Purple Man

I came to this forum to erase some of my last doubts, so I want to be very cautious and offer only that I am certain of. Embodiment comes with the toll of an ego that is there to keep separation alive. Oneness is its enemy because it means its end. But Consciousness does not fear Oneness, because Consciousness´nature IS one. Regarding practices, all I can say is it can´t be something we do one hour a day. Practice has to be the way we live. You can´t sustain mantras or watch your breath while engaging with the world, but you can be at all times ( I mean, all times) 1/stabilized in Awareness as your "base" 2/contemplating that every perception is a form Awareness takes 3/ be aware of the body as the avatar that allows the perception in the projection that the manifest Universe is. 1/Aware Space, 2/Light , and 3/ Form, with Form being a particular vibration of Light, and Light being the emanation of Awareness. All Light and Form flowing from you. Sorry if this does not help. But it might...

I think one of the reasons for solid, life-long spiritual practice is not only to gain trascendental insights, but to establish solid roots that will sustain big awakenings that otherwise would shatter our minds. Even realized beings keep doing their seemingly petty practices, like puja or mantras, and there is a reason for that. I remember that when I was a kid I was terrified when I scanned my consciousness at night before my sleep, and saw nobody there. Then I spent years being scared at the fact that people were only forms within my consciousness, while I was totally, completely alone. And if I had not gotten in touch with spiritual traditions and readings from highly developed individuals, I might have gone crazy.

@Leo Gura Thanks very much for the responses. Actually I think those two phrases would perfectly sum up my experience. One Consciousness, different stages of capability and reach. One Consciousness, differently developed perspectives. And I know that my present perspective´s development won´t show me the way the Universe works, but the Consciousness which is aware of the limitiation in my particular scope is the same one that would be conscious of the way the Universe (including my ass´hairs) works if my personal reach was high enough. The magnitude and subtlety of the perceived don´t change the ultimate nature of the Awareness to which they happen. It does not change the fact that I am God, even when my particular perspective is not able to access God´s perspective´s input. Is this coherent with your knowledge? A different thing is Love. My path is dry, and the certainty that I am No Thing/Absolute Awareness does not translate into love for manifestation. And I am not saying this in a depressed way. I am more than happy and enjoy my particular existence a lot, but the kind of Love you speak about is beyond my reach.

On your first questions: 1/my experience is one of unity of all perceptions within the bubble, time included. 2/The bubble appears and dissappears (deep sleep, for example), and this on/off is not perceived by the bubble itself or by any object within it, but from beyond. 3/ That "beyond" is total "no thing". No perception perceives. Only that "No thing" is capable of sustaining Creation. You also speak of there being more stages. Leo Gura frequently speaks about "Love". As Robert Adams righfully said, when you experience life in Advaita Vedanta´s way, you become some kind of cold fish until energies and love enter the game. I am in a particular moment when this knowledge (whether partial or not, it doesn´t matter) filters life´s high and lowlights. It gives a warmth, a constant satisfaction, but I certainly feel that the dry Vedanta realization is not as profound as Kashmir Shaivism, or any other metaphysics system that allows for a better integration, or for the appearence of Love.

Thank you very much, Leo. You´ve been very important in my last years´spiritual development. Regarding what you say, I think I am not being able to correctly express what I mean by Aware Space. You say that I can be 1000 times more aware. From your perspective, would it be correct to rephrase it and say that what I am aware of could be 1000 times more developed? If that´s what you imply, I´d totally agree , since I am very conscious of the limitations of what I can be aware of. But I can´t understand how the very Awareness that is aware of my PC is ontologically different than the Awareness that is aware of the subtlest realms. To me that´d be like going to the cinema and saying that the cinema screen where "The Lord of the Rings" is being projected is different from the one where "Casablanca" was projected last week due to the difference in the perceptions. In your experience, is the Awareness that is watching my text right now the same one from which you had your deepest realizations? If that is the case, I think you and I would be talking about the same thing: Absolute Awareness/Godhead, projecting and watching the manifest Universe. If that is not the case, then I think I´d have to dig deeper to understand your view:)

Hello and thank you, Nahm. I usually enjoy your posts:) Language is conceptual and has flaws, but we need it in order to communicate our experience. One thing I can assure you: there is no conceptuality in the unity of the manifest in that bubble or in the fact that it is perceived from beyond the bubble itself. It is direct experience. Thanks for both responses and the welcome. Maybe someone will take this even further and shed a clearer light.

@BipolarGrowth Now that I read the text you spoke about, I have a better understanding of your own post itself. And to be honest, I think that the "Aware Space" I speak about is not related to the "Boundless Space" the text details. There is nothing objective about Aware Space as I understand it. Furthermore, it contains any notion of "nothingness" or "boundless consciousness". Aware Space, or at least as I experience it, has only subjective qualities, and it is not even a dim nothingness or perceptible void of any kind. It is the place where everything happens. It provides everything that is perceptible with a context in which to appear, and it is that which knows it.

Thanks for the very detailed answer:) Within an hour I´ll be able to answer back.