Sugarcoat

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  1. My mind says “right here”. That is a thought , but there’s something that is not a thought, my mind says again. It’s like this contracted sense of I’m here in the skull looking out from my eyes
  2. It can be discouraging to hear . But I still think it’s worth pursuing if one wants it
  3. I feel ready it’s just I just gotta put the work in and pursue it
  4. Cool . You mean you spent time in darkness and silence
  5. If it was that easy to just drop my self
  6. You mean people can think they had awakenings but it’s actually something relative they experienced? I myself one time I remember I have done some self inquiry and nothing happened, then one night I did it spontaneously and just asked myself “where is the I” and tried to locate it and I couldn’t for a brief moment it was cool. As you say though, it was a long time ago and I’m not fully sure if it was actually a glimpse or not. I could have conflated it with something else
  7. Still don’t know what you mean by potential but it’s fine 😂
  8. “Do you want to exist or not” was kinda funny for some reason. I’d like to see how no self is. “But you really don’t want to, or you would have” . My desire for enlightenment isn’t super strong so you have a point there
  9. I don’t really get what you mean by it’s all potential
  10. It’s almost like you speak your own language
  11. Why do you say it’s not an illusion? it’s difficult indeed
  12. Illusion trying to look for end of itself
  13. that’s great you managed to “see” that.
  14. I just thought to myself today. Isn’t it crazy how something that is supposedly supposed to be the truth, that there is no self, no separation, is so damn hard to “see”? The thing that’s supposed to be so obvious. How could an illusion be so strong 99.9 % of people are under it. It’s crazy
  15. Is there something you’d consider the number one thing you did?
  16. That’s great you managed to realize that!
  17. Thanks for the tips. May I ask if you’ve had awakenings etc?
  18. As I wrote in my original post I have experienced a lot of shedding of the layers to the ego because of this thing I call “self concentration” maybe it’s similar to what you describe, maybe not. But I have not yet experienced full ego death (except one time I’m not fully sure but I had some kind of glimpse it seems) so that’s what I’m shooting for. I think I can somehow understand what you mean.
  19. Some people associate enlightenment with bliss . And they ask themselves if it comes with endless bliss. Am I the only one who doesn’t care about bliss or happiness. I would be very pleased with a constant “neutrality”. I just don’t wanna suffer, that’s all. Maybe some will say this kind of thinking, in terms of how enlightenment will benefit “me” is precisely what’s standing in the way of it. Maybe, maybe not, but I just can’t help myself to think this way. I don’t think it does harm, it’s natural to wonder for oneself what something mysterious like enlightenment would entail. And as long as there is a “me” sense here it will wonder how it will benefit oneself, even if enlightenment means the end of that very “me”