself so much there’s barely anything left of me . I miss my self

I feel I can know things on relative level which is based on direct awareness, direct experience, in particular something about myself

If you look inward enough you’ll start to dissolve all the layers of yourself. Be careful

I think you need to be god realized in some way to recognize it

I see, it’s just me who is self obsessed

Even on the relative level it’s worth questioning what one considers stupid. Even there we can’t say surely who is stupid

So it’s like you can realize yourself beyond the self while the self is still intact

What is god to you?

I said SENSE not that it’s true

Because you’re existing as the sense of a separate self? Even if you enlightened you’ll see nobody but confusion about others motives can still arise because you’re still operating at the human level. Like there could still be a “self” structure in place , I’m not sure.

I see, the self being this barrier?

@Yimpa omg such a graphic pic

lol is it like a compulsion for you? I mean it’s a good one at least I’d say

How does it feel to be one of the elite humans

Thanks

It’s not temporary. My self won’t grow back by itself , it hasn’t since November 2023. So I will stay disconnected from myself forever

Same

Ok that’s unusual😅

Might be ..

That’s less ego

Goodnight

@Natasha Tori Maru I swear