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I eat healthy generally. But when I do eat unhealthy, I don’t notice any negative effects. I think that’s because I have a good baseline of health and a strong digestion. If you have this, especially if you are young, I think you shouldn’t feel that much of a difference if you eat a little unhealthy food vs healthy, maybe in excess amounts yes but not a little deviation. I feel good generally health wise eating generally healthy, so that’s a benefit, but on the other hand I feel “normal” like this is how I’m supposed to feel. My body feels healthy and light and my energy is stable. It’s supposed to feel that way, imo. Like @Schizophonia would say “it’s normal”. So it doesn’t feel so much like a benefit, it just feels normal.

I see

Thanks

You seem happy with that philosophy at least that’s good

Those green qualities listed sound quite feminine. Maybe you could talk to her about how she could explore her feminine side more and from that gain a more balanced life. She sounds somewhat masculine if she lacks those things you mentioned. Maybe that’s contributing to the issues in the relationship, you being more feminine and she more masculine

Yea maybe

Lol

I want more yes

America?

It used to feel liberating but not anymore. Not it just feel natural/neutral as I said. I haven’t felt the sense of liberation for a long while

It’s feels natural. Neutral. In the past when I felt more inhibited in my expression then free expression felt good as a contrast, but now I lack that contrast since my expression is always free (took a lot of work to get here). So it’s neutral

Ok I see

I express myself freely all the time. But I don’t feel it’s coming from my heart. It’s just coming from me.

Euw

Maybe he likes butter so much it doesn’t feel forceful for him

Yea I see. You give good responses

Why intake so much saturated fat? It can increase the bad cholesterol in you.

Maybe I sound close minded or insane by saying this but in my case there’s only one cause… But I get your point

So fear to take the leap and go for what your heart desires? What if you have zero desire like me?😹😹😹 I just exist (kind of)

Why do you need people to care about you?

That’s not what I’m going through at all. If I wrote what I’m going through I’d be considered literally INSANE

So you consider we have this driving force for exploration etc? What do you mean “fear of survival” you mean the opposite right fear of death?

I’m very natural. So my reaction to my situation is a very natural reaction imo. You differentiate between pain and suffering . I lump those two together, they’re the same, unless maybe you’ve become some extreme yogi and mastered mindfulness so that pain isn’t suffering anymore. Maybe that’s possible, but for the rest of us, pain is equal to suffering. I can locate suffering in the body when I feel it. I don’t consider myself to be the creator of my state. Doesn’t mean I can’t change it, but I didn’t come to this place from my own action. If I wrote about what I’m going through it would become more clear. But I’d be considered insane. So you consider thoughts to be more than passing thoughts and internal dialogue and imagery? That’s all I have that I consider thoughts. It used to be different in the past and I would have maybe what you call a “taken for granted operating system for your experience”. But all of that dissolved for me. So now thoughts from my experience are just those passing things. What do you mean by delve into the “place” where you are at the center of the activity? You mean a kind of self inquiry to try to locate yourself? I see my state as prior to thoughts so there we disagree. But the last question you proposed is still valid.

It’s the basic survival instinct. That’s why it’s so hard to kill yourself. Do you mean people suppress their desire to live?

That’s so difficult. To surrender and accept the bad things. But we have no other choice if we are going to keep going. Because sooner or later the suck stuff comes and we have to face it to overcome it. That’s where the strong mindset comes in to play.