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Because I have a condition that has the risk of getting progressively worse, so far it has been bearable though. And I have family member with a bunch of chronic pain that is even younger than me and they describe how horrible it is so I have some concern for future (I still manage to be quite calm most of the time). Things run in my family. I am just not used to pain, I was pain free before so it’s very new to me and I don’t know how bad it can get. But it’s like my mind images it in advance It’s not a strong fear. It’s more like a medium concern (after I managed to calm myself down). But yes you are right , so far it has been mostly mental . I agree we have power to influence our minds to stop a certain activity. But in my experience, in the past in particular. Something can linger in the mind strongly, and it is not enough to simply use willpower, or a temporary shifting of focus or change of thought, to stop those thoughts from lingering : what is required is a rewiring that takes time. Repetitive behavior, dissolution of a layer to the psyche that contains that lingering thought, facing the fear etc. It can even be ingrained biologically to fear something (for example pain or social rejection) so it’s even going against biology to try to stop it. So a kind of biological rewiring is needed too But I’m not saying it cannot be done nonetheless, with work, sometimes perhaps it’s more simple I have transcended most of those trivial things I have considered In my experience, and I’ve mentioned this to you before in another thread, I can consciously chose to think a thought right now: perhaps a pink elefant. And I can have influence to stop thoughts. And I can shift my mind to other thoughts. But unless I am doing those things, my thoughts happen mostly automatically, when they first appear, so I don’t consider it my own doing mostly of the time: But it’s in my power to have influence on it and stop it, and not feed into it. Thanks for the suggestion The last question I answered above My reply has gotten kinda long. But you can chose to reply to what you want it’s fine.

Can’t wait 😍 Jk (or lowkey not)

I try to have that in consideration

Thanks for the reminder. I’m one of the people who haven’t really kept up so much with this ai stuff

Cool. Good you ask I didn’t think about how it wasn’t obvious from my post what I meant. But I meant taking it sublingually. I am already in contact with professionals. I am just gonna keep trying out the cbd oil from the drugstore and the paste I bought from cbd shop and see how it goes I mean it’s not a dangerous product so I have read a little about it and there’s not much research at all so I’m just gonna experiment

Honestly when you think about it. Death is not objectively bad. I do have a quite causal mindset around it. I sometimes forget that others see suicide as inherently negative while I can just write about it casually.

What is collateral? I googled and it gave me several definitions I started to use cbd oil daily then I forgot lol but I started again yesterday so far I haven’t noticed effect but I upped the dose a little. And mine might not be best quality because I just randomly bought it from drug store So yesterday I went to a CBD shop and bought 30% cbd paste from there. So I’m looking forward to try that Why you take them with the other drugs? I smoked cbd a few days ago I think I felt a little calmer.

Thanks for the suggestion . What does L-theanine do for you? I tried a cbd oil I bought from a drugstore and so far I haven’t noticed effect but maybe I just need higher doses or it’s not high quality.

Thanks

I don’t know what I will do after perhaps a master or work immediately

Yea it seems if we alter our minds and state of consciousness we could change how we experience reality

Thanks Yea I used to have social anxiety in my teens. Chronic anxiety as a child (the existential). I used to be obsessed with my physical apperance I used to seek to have pleasant self imagine So yea those are gone. It took time

Physical pain is so advanced that’s why most don’t talk about it in spirituality (or because they don’t deal with it). Seems few people know how to tackle it Pretty much the only mental suffering I deal with nowadays is my own anticipation of pain. Imagining in my mind how bad it might become And I recognize that it’s something my mind is doing, how it’s not necessary and isn’t helping me, it doesn’t change anything. Its not a constant thing , most of the time I feel okay , but it happens Actually sometimes I find my mind makes it out to be worse than when I actually go through it I have made some improvements to it to a certain degree. I used to be more stressed about it in the past (I even got these weird brain zaps from stress at some point) What I did is that I shifted my mindset a little. Meaning I shifted the way my mind was relating to it, rather than quieting my mind. I could practice just quieting my mind. By for example focusing my attention on a sense perception (I find that quiets the mind). I have a hard time with this . It’s not pleasant when the mind is running around in circles trying to deal with something that feels negative. I can change my mind a little and perhaps quiet it with practice but to actually enjoy it feels kinda super human to me

I have transcended my social fears I have transcended my existential fear I have transcended fear of having a bad self image But I have yet to transcend fear of the physical suffering

I have had clairvoyance event on this forum

Even if it’s a joke it could maybe work (the idea of actively putting yourself through extreme suffering as a means to try to transcend it) but I am not brave enough to do that and most aren’t either . Yea I am open to the idea it can be transcended but I think it’s extremely difficult

I don’t know if it’s obvious that my post was a joke (the torturing yourself part)? I think the same as you, although maybe you have realized it directly, which I haven’t. I heard a story about a guy who transcoded physical pain through extreme amount of mindfulness practice (kind of like focusing attention on the pain or something). So he probably rewired his brain, achieved some altered state of consciousness when he did that

Some say no-self is equal to suffering , so if you die before you die then you might be freed in this life at least

I agree

Reasonable suggestion I find self expression comes naturally for me. It’s like an impulse. And I follow that impulse

Well since you ask Last few years I have been working almost full time with different jobs, kindergarten, restaurant, basically jobs where you interact with humans Other than that I have been physically exercising Also doing things with family sometimes I do contemplation sometimes naturally Have gone on a lot of walks outside in nature or in city. Periods of having step goals for the day Occasionally met a friend or relative. I don’t socialize much outside my family at all Other than that yes I’ve spent a lot of time on the internet. Also sometimes I sleep for a long time This autumn I will start studying full time in university, so that will be a lifestyle change. You might evaluate my lifestyle and draw correlations to my mental wellbeing, but you do that because that’s how the average person functions. They need to do significant things and meet people often enough to feel good. So you automatically apply that to me. But I am different than most.

I lack that truly

I lack that strong drive to live. I am very causal about the idea of death

There was some stress in the beginning but I find it was a reaction to it, rather than a cause. But reasonable suggestion anyways! The doctors evaluated me but didn’t find a diagnosis as of yet, for example they did autism evaluation

The highest goal