Julian gabriel

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@Asia P I MISS YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING

I just thought i'd share my wholesome self help adventure, i'm sure y'all folks have heard of Tony Robbins, well this gentleman guided me through the most intense 3 minutes of my thinking career let me tell you. he started off by recommending that I listen close because ACTIVE listening is even more important than talking, which is why humans have 2 ears and only one mouth. I consider this deep. or at least a topic worthy of typing about because like Charles Bukowski said, always keep ur chin up because the sun is just around the corner, or the hill, which is like a corner if a corner was more horizontal rather than vertical, maybe. Anyway what I meant to say was, after my dear pal Tony told me to listen ACTIVELY, he shared the answer to the meaning of life with me, he told me to find my life purpose, this reminded me of a headless chicken, I mean Leo Gura, and so I knew this was true bravery like a lion and not fear like a weed smoking part I animal, this story is almost done. thirdly, Tony told me that I am a smart ass and should learn to participate more respectfully rather than disrespecting those I admire and envy to see where their boundaries lie.

the more I test my breath each time I enter a new room and am suspicious of others gaslighting pertaining to location and structure like simply if I am dreaming or not I seem to acquire what I desire quicker and quicker as in a dream where it appears. I can feel a huge resistance to lucid dreaming because what if I. can no longer turn off the light? just as the fear of flying even an inch off the ground is, what if I am unable to return to earth 4 rest I am hypnotized by my love of sleep, if there was no death in between these lives and these lives weren't so similar every day and every night it would no longer feel like a fight and oooff scary stuffs

maybe because u can't handle honesty porn, remember when we did it you told me it was like dmt and u were dying? maybe u need to learn how to do that without falling over on ur side and losing grounding. perhaps ur grounding is too much about the subtle tongue guiding the masculine lust rather than an upward kundalini snake towards under standing.. maybe that's why u fell over.

um... yea definitely don't do what Leo said, go in ur head instead, we both know ur too mystical to feel conclusive about ur sadness from some random blood test result from a doctor so stop faking. me and u r spiritually gifted aliens with blue hearts and green heads blown up with emotional depth and vision like a real alien. since u love yogananda do what he suggested, try staying awake for 3 days straight and obsessing over this issue alone in the woods until u can't take it anymore, that's what I did last winter. I am still sad but I know my green alien head of chaotic compassion better. u r not trying to fix ur sadness obviously as always u r trying to actualize your true higher self, by integrating the beauty of blue.

Nothing turns me on anywhere near as much as watching femdom porn and I feel like something as niche and tied to something as significant as sex must have large psychological significance. Anyone have a grasp of what might make a man sexually submissive? and what the psychological significance may be? I also have been struggling to embrace surrender lately in my life in general which feels like a very masculine flaw which could be solved by becoming more feminine. The femdom porn feels like a forced surrender, similar to psychedelics. also my mom died when I was young and we’d fight a lot so that may play a role.

been seeing all the polarity I don't get y trump is so absolutely definitely bad according to Leo, never heard him say someone is so bad isnt this just a lose lose situation cause were still so divided? what about him is so end of the world type shit like chill damn

it seems there is a dimension of reality where others are only toys and it really is a dream. this may be a version of hell, and I may be the devil in it. once others are places for spirits to reside and its a lucid dream conducted by the mirror of internal and external

slightly clickbait title, because he responds quite often for someone of his status, however at times I will ask a very good question and I wonder why that particular one is left on read After the solipsism video I feel Leo has become too much about serving others positively to be as authentic, I find this really sad sometimes because having a hyper logical mind dissect reality publicly with disregard for the consequences to a large extent was incredibly raw, it was more artistic than almost anything. I'm partially posting this topic also because I feel it is probably something other forum members have frequently pondered. It seems that the type of hiding Leo is engaged in would come from a lack of trust of others, which is kinda understandable, FEAR OF OTHERS POSSESSING EQUAL KNOWLEDGE. I also feel this fear at times related to my fear of intimacy. of course there is also the main reason Leo gave himself for his change in style which was that he didn't want to harm others, I believe him, partly.

@LastThursday sounds like hard work

I just feel like i should be in control here it's just me in a big way, its all me in a bigger way, subconscious re-programming does sound like a sort of control. manifestation? idk how exactly, when I don't think and let myself desire without fearing what is desired it feels like that works sometimes... kinda it seems a-lot to do with which other energy u have some sort of inferiority complex in association with, that energy will control you. maybe the question is how to drop all inferior feelings, hm

definitely feels like my states of more unity

while on shrooms I tried to throw up with the regular will of resistance to the situation which did not work then I tried imagining throwing up in some law of attraction type way which let and allowed what I desired to happen to me then I threw up, without using my ego's will. if anyone could help me articulate wtf happened that would be much appreciated thx

thought it would be cool to create a thread of just the coolest most profound questions we can come up with without giving answers. Here's some examples: what happens after you leave the body? what do you think about throughout the day? what was the most traumatic experience of your life? what do you want most? are others concious? how to become immortal? what do you fear most? how to control reality? what makes reality exactly the way it is?

aweomse thanks leo

it literally makes me so happy by accepting how sad I be is that y?? idk y tho?

I think it's weird that sex is only legal once ur 17 in New York, the body becomes sexual way before that, and its not like 17 year olds are much smarter than 15 year olds, what do you think?

in my opinion the whole concept of "game" as a way of interacting with other humans only gets in the way of real connection and intimacy. maybe if u aim to show ur real personality as much as u can instead then maybe it won't feel so bad when ur rejected, that's what I do, it still feels bad but at least I get to know she's really rejecting who I genuinely am and therefore I probably wouldn't like her anyway in the long run if she doesn't like who I am. maybe the homeless guy was more real

maybe the desire for a life long partner is the desire to have a parent instead of a lover because romantic love doesn’t last it comes and goes so maybe a lover is naturally a temporary thing and a life long partner is the desire to return to childhood instead of growing up and realizing that the only one who is always there is yourself there is such value in being alone because ur forced to confront yourself without distracts, and that’s painful. maybe that’s what growing up is though maybe if society wasn’t set up around living consistently to have a job and AI did the working for us then we wouldn’t arrange relationships in a way which prioritizes stability and consistency but instead feel the wave of romance going up and down as a natural thing instead of something being wrong

kinda

solipsism is the most profound concept I know. what is above and beyond it? any concept more profound?

@Davino yeah I do feel like for me solopsism feels like tenstion between unity and division, when solopsism could rather be taken as that which encapsulates both

this satisfies me

it is understood that the beautiful sunrise is there because the eyes look at it. but it is not understood that the beautiful sunrise is beautiful as a reflection of the beauty of your own heart. it seems that I use actualized.org to invalidate my emotions, hopefully this post will be relatable to you too. when I listen to Leo's voice it is cold, love is often cold. but the heart is also often warm. the subjectivity of reality is not to be ignored as it so often it in philosophy, in these contemplations of the state of an external world, the state of the heart is ignored, hence it is not seen that the heart projects outwards these observations. the tree of life is the heart the tree of knowledge is the mind