Julian gabriel

Yep, that’s what happened, didn’t surrender.

After watching Leo’s video about solipsism I experienced a huge rush of energy and my whole body was vibrating. As I looked at some of my fingers it looked and felt like they were growing. I didn’t know what was going on. Later on I talked to an expert on the kundalini and he told me that he thinks I went through some sort of kundalini awakening. (I know nothing about kundalini) Im still very curious as to what happened that night, if you have any idea what may have happened to me please let me know.

Has anyone expanded their sensory body? And if so how did you do it? Once while riding in a car I expanded my sensory body to include the car so basically I felt like my body was the car and I drove around AS the car. It was a total accident that occurred after a kundalini awakening triggered by watching Leo’s video on solipsism. I haven’t been able to make it happen again but I want to.

What is it to be someone’s friend in your opinion? and how do you become a better friend? (your answer can be short, I’m just interested in hearing a lot of opinions)

I've built an identity around being smarter than other people, because I'm good with words and philosophy and psychology which makes me sound smart in everyday conversations. But I've always been terrible at math, so when I do it I don't feel like myself since I want to see myself as smart. Its difficult for me to see the beauty of math so I'm not really motivated to learn it, but i find myself in a position where I have to. How do I overcome my fear of it and recognize its beauty?

Anyone know of any models which are similar to spyral dynamics? especially models which show how patters are repeated in many seemingly unrelated places. As in how something can be seen in both in the mind and in the cosmos.

@herghly thanks. it was more like i felt like i had heard it before rather than not finding anything.

@Nilsi Anything specific that hes done? i already looked into him a little bit but i couldn't find much.

The times when I have been able to surrender my monkey mind or my feeling that I need to achieve something have been when I am forced by psychedelics or sex or another person to surrender. How do I surrender without being forced into it? I hardly ever hear philosophers or psychologists talk about how important it is to be able to be in a state of surrender. but it is so important because when I have surrendered the most have been the times when I have felt the most free.

I want to make a career out of psychedelics and study them but im not sue how. Is there a country where its legal to study them in university or somewhere else? idk how to.

it would help me a lot if it was able to be discussed

Why is the cup there? because I put the cup there wait hold on a sec....... its cause of the person who sold me the cup wait, no..... its cause somebody made the cup waiiiittttt a minute........ its because of the person who created the company which made the cup how do You answer this question?

@Leo Gura I got measles and was home for weeks, the whole town knew about it and it was in the papers. the school I went to was even closed down for a few weeks too. Then when I got to school the other kids didn't want to come near me because they knew I had been the one who was sick. Then my best friend who was also the most popular kid, took his hand and rubbed it in my hair then took the same hand and rubbed it in his hair in front of everyone to show them that I wasn't dangerous to be around, then everyone stopped avoiding me. this was when I was about 7. This made me feel loved for obvious reasons, I can't think of any real unique reason why this would. Maybe cause I wasn't sure how much he liked me beforehand so him doing that seemed to be conformation. Also being fast and having other kids admire me for being good at sports Madde me feels loved, because I felt better than them maybe idk. My mom used to put a lot of time and effort into my birthday parties, whenever other kids would come over they were surprised at how fun they were and I noticed that she did all of that for me so that made me feel loved because I felt like I was the centre of her world. Something that made me feel unloved was when my dad told me that if I were to become a pornstar he wouldn't want me living with him, this made me feel like his love was very conditional.

Ok so I entered a state once while on a car ride I became the car, in the sense of the car being my sensory body in the same way as my human body usually is. This was fucking cool. Id like to try again. How? thanks.

I feel like I need to get to the bottom of why i am me at this particular time. I get that im god imagining everything blah blah blah. but I wanna know why this exact dream. Is there even an answer to that question? or is the question why just a stupid fabrication. idk but I feel like I can't rest until I find out.

Hypothetically: there are no laws, there is no other, and most importantly: there is no punishment for your actions. of course the way of love is still the right way even if there is no reward for it and no punishment for not doing it. but really there is no way of love, because love is all so there can't be a particular path that is more loving than another. sooooooo what would you do?

sounds fun

I want to learn as much about the psyche as possible. But the path to do this isn’t clear because it seems to me that the psychology and psychiatry taught in the top colleges are misleading because they don’t understand what the mind actually is, similarly to how physics is misleading because they don’t understand consciousness. what’s the best way to learn about the psyche?

There is a part of me that strongly desires fame. Just to be seen, given a lot of attention. This seems to be really common for kids who grew up online. I got a lot of validation at a young age on social media for the way I look and got addicted to it. I tried deleting all social media to stop myself from seeking the attention, but years later the desire to be seen still follows me around. How do I get over this obsession?

Anyone do active imagination? (talking to parts of your mind through imagination) I want to get batter at it and further explore it. I've only done it a few times and already earned a lot. I talked to myself in my head from the perspective of me and I told me a lot about being ungrateful for myself and more stuff that I had been ignoring like laziness.

I have realized that Truth is absolutely relative, therefore seeking truth as if it exists as a thing within life is stupid. But I am still in the habit of seeking truth as if it is a real thing which can be acquired. How do I break this habit?

Whenever I enter a high consciousness state lately I seem to assume the worst of people and become afraid. Before when I would enter these states I would assume the best of people. I think ive found new parts of my shadow that are difficult for me to integrate so I'm projecting them, how do I stop doing this?

My theory is that his heart wasn't strong enough to keep up with with his mind. But idk that much about him so, could be wrong. Anyone else have a theory?

@Animo how is the alchemist about intuition?

I've noticed that i'm able to tell my heart chakra to open at will when i'm alone, in doing so immediately feeling a immense warmth in my chest and a state of peace. But when I'm with another person I can't do this. I think this may be linked to childhood trauma and making myself numb so others don't hurt me emotionally. how do you deal with this issue?