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I agree I think we might be in a hopeless situation maybe it’s impossible to get rid of the self because there’s nobody already and nobody do to anything. Some non dualists allude to this. At least for me I feel this self is kind of maintaining itself without my own will if that makes sense. How could you undo something you’re not even doing yourself? I can’t help but to feel I exist , can’t imagine anything beyond that, how could one undo that sense of I am? What would that even be? Like nothing at all, as you allude to

you have made thoughtful responses. I still stand by my claim though that I don’t have a role in it, despite how crazy or close minded it might sound . But I still try my best to deal with it regardless.

I’m familiar with people thinking along those lines at this point and it’s fine to me. I just don’t wanna go through this anymore that’s my only concern

I didn’t watch the vid as you noticed. Oh okay, that was my first thought.

That’s great you seem to be doing good. I see what you’re saying and you have a point. Regardless of how I feel I try to keep doing normal things. For example ive also been working on my body recently and I take care of my nutrition. I try to have a positive mindset despite what I’m going through. But I can be very negative too and have suicidal thoughts.

Thanks once again. You too

I would like to have more highs and lows instead of being pretty much the same all the time. What you have sounds more normal.

Thanks

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Not really highs and lows I’m the same pretty much all the time. No emotions

Being drunk doesn’t do much difference to me. Not I’m not in pain luckily

I have written why before I won’t do it here again

you have a point. I can be a bit negative sometimes though which I think is okay too.

My family who knows me thinks I’m weird yes. But I act normal outwardly to strangers and acquaintances. I’m not normal but not the creative type. My experience is quite dull. I barely feel I exist most of the time

So much easier said than done.

I tend to sometimes close my eyes and observe my mental activity. I can see how you’d suggest doing that for longer. I wouldn’t say I’m contributing to it but I’d have to write much more to explain that so I’ll leave it for now. Have already written about it don’t wanna spam the forum with it. Connected vs disconnected might not be the best terms to describe this. But what I mean is that I feel disconnected from my mental processes (this is also the how depersonalization is described on Wikipedia) so it’s like my thoughts are somewhat quiet, there is quite a bit of space between them as in time between each thought, and my thoughts aren’t coherent so they’re more random “bursts” rather than following a line of thought. As if they’re “far away” from me. A “connected” “normal” state id assume is with louder more clear thoughts, that follow a line of thought rather than mostly being just random “bursts”. As if the thoughts are “closer” to the person. Don’t know if I’m making sense

Feeling disconnected from yourself, as if you almost don’t exist. Feeling disconnected from your thoughts, so that you barely hear nor see them. As a consequence, feeling disconnected from reality and the world. Barely being able to enjoy anything. Having no emotion. And this being the case no matter where you are, what you do or who you are with. This is your normal state. Basically having nothing, not even yourself; no life, on the deepest level.

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What are non serious suicidal thoughts? Suicidal thoughts not intended to act upon? I have suicidal thoughts daily

I feel my mind is blank sometimes and my thoughts aren’t coherent, it’s like there’s a lot of space between them but not in a spiritual way, if that makes sense so yes I’m a bit of a exception to that . It’s like a disconnection from my own mental processes

It’s on my mind a lot I feel I have a clear sense of how it works and what it is. In short it’s a kind of severe disconnect from/within myself

That is true. One could be not average though if one suffers from some mental condition, so not average doesn’t necessarily have to mean above average .

The most average people ironically become special in being so average maybe

I wouldn’t say it’s about feeling different or special . Just feeling separated as a separate self. And that is a shared experience that everyone has unless enlightened. Im not talking about that here. I assume the average person has almost constant thoughts yea

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