darrellaydinbahy

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    I feel like this is the one major thing that really holding me back

    If i can just be stick with my good and productive habit

    I feel super frustrated and lost, it look very simple but yet i keep falling into this problem

    I don't understand it anymore, i hope someone in this forum can give some powerful advice and insight. 

     

     

     

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    I really need help. I really need help breaking out from this cycle, it's really holding me back.

    I keep falling and falling into my bad habits and addiction, it fucked me really hard, i can't stand it anymore, i don't want to give up but i just don't understand it anymore. I really need help i can't talk to anyone especially my parents and my friends because i've been asking them for help over and over again but i never change i keep falling specifically into the same problem again.

    All of those hard work will ended up waste

    Those running and push ups, shit i end up binge eating again

    Those books and knowledge that i read, gone because i keep melting up my neurons in my brain by watching porn and masturbate 3 times in a day

    and others stupid zombie-like activities
    i keep hating my self everyday, saying shit to myself, torturing myself and feeling suicidal.
    But in the end, time will just keep ticking...

    Shit! everytime i started being productive i even already expect that i will fall into this period again!

    It's been 3 years since i started personal development and i still have a long journey to come

    but how do i stop this?
    how to be consistent with being productive and happy?
    how do i stick with my good habits?