Sugarcoat

Then I lost my mind… literally

I had this dream a few weeks ago where a group of teens were outside and one of the girls took shrooms and started acting annoying so they dragged her up a tree and slit her stomach up and killed her. Nice dream …

I’ve thought about it but not put so mush importance to it

I don’t know why my “soul” chose this. If that was the case

Ok I don’t really understand what u mean but it’s fine

I’ll try 👍🏻thx🙏🏻

I can try my best at it

It’s very “weak” kind of like you’d have an imagine, and then you turn down the opaqueness , the brightness, the colors, everything so the image becomes almost transparent and “weak” if that makes sense. From what I remember it hasn’t always been like this. It’s what I mean by feeling disconnected from my thought processes . The same goes for audio thoughts

I don’t know what’s true or not in those cases. I can only say what it seems to me.

Nothing. And my thought, my imagination ability is very vague

Well the external world I see as a projection of my brain

👍🏻

Thank you🙏🏻

So you mean I need to figure out what I find meaningful?

No

Depends on what you mean. Some things I can control like where I work to a degree, what I do with my free time, other things I can’t control like the weather or other people . I can say I usually don’t concern myself over external things

Yes I’m a super introvert. this is a bit controversial to say, but I experience my internal state as very independent of the external. So yes you have a point there with the disconnection

Where I feel connected to myself and my thought processes . Where I can feel joy in interactions with others and in other situations which are positive instead of being apathetic toward everything . Something like that

You mean like sprit guide?

Work. nothing external excites me to be honest. I just want to return to a somewhat normal internal state, that is what excites me

Ok

Good point. I try to have a positive outlook on the future but it can be hard. I don’t have any set plans for it tho but that’s fine for me now I’m continuing with what I’m currently doing .

True for most people

That sounded pretty epic

Because it’s just a temporary interaction in the brain I guess