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Greetings friends, I was curious. Does anybody know if Buddhists are actually awake? I know from my experience (past tense) that there is a constant in existence. Whatever is outside of the visual field I guess that void which exists. But I spoke with this monk and he’s so insistent on there being no self. Even if the self is no self paradoxically. Idk I left the conversation very confused. Anybody have anything to say on this point. I can’t help but feel disappointed. When I asked Forrest Knutson about the void “everything vanished, even myself, everything I ever knew went poof gone, but I still was, I just wasn’t anything.” He said yes! I did it (I know I have a lot more to go in my journey) but my brain feels scrambled…. Would love to hear your guys views.

@theoneandnone please don’t do anything that harms your body… I think what would benefit you is some basic Buddhism. Just observe these thoughts and emotions come and go. If you’re having such a strong REACTION to them. I think detachment and mindfulness from your thoughts could do you some good and find peace. I wish you well. It breaks my heart to hear your going through a this hardship

I sorta feel a pit in my chest when I stare at the mirror which makes me feel whatever is happening is probably gonna dissolve my ego. I’m kinda freaked out but I’m gonna go for it anyways my gut is sorta telling me to just stare into the mirror with not knowing/deconstructing sorta as a background for my thoughts. For some reason I feel nervous to start this practice. Anytbody have experience with this? I really doubt I’m gonna conjure up some Bloody Mary stuff , must be me afraid of what I find. I would love to hear your guys input

I’ve done DXM and Kriya yoga and that literally had my energy snap into my head and I was in the void state when I opened my eyes it literally felt like I was simultaneously on the ocean floor while being at the peak of everest but at the time I did lack the consciousness to hold the state and further contemplate and deconstruct. I would be careful kundalini can be destabilizing if it’s awoken with psychedelics (speak from experience) well dxm isn’t a psych but I would say any aid just be careful. With mushrooms I can feel the energy in my body better I don’t think I recall having a breakthrough with the mushrooms tho.

I remember when I woke up a few times no major breakthrough but I couldn't help but laugh and facepalm

Due to that be all I can get my hands on ATM I am curious if anybody has experience? I’ve tried treehouse before”mushroom gummies” and have had a sense of voidness and emptiness. But it wasn’t like straight 4 aco or good ole shrooms. Of anybody has experience please lemme know what you thought I’m curious because I’m gonna try soon. I’ll actually fast beforehand to avoid wanting to puke.

I must say just the fact that something so fucking strange is possible. Consciousness… consciousness can really conjure up some wacky stuff… 😟 I was young and naive I smoked it in my tree house with the plan of quickly coming down and enjoying it inside the house well I realized “uh oh here we go again” I fell out of my treehouse landed on my side by the grace of god, after I landed it was like a infinite amount of other beings that I couldent see were laughing at my pain and terror like it was a stand up comedy show. The house became alive with the eyes like windows bouncing up and down like a fun house. Pure terror really gotta be careful with salvia!!! Your in such a out of your mind state and you can still move around I saw a video once of a guy who freaked out and jumped thru his window…

I guess I’ll be the lab rat 🫡

@Someone here thank you! I’ll report back my findings 🫡

I feel like I wanna sorta just sit there. Not even meditate or zazen, just sorta exist. I changed my career back to more passive security like luxury retail as opposed to more hands on stuff like asset protection. I found Leo’s video on true spirituality amazing and I feel like maybe I’m walking into a a trap of not wanting to do anything and just sit. My monk friend he calls himself a lazy monk thats why he wanted to become a monk. I used to wanna be a monk but idk how I feel about being locked into one way, I sorta feel like playing monk instead I admit sometimes if I do zazen at home I’ll wear my practice uniform. Do you guys think this attitude of do nothing sorta giving zen vibes and tao vibes is a trap? I don’t feel much ambition anymore I achieved my dreams now with my health on the decline I sorta just wanna chill. If anyone has experience in this way of being and knows some potential pitfalls or maybe this is a pitfall itself, idk, I’m no spiritual genius I think I’m under developed as a matter of fact of genuine spirituality whatever that means, if it’s even a real thing idk.

Yes, once my mind was deconstructed and I broke through to the void YES everything I knew and loved vanished like waking up from a dream. No suffering no duality no more anything just you all alone where you have always been, nowhere!!!! 🥳 can’t ever speak of it accurately but I think it’s good to say you ARE nowhere and nothing a void

Could I be wrong? Is there no self? Know what fuck this im starting from scratch.

Im watching Leo’s gaslighting video lol

I had a dream Loona from helluva boss (yeah thats my crush 😎🤷‍♂️) was on my couch. This was as I was drifting asleep and I realized OH SHIT THERES NOBODY THERE!!! This led to realizing this whole thing of wanting a partner that I’m a creature who is called a human who is male who wants to be with a woman who is another human creature because my pp feels good looking at her I wanna do her, this whole narrative was made INSTANTLY clear to me that it’s just a story that justifys the self. The story I am a creature called a human who finds a furries hot 🤣. But it’s just that, a story. that was my personal little Leo’s patented TADAA 🥳 moment. Thought that would be funny to share and a little insightful. I feel no less human and my ego still stands. But seeing through the story was def an eye opener. I want to practice more lucid dreaming because there’s huge opportunity in it. Even just to meditate in dreams. I’ve experienced the void just like a dmt breakthrough in a dream state (I got freaked up and woke up) so I DEF agree that lucid dreaming can be a POWERFUL tool.

I work as an asset protection detective I’m pretty much a guy who gets paid to catch thieves. When I got the job it literally is my dream job, the action and thrill all that stuff. But now as I become more conscious I find myself more nervous making apprehensions and not wanting to fight. I still love the job and I don’t wanna give it up. I just feel some tension between being my more spiritual lovey friendly self and the me I gotta be at work which is WAY different . I would love to hear some perspectives on this topic I think it would be intresting. Maybe I’m just getting tired of it

I think preaching to a monk is insane enough, but I didn’t truly understand what Leo meant by fundamentalism until I saw this. What’s crazy is that I get seriously hardcore MAGA vibes from this. I did no research to verify this but idk it’s making me think of the state of USA, trump, ICE (who I perceive as modern day nazis from what the media portrays (I’m sure there are good cops and bad cops but the idea of ICE doesn’t sit right with me) and these dictator vibes I get from trump being in office. I would love to hear what you guys think of the fundamentalists who protest the monks with such IMPOSING force. I see it as survival. If they admit they have a narrow lense they would have to re-think EVERYTHING. Not comfortable. I struggle to admit it was me who clogged the toilet!

LOL! glad im not the only one, this shit sucks! im still a bouncer and a bodyguard but thats nothing like what i. was doing before (i got fired from the dangerous job for breaking policy during a catch) blessing in disguise, think im ready to go back to the more slow, hands off work like luxury retail security

@Natasha Tori Maru yes, when im about to make an arrest i do breath heavy and get a feeling in my tummy and throat. i would bge outside like 0_0 and then once i get the order to make the stop i hide it behind >:/. fear fades the instant a fight breaks out tho and i gotta use the handcuffs.plus i usually have backup on the spot with me so that eases tension.

Yoooooo those funhouse vibes…. Been there…. I didn’t find it funny tho

@Staples it’s the part where I gotta fight… not every shoplifter goes peacefully. You wouldent believe some of the madness, homeless people with needles, some people dedicate and spit. It’s a really tough job. And I don’t have that same energy of being hungry for a fight anymore. Burned that karma so to speak

I noticed ive been getting a lot of activity in my crown chakra mind you I haven’t practiced Kriya yoga in a long time, so I went back to it starting with just Kriya pranayama BUT I go from throat to medulla straight to the crown chakra, is this a bad idea? Dangerous? Speaking of Kriya supreme fire, is it a bad idea to do it with the crown instead of heart?! Please let me know I have no guru and nobody to help me answer these questions I want to tread with caution. After a LONG TIME of dedicated (as much as I could) of zen and do nothing going back to Kriya yoga is AWESOME!!!! But I just want to be safe. Only side effects I really have to report is once or twice I was confused that was a possible one and today I got a minor headache like pressure near my crown. I’m excited to hear what you guys have to say!!!

people are scared of truth and i feel so bad :C

@UnbornTao think i remember seeing a post of someone saying what leo said was terrifying, i know when one of my managers saw me reading the book of not knowing, then after him asking me about it i flat out said "if your not ready stuff like this will give your an exestential crisis" i saw the look of fear in his eyes behind the chill and i felt it.... i know when i first realized it i was for somereason just awed and in love with it instead of freaking the fuck out, as most would.... it6s a sad topiuc tbh i even remember i heard a friend tell me sahe smoked weed once and she thought sdhe didnt exist and freaked out, lol later that day i introduced her to left and right ONLY and that gave her a mini soul shake. is there a vid where leo talks about this specifically?

i wanna try amanita gummies but dont know too much about them, anybody got stories? are they worth taking in the sense of actualized.org?

@Nathan not very motivating :C