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Yea that’s kind of what I wrote about in another reply. My guess is that they are the boring ones…

I cant be bored because I enjoy my own mind (when I’m more connected to myself and can even hear my thoughts). I’m guessing you and the average person is more outwardly focused so affected by outside circumstance so you derive joy from outward circumstances which is totally normal so you’re bored when something interesting isn’t happening externally that you can involve your mind in

My guess is that it’s felt when enlightenment happens or awakening

This I can’t answer . I wonder the same

I never understood boredom either. Pretty much never felt it

The kind of love that is truth is not the conventional love, it’s unconditional and includes even the untruthfulness. Intuitively

It’s one thing to talk about these thing, another to become directly conscious of how everything is the same substance, that’s my goal

It’s one thing to talk about these thing, another to become directly conscious of how everything is the same substance, that’s my goal

If everything is the same substance, and is the same as nothing, then no material is needed for nothing to exist

I think it might be easier to replace old habits with new ones instead of simply stopping old habits. Start smaller and increase steadily. Sit down and think and perhaps write down what you wanna do with your life, what habits you want to install to replace the old ones. You don’t have to quit the old habits cold turkey, you could just decrease them steadily as you replace them with new habits. Meditation for example could help put you in a clearer state from which it’s easier to deal with urges

thanks so much for the tips

I will check the video out. Thanks. I’m building it up. Today I did it quite scattered. 20 min then break , 20 min again then an hour .

It’s very tempting to look at the timer I know that feeling exactly. It’s a challenge to not do it or move around

Okay I see what you mean there. It’s like if someone plays video game and is fully concentrated and immersed into it that they don’t sense themselves anymore ok . I’m steadily increasing the time of my sittings.

Your mind is supposed to work for you not against you. You have too much negative rumination about yourself going on. Keep up the work with the books about emotional mastery that could probably help, but reframe it in your mind. Don’t see it as something “wrong” with you that needs fixing, that you’re not “good enough” but still acknowledge the problems you have. You have narrowed down your interests, that is a first step. Making it into career isn’t easy it takes a lot of work. So don’t beat yourself up over it. There’s plenty of room for improvement.

I felt mostly right hand but just a little bit body too

@James123 I’ve started to meditate again how many hours do you recommend each day? Is more automatically better? How much did you do may I ask ?

It feels like I did it

I don’t know exactly where but it just feels like I am here.

What does this mean?

Right. There’s always room for improvement.

It is extremely difficult yes. Maybe it’s true maybe not who knows

It feels like I’m in the skull

Thanks for the suggestions

You can be happy that you yourself are making good contributions at least. That’s what’s most important at the end of the day, you yourself