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I feel a lot of them couldn’t even if they tried. They just see this narrow mental projection of you. They don’t even see you at all. You might have too much dimension to you whatever that means , too open etc for them to grasp onto you and fit you into their little narrow experience . Not that it’s of concern as you say yourself - but just sharing perspective . and yes totally. It’s like people in society don’t see how their love for someone is so limited and conditional.

THIS!!!!!! 100x It’s a fundamental change in how one operates in the world. While at the same time not losing anything, as ones logical ability is still available. One is just not limited by it as the only mode of operating.

How does this express itself for you?

Not gonna lie I feel this about some women sometimes as a woman myself. Thanks for ranting on my behalf . Feeling cleansed reading that???

You can have a deep sense of guidance and passion in life without knowing what the hell it’s about at its core so it’s still deeply mysterious as to what you are ultimately achieving and pursuing. In a way I don’t see any other way. To know what your life purpose is sounds very fixed and limited to me in a way. Where is the mysticism in that? What would that knowing even be? Some kind of definition in your mind or what? If you know what the hell you are doing, where you are going what you are becoming that sounds like it’s not very profound then for me because it’s able to fit into some fixed idea in your mind. When in a sense a fundamental aspect of deep work is dissolving this very mind that predicts the future and knows . Idk tho…which is lowkey my point

Music in the head is trying to make you get up and DANCE

Oh yes you could. Watch out , I’m telling you…

Sugar/high carb is great for this in my experience . Does something amazing to one’s state. Even makes me more sociable, so @Chives99 pay attention to how different things affect your state

Energy in you is ~already ~trying it’s best to heal . In my experience. This tendency to want to listen to music and perhaps dissociate has been profoundly healing when I’ve “went along with it”. The very resistance to it prevents this flow of energy. When fully embraced energy can flow and does something to us that is beyond simply mental, even the physical body is affected positively. also of course in addition to this, “root cause” work as you mention! but I feel people in society have a tendency to see compulsions as just either a symptom of something deeper (aka no value in themselves) or an enemy to try to win. But these compulsions are serving a purpose (which you pointed out) and have much more to them than what’s usually painted .

Wow never heard of that. How u deal with it ? If you happen to mind it , maybe not

ok that’s good I understand it ??

Yes!

????is that all you got from this ?? but ok at the end of the day you want to feel better in yourself, about yourself right? Independent of wether someone is disrespectful to you or not. So for sure if being a little cocky back sometimes makes you feel better in yourself it can be useful but if it’s just some facade that you use to not feel the insecurity inside you then you didn’t solve anything as the insecurity is still there inside in a sense. So it depends I would say??

It can also just be your own “intuition” so not much “ rule” in the conventional sense of an obvious structure . But still your own intuition and spontaneity. Which maybe can take some work to get in touch with if you have a lot of anxiety socially But still those people who seem natural socially those “neurotypicals”. I bet you they have a bunch of rules themselves it’s just so deeply ingrained in them and society, the norm essentially, that it’s just seems natural . But go outside the norm and you’ll see people react to it?their many rules become so obvious when you break them! They will be mad at you for being yourself! And why would you care? Think about for a second, the type of person that would judge you - would you even want to connect with that person ? I bet not. Such people can challenge you tho and reveal a lot about yourself so that can be positive in a way too

Trying to be mature is a kind of immaturity for me

Now that’s your rule?? I’m lowkey autistic asf myself so I get what you mean

I do that naturally too. It’s in some ways more satisfactory than the social gathering itself. Sometimes during the gathering I’ll think to myself “oh there will be some juicy processing after this” and I’m lowkey excited for it? it IS philosophy!

That’s the smartest way to play, nobody can win because it’s all one lol haha I can’t

I wanna live the day somebody manages to do it?

Should make blog post about it and challenge leo

Energetic dating lol ?

I’ve been questioning that lately actually. I feel like it might be the conventional way of looking at it… becuase I’ve experienced things that perhaps would be considered insane but I have been fully aware of it and allowed it even im not sure tho, still exploring this

I saw your comment where you said you related to him so I guessed you’d respond to me to and I’m glad you did ? Something about the kitchen ? for me there was an argument in my mind about wether to eat something unhealthy or not and then boom That’s a lovely post ! Caught the moment ! the thing is I’m unsure about the date for me I think it was towards the end of April . But that’s cool as heck! We are similar for sure , it’s that resonance which is rare for me to experience outside this forum ?

Absolutely! I totally relate to this gradual unraveling but you calling it “progress to total surrender” is lowkey an idea you have about it rather than what it is what if the next step in this “process of total surrender” is the dying of the idea that you are on this process ? Not that you aren’t on any process at all but that this idea you have of it isn’t what it is…. It can be veeeeeery unpredictable how this unfolds this process to a shocking degree so just saying What’s more scary to you? facing “insanity” or missing out on what you imagine is the happiness and awakening that will come if you don’t continue on this “path” ? Maybe the main resistance you’re trying to dissolve isn’t mostly about what you imagine it to be about . It can be very unpredictable as I said

Maybe it’s the opposite sometimes. You trying to make yourself do those things is making you tired? Not that one shouldn’t be disciplined, but that sometimes we might get fixed on certain ideas and create fixed routines about what’s good for us vs not that comes from society and past experience. But the way the body/mind produces energy is maybe more spontaneous than that so by sticking to strict routine we are not really following this process directly but rather just living by some routine created by a fixed belief system so not in touch with direct experience . If that makes any sense