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It shows you have self awareness that you have realized this. I doubt the average narcissist in classical medical definition has that self awareness, maybe maybe not I’ve always been obsessed with myself too. Trying to become best version of myself. It has had both upsides and downsides but mostly downsides because my life has been filled with mental suffering. it’s not the smartest way to go about life in my opinion also the classical narcissist affects others negatively through manipulation, needing attention, lying, controlling etc. If you don’t hurt others in the process then you’re not it

In my past I used to put self image first. But it was not in the classical narcissist way of depending on others, controlling others, being manipulative, needing attention, at the expense of others. It was just a strong desire to have a nice self image, because it’s just so nice in itself It was not about deception. I tried to find my authentic self, which was synonymous to me with a confident and charming self. Because without the fear I had the ability to be that

Yea psyche has many layers that’s my experience too

Genghis khan be like

Yes I can’t imagine what ultra runners go through I plan on starting run again after vacation. I wanna go hard at it

I should make a thread: don’t confuse normal duality with ultra narcissistic duality (me)

Btw I’m the greatest narcissist of all, it’s just not obvious I’ve spent countless hours compulsively fantasizing about this ideal cool hot self that impresses people LOL (I don’t do that anymore but it still shows my narcissism)😂😂😂

Maybe me replying is a sign I haven’t…… 👀I’ll try again

I was joking but yea I guess letting go is part of process in both

I have let go of this thread but I’m still not enlightened, what am I doing wrong?😭😅😂

The tones in the replies cracked me up a little.

I have had sleep paralysis more than 50 times and only been scared a handful of times. I’ve learned to enjoy it, to be curious about my hallucinations, curious about astral projection as a result. It doesn’t have to be negative experience at all if you just relax. You will see scary things if you’re scared but if you’re relaxed it will reflect and you might not see anything

Instead of feeling a ~need~ to understand this you could accept not knowing and yet approach it with curiosity. It’s like: you don’t NEED to figure things out but you’re curious naturally. It’s a more relaxed state of doing contemplation from. It’s where I feel I am Sorry if what I said doesn’t apply to you. What I kinda mean is that the mind creates this massive complex story about one’s life, and it seems damn there’s so much stuff going on, so much to figure out, but in actuality there’s not a need for that. It’s possible to live with more presence than that in the midst of the turmoil of the mind Also spiritual work can be disorienting because the self and the mind is not inherently this super stable structure so your paradigm is bound to break a little or even collapse sooner or later when you start questioning things and doing things that rewire brain like meditation. But trust in that when the old identity, paradigm dies away, something new and perhaps deeper and more exciting might await….thats how it was for me usually

Do you know if there is benefit to pushing body extremely hard like ultrarunners who run sometimes 24 hours? I have tried to run hard but I give up too quick

Ok coach🫡

This thread 😂😂😂😂

I can relate to that first part. When I took 5 Meo (low dose, I was a bit scared to go higher) I experienced it like “dead” and “empty” like I couldn’t possible live my life in that state because it’s so dead, it wasn’t rich at all, it’s like you reach the end of a reality, it wasn’t full, so I wanted to have my self back when I was in it. So I wonder how higher dose would be like, or a different kind of experience

I can relate to that when I tried

I’ve had spiritual experiences during sleep paralysis so maybe there’s something to it

@Petals sorry I’ll stop

lol you’re gonna bully me but I lowkey wanted to change to change to “Slavicimpostor” 😂because I’m Slavic and impostor is kinda mysterious and like I’m not what I seem

I picked the name (which I don’t like today it’s ugly) because of something like that, like I’m hiding or something

I feel 5 Meo dmt does that erasing of the border. At least when I tried it; but I did low dose so it was still a little ego left. I imagine higher dose is full erasing of border. Do you feel the openness on 5 Meo is different than the one you can achieve naturally or not?

Hahah funny but no. I don’t remember why I picked the name, I don’t like it I’d like to change it

A near death experience for me is when my self was almost dissolved