Sugarcoat

I feel some of my suffering comes from this disconnect I feel from myself. And that is beyond thoughts. It’s a state I’m in. I have physical suffering too that I feel is beyond thoughts, it’s felt in the body. What I do recognize as thoughts is the anticipation of that physical suffering. That I probably have a role in stopping. Meditation could perhaps help. I’d have to do it for longer to notice a change.

Thats a good mindset to have🙏🏻Very strong. Especially if you’re more of an independent kind that isn’t attached to other people or things so you don’t have anything outside yourself to live for, like I feel I am . The thing is though a lot of time I feel like I’ve lost myself so it’s as if I don’t have myself even to live for. I’m not asking help with this post btw so I don’t expect any solution from others I know I’m the only one that can help myself and maybe some doctor.

All you’ve ever experienced is what is right in front of you. Thoughts, sights, sounds, not even those things, the immediate appearance. How come then when you for example read the news you really feel like there’s a real world out there with real events and people? How come when you are in history class you really feel like there’s a past with real people and real events? And why can’t you shake this seeming sense of reality? How come you can discuss all these topics in the forum and feel like it’s all real? Because you have a self. That’s it. The self is the basis for everything. It’s the sense of I’m here and the world is out there. Real solidity here creates real solidity out there. This one separation, this one border between you and the rest gives rise to all else meaning. You can talk shit about this but are you really ready to give it all up? Because it includes everything, all your meaning making, all your sense of a society existing and events happening and people existing. All relating, relationships etc. It all goes down the drain. All your discussing about this and that and feeling like what you’re discussing is real. Are you really ready to give up your entire reality? Because that is what you give up if you give up your self.

Main point?

Yea

Why do you do this diet?

Let’s see your psychoanalysis response

What’s your point? Yea ofc anyone has the right to be as one pleases

I just thought to myself how the most precious things imo is to have good mental and physical health. Like if you have those two you should be so thankful. Because if you loose one of them it’s the only thing you’ll be wishing back. I’m having a hard time even thinking of something more precious than those two things. It’s even more precious than family imo, maybe because I’m a bit f*cked up, a lone wolf and love nobody.

This sounds a bit toxic. My guess was that it was to try to make her jealous , which you in a reply said it was. The kind of high quality girl you would want this probably wouldn’t work on, she would be too mature to fall for this trick. The kind of girl this would work on seems the kind that is into a guy who doesn’t give her interest, and you’d have to maintain this behavior of playing games with her to keep her interest up. If you are phony enough maybe you could pull it off, but other than that no.

You too

Thanks. I feel you. Life can suck so much. Unfortunately I don’t feel any different when I talk to my family about it. I fight my battles alone too.

Thanks

I feel I get zero dopamine in my brain. Like I’m walking around dead and empty. My family knows about my situation. It’s very hard to stay positive.

I relate to this. I’ve been suicidal for the past year. I feel too weak to handle my existence. Sometimes I try to brute force it with a strong mindset and it lasts for a little while but not for long until I slip back down and feel weak again. A strong mindset can only hold up for so long until it crumbles again . Sometimes it’s so bad I’ll spend all day researching suicide methods and have suicidal thoughts from the moment I wake up to the moment I go to sleep and feel like my whole being has given up on life. There’s like two sides of me, one with a little strength left to push myself further, and one that has completely given up on life and succumbed to the bad circumstances I’m in. So I oscillate between the two. But it’s hard.

It means what it says. That my problem is very strange and odd so I won’t write what it is exactly, but it’s similar to those two things I mentioned. Yes I go to regular doctors appointments, but it’s not helping at all, the meds aren’t helping at all

It’s very weird what I’m going through. Like even too weird for this forum . But to give a clue I’d say it’s similar (not exactly those things) to a kind of severe depersonalization and a severe compulsive behavior.

Im doing somewhat okay now. I have two different parts of me, one that has given up and is suicidal, and one that has some strength to keep going. So I kinda oscillate between the two

Yea

A lot of men’s so called “raw truth” is riddened with identification with one’s mental position and underlying emotion

Just have more sex?

That sounds fun

They probably slept like that because they had no option, but you have an option, most would probably prefer more space so you have the choice to be close vs having your space not just forced to be close.

Ok…

I get your point but who wants to forcefully cuddle every night. Everyone needs some distance