Sugarcoat

Hahahaah . I do allow myself some sweets but I try to reduce it to only on weekends and I sometimes fail at that ngl but ima try to do better

It’s Chad

Thanks

Ok. I thought literally read diagonally

Happy birthday Didnt mean to stress you(if that’s part of your stress you know)

Chad of Toulouse

”which I read diagonally” bruh just when I thought you couldn’t get harder to comprehend

82: I need to stop over eating. For real. Ive overcome binge eating. I never binge . But I over eat and it’s ruining my progress. *goes to kitchen and makes some pancakes with nutella* Jokes aside this autumn when I will probably study I will make my own lunch (now I eat at work) so then I can control the portions. And hopefully that will make it easier for me to stick to my plan.

Loll

I extracted dmt from that bark and it worked! I only got a really small yield though so that’s a bit tricky

Same. There’s shops on dark web but it feels kinda risky

Hahahaha best pervert

Watching from a safe distance.

Some woman should do the opposite experiment: walking around naked and seeing if she gets approached. lol

I got evaluated for autism but didn’t meet enough criteria for the diagnosis. Autism apparently needs to show in childhood, and I didn’t have the symptoms in childhood so that’s one of the reasons I didn’t get the diagnosis. Doctors write in my journal that I have delusions. Imagine being so outside the norm, having such unique experiences that it’s labeled as delusion. That’s my situation. It doesn’t bother me though. Autism has certain criteria. And when you’re properly evaluated they look to see if you fit those criteria. Maybe you just fit enough criteria to get the diagnosis (doesn’t sound like it according to your post, don’t know what the hell you told them about yourself that made you fit the criteria). Then it’s a valid diagnosis. But then it could be debated if someone could fit criteria for a diagnosis but still not have the diagnosis. But then it’s a question of, what even defines the diagnosis? Is it something that could be observed in the brain? Is there such a thing as an “autistic brain”. If it is, then that’s a very reliable criteria to fill. In order to answer wether your diagnosis is reliable or not, you’d have to research the autism criteria, what defines it, what the science behind it says, and then secondly you’d have to see if the place and psychologist that evaluated you follow the standard science properly.

Solipsism is silly. Why would you be the only body with a self illusion in it? Why would reality be limited to only one self illusion and all others are just empty. Makes no sense.

Ok I see

How is infinity recognized as such? How is nothingness recognized, how is “no limits” recognized? For recognition needs something that recognizes and something that is recognized. It needs duality. Or maybe it’s the duality that makes infinity obvious because it stands as a contrast. So when duality collapses it’s in that collapse that infinity is recognized, without it , it wouldn’t. I don’t know. Just random thought

I promise I’m conscious 😂

So maybe I just need to sleep less. I’m like opposite of insomniac I can sleep for 10 hours

Peak insomniac Valentin on sleep deprivation day 4 reaching for some quick energy

Yea I see. You have a lot of self awareness. And i think what separates you from the most is that you have a strong desire to break those barriers and see the truth. I think that desire important on this journey.

I personally think that there are exceptional cases where awakening comes easy or spontaneously to someone. But those are extremely rare, maybe they are genetic freaks. But I think the average person would need extreme amounts of work. Like extreme amounts of tripping and meditating etc. So even if you’re doing the work it might not be enough. I find for myself that in life it’s important to have a strong desire if you want something, so that desire guides and fuels your action. I think @Salvijus has talked about desire. Maybe it’s a more feminine approach. But if you have a super strong desire for something then it’s easier to make yourself do the work and go the lengths required. Most people lack that strong desire.

I read the post. Really good. That’s why I’ve felt like no amount of contemplation does anything for me, because it’s just going around inside my mind, it’s on a mental level purely for me.

We lowkey have similar experience. Because I’ve also done a TON of introspection and I still haven’t dissolved myself although I have came close. It’s like I can’t peel the last layer of self. So I’m wondering the same. It’s like a miracle needs to happen…But I do think the key is in seeing through the self, because it’s like it’s the barrier to non duality