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Those exacttt words are what I have thought in my mind when I have read your detailed intricate descriptions of the nature of reality and the "cosmos" ☠️ Just causal everyday observations for you I guess 😂😂😂

Yea hes definitely showing that he feels hurt, and its difficult when its hard to pinpoint how much of it is just a child being emotional in their own mind vs reacting to something actually serious and potentially traumatic that happens. Regardless, it still matters, as you say. So yea the family situation could contribute. Maybe if he and you and some others that are close to him too, could sit down somewhere and maybe ask him or just let him talk himself out, maybe that could make it more clear, if you feel theres more he could share, idk

That sounds like a state that is becoming more and more effortless If you dont mind, for how long has this been going on for you, this process? Im asking because the way you describe, I can relate to the descriptions, except that knowing of the "unrealness" of self. Thats why im curious. As you say "understanding of how this sense of self becomes so prevalent in each body/mind". Yea ive noticed how when things shifts in me then it also changes how I experience others and what kind of "self" I pick up/sense from them, and naturally I think about how it all works . Yea it makes sense that the kind of change you describe would help your parenthood 😄

That happened to me when I went to bed a set time too, but it can be difficult to balance when you know you have to wake up a certain time... Ok I see I have not done "yoga" in the conventional term either except for some basic class way back in high school as part of PE class. But I have done large amounts of movement, dynamic stretching etc, because I have felt the desire and impulse to fix these uncomfortable sensations I feel in my body . I didn't follow instructions, I have just done what felt good physically, noticing what movement releases what muscles etc etc Upon quick googling I would say that it could be considered some form of yoga what I have been doing. You mention the "seems to stir up energetic process in body". I did experience that during same time period of doing this. I did movements in past too but extra lately. I dont think its the number one cause but theres def connection there Does that "energetic process" seem profound for you? Or do you think meditation rather really got that depth youre looking for? For me, my experience of reality and myself has transformed completely over these past months, and this "energy" thing seems to be foundation of that One perspective that I can add that I don't remember having heard about, is how: The better the physical state of your body is, the more you're able to detach from it and go deeper into your mind. I know I am sensitive to the sensations in my body, but this is something I have experienced. When I feel uncomfortable in my body it's like it is taking my attention automatically. And yes, it happens sometimes that if I go into a good state/flow state in my mind, then that can be strong enough to override the bodily discomfort and I can "forget" my body a bit. But this ability is still limited. I noticed lets say after doing exercises and movements, and I felt good in my body, then I when I would engage my mind (listening to music for example or even writing something) then I would be able to go deeper and more effortlessly into the "flow state", in more intense way, because discomfort in my body wasn't taking my attention to my body anymore in those moments I dont know how a super healthy person feels in their body, but I bet a lot of people have some degree of discomfort regularly. So I do think this could apply to people even if they aren't experiencing it so intensely like me

Why not both?

Years of gradual peeling, but still here.....

How do people not notice their sense of self, I dont understand, its so obvious even if its subtle .

Oh i see

Maybe youre saying something profound but using vague terms. Sounds to me like youre talking about giving up attachment to ones life or something, "universe" is way vaster, can't be attached to something so vast as a human

OK, I see, yea it is probably true that she has to be different in some way mentally to be able to be comfortable putting herself out there like that, and perhaps some degree of antisocialness, as you say, could feel protective for her so she doesn't risk engaging people who would do her wrong, who knows So my previous responses was me just bringing a larger perspective because I do feel in general people nit pick the wrong people sometimes

I wasn’t comparing her to those women in the way you are now, I meant more what Sophie is providing to the world vs what porn industry is providing, how it’s feeding people’s minds differently I thought I was clear with what I was saying, why would you think I implicitly said the women being exploited would be “worse” than her or something that’s weird .

Thats just low self esteem 😂

hahahah i have thought to myself "it was like daily humiliation ritual", I had a lot of social anxiety back then, amongst other things, so yea I relate

Theres an entire porn industry with women being exploited, aggressive addictive stuff etc. Have you considered some of those men with power in those industries and how they are as people? But you're instead focused on some natural looking young woman making money by willingly choosing to show her body online, by herself and sometimes together with her female friends. Calling her "demonic" Really, zoom out a little from that perspective and look at the world at large. And this is not just directed at you

HAHAHHAHAHH I swear. And it's not judging, it's just first spontaneous first impression based on the convo. We dont know her ofc It's like, some of them are so stuck in their head they barely even see the girl and how she is 😂 They just see "oh a female" and thats it 😂 Hello again btw : )

Same! Its not those "heavy mind layers" I had when I was younger 😆

Profound is kinda broad term but it can include plenty of different traits, spiritual, smart yes also charismatic What you trying to say with that last sentence? The most profound people dont hide all their lives, its authentic self expression to sooner or later in life share with the world in some way, could be online or even just to people in your life or something. The way you are should start showing in outward expression too, or else its underdevelopment, I think

Imagine her

Do you feel there’s still kind of a “processing” going on, where it’s getting more and more clear , but as of now it’s not 100% clear yet hence the uncertainty in some descriptions? When you say “energy” acting out roles, do you mean there is some kind of “energetic self” ? Not as in there’s always an energy there, but can there be like energy that rises and gives sense of some self there, when the situation calls for it, or is it just absent fully now? Not trying to nit pick words, but just curious because sometimes we use words to try to really capture something, maybe even subconsciously . And also because you don’t come off as that stereotypical “flat, dry” no-selfer,😁 so there’s uniqueness to your perspective

Most important I think is we are true to ourselves, and recognize “I feel I am real” as long as we do. Then you can question from that place if you want. You can live like his quote while still having sense of self. Just that it’s passive.

🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣the joke came from deep place

Hm. Maybe my problem is that I haven’t “contemplated” it enough “Joke” aside, but what I said was genuine. It’s not that it’s impossible that this place has maybe some streaks of what could fit definition of a cult. But I just think it’s such a non issue somehow. It’s a spiritual /self help forum, yes people repeat what others say, they may blindly believe, but that happens anywhere really. For now I don’t know how to explain myself further. But you don’t seem excessively concerned, more like you’re just exploring your expression or something (maybe im projecting now). So my comment, it’s just directed at a general tendency, not just in this forum.

Yea we are totally "in it", we have direct access to some kind of reality but it remains mystery 🤯

Attachment to what?

U got good taste 😎