Sugarcoat

I feel like you’re describing my experience or at least something along the lines. But it’s so mysterious I don’t even know the hell it’s all about. It’s like I haven’t even had a life at all because my sense of having a life and time was associated with the very mental layers continuously being dissolved one after another by this hyper awareness

I’m in Croatia right now I wonder if that’s good position you should know ???

It all makes sense. I have connected with people various ways for example with one person we might connect through humor and jokes, another person like a family member we connect through having lived together so similar experience and also genetic similarities and certain qualities. And maybe with someone else they have a quality about them that I have so we vibe over that. Or through working together being interested in similar topics. But still throughout my life something has been missing, something “energetic” almost perhaps idk . I feel that in this forum I have experienced this “energetic resonance “ when reading here and interacting with people that I ~ never~ experience in real life with people . But then in this forum you lack that in person real life interaction . It’s not really a major problem but still something missing to the puzzle when engaged with others . It’s like living two existences. Not that it isn’t possible ever to merge the two in one connection with someone but it hasn’t happened yet .

What does it mean to be connected to people even? I’m asking becuase I’m wondering myself . Never really felt connected to people in my entire life. Not really desired too either but just wondering what it is about

No problem thansk you too! yea those perspectives can co exist for sure! i meant more that in the same way you are making conscious effort to try to optimize your state and healing, there is a natural intelligence doing the same so by letting go you are allowing this intelligence take over more and “do its thing” so it’s actually benefitting you and getting you closer to where you want! also maybe you’re already doing this but simply putting yourself in the very situations that make you uncomfortable can help too

Same I relate to you a quite a bit also much more in my past. I still also have this cringe/shame that you talk about, but it’s very very subtle so I don’t 100% know what it’s about also. So yea I’d just say that’s good keep doing that work you doing. But also I’d like to add something. Your body-mind-energy has a natural self regulatory tendency by itself, no matter what you do. So you might try hard to “be present” but so is your body-mind-energy doing too independent of your effort. So your “lack of presence” can be seen as a particular state that is not PURELY mental or related to your “consciousness” It’s also connected to the body, nervous system and your “energy” patterns. so all of these different components work together creating this dysregulated state. but as I said there is a natural self regulatory tendency regardless of your conscious effort. So you might have a bunch of impulses for example I saw a post you wrote wondering why you go back and forth on the internet . Or why you keep refreshing this forum (I do it too haha) . Or maybe you have other cravings for certain foods. Or whatever . All kinds of impulses are aspects to this self regulatory tendency of these different components of you that I mentioned. Even if they seem “bad” to you or “excessive” . So one might exhaust oneself trying to achieve a particular state “presence”. But what’s more effective in a way is slowly letting go of some of that effort and allowing this intelligence to take over more and more which it’s already trying to do with all these impulses you’ve having you might notice for example if you pay attention how you feel in your body or how your energy moves when you for example engage in this forum as you mentioned and when you read something that resonates. Or when you write a post you might notice how it feels cleansing energetically. Or maybe feels nice in the body or if you eat a food you crave how it puts you in a particular desirable state all examples of how this self- regulatory tendency plays itself out trying to put you into the best possible state and balance independent of your effort . Also mental stories is a part of this. so yea all I’m trying to say is that at some point in time one can sort of exhaust this conscious effort and let this intelligence, this self regulatory tendency to take over more and more because it’s just beyond our own capacity how genius it is personally it has absolutely transformed my default state in ways I could’ve never done myself in short period of time simply writing this post I can sense this energy being channeled out of my body it’s very cleansing. So thanks for giving me this opportunity to cleanse myself ???Just mentioning so you get the idea so yea do what you want with this info maybe it resonates maybe it just sounds bla bla hahahah ? ?? cheers

Yea but I was thinking more fantasies about idealized scenarios because it’s not too uncommon in some of us who feel a bit cringe sometimes

Do you have a lot of fantasies? Like a rich mind

Is it different if the woman is less hot than you?

I said it once on your post about your relationship with your face and I’ll say it again lol because this lowkey confirmed my suspicions What I’m sensing is that you need to ground yourself deeper in your body . Because then it’s not possible to shut down like that, because your body will be at such ease and so open that everything just flows through it . You couldn’t even block if you tried lol but sure you can keep trying to change your “mindset” forever ..

Why don’t these people stop hiding away from the world then and start actually putting their wisdom out there for people to see? 99% of the internet is basic shit we should be glad there’s at least some place with unique stuff like he does imo. It would be sad to see it limited because some people with zero autonomy themselves make bad decisions inspired by it still good post tho you have a point some people would benefit to listening to you

Idk honestly

Mm but when do I get to the damn thing itself for fucks sake?

Those undesirable parts also are a lot of the time enhanced by or are even purely our own mind. At least how it has seemed for me. So we’re having a problem with our own mind not even the thing itself lowkey ??

“I always wanted to be a genius” lmao what. What that means even. You use intelligence for ~something~ it’s not the intelligence itself that’s the goal. That sounds like chasing some profound self image not even genuinely interested in writing. Focus directly on what you want, what you wanna do, how to do it. You find out how your intelligence works and how intelligent you are after the fact.

Yea I get what you’re saying. I thought more if you’re someone who also needs a good vibe and personality to get turned on then the risk of sleeping w someone who’s toxic is small since you wouldn’t even be attracted to such a person. But maybe that’s not how many men’s sexuality work they can desire to sleep w someone purely by looks. If that’s the case it makes sense what you’re saying regarding having “discipline” to not end up w the wrong person….

I’m just trying the “empty “the undesirable parts of myself ?? but yea I thought about it recently how Leo says all the time infinite mind and for me that was very abstract not really relatable but now that this keeps unfolding for me it does speak to something in my experience nice analogy

Opening up the body is a very direct thing. You’re trying to figure out how to set up some scheme ~in time~ to do it, which for me just seems like operating from the same level of mind that is associated with the very tension in your body you’re trying to release. Why not the opposite opening body up first, aka releasing some of this tension, which is accessible to do ~right now~, THEN figure the rest of it out like routines and stuff with this new found depth or you might just be running around in mental loops

I swear to god. Every time I feel I’ve reached something tangible it’s yet again another mental layer to be dissolved I cannot ??‍♀️

Sometimes when we feel at complete loss in how to deal with something, it can open the door for a surrender to take place, allowing something else to take over. Essentially, even though it might seem like it’s up to you to deal with this, there is intelligence at work dealing with it already, moving and releasing emotions, drawing you to act in certain ways, creating thoughts, feelings, impulses (for example you writing this post) etc In short, you don’t have to find a way to deal with this, as it is ~already~ being dealt with. In ways beyond our own greatest capacities to deal with it ourselves. much love ❤️

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Oh ok interesting. Now You are like my AI for knowing about AI

Maybe AI will develop feelings in the future too who knows

Poor guy is stuck in nothingness void I can tell by his profile

Now That’s funny to me?