Julian gabriel

@Leo Gura i smoke weed 3 times a day everyday. the breath being made green by the flower shows how beauty will save the world through not knowing. it changes kundalini energy by forcing u to pay attention to the breath deeper

@Schizophonia maybe the guy she slept with was more of a distraction from the pain of the breakup than someone better, I have done the same thing after a breakup

@integral thx. I didn't go because I'm afraid of it needing to end when I return home without her since she won't move and I can't move, at least not in my present condition i don't want a vacation romance with her, kinda feels like that

i went to the airport to go to her i needed to transfer my money from cash to my bank to have enough 4 the flight but couldn't figure out a way to do this after trying i picked up a weed roach from the sidewalk and smoked it then i felt like i missed my dad and so i used my apple which i was keeping on the back burner incase i couldn't manage without it (except 4 the map) to call him then we met and i felt torn between 2 people i wasn't ever really able to decide so i just turned to weed as my need instead of my father or her few months later my father went to italy where she is and offered to pay 4 me to go to her but i chose the solitude and weed both my father and her are vegetarians, osho said eating meat keeps u within the dimension of need but the thing is I'm a vampire its not myfaultttttt the psychologists took my blood, they love it i just keep desiring your food i can feast on your perspectives for days then feast on food forgetting where it came from for there are so many who made it if u don't eat for a long time people will pressure u to eat but if u tell them u r fasting they think ur so disciplined and cool kid cudi said in entergalactic to love on purpose i fear having 2 much of a plan 2 fly away with peter pan

@Asia P oh ok. i remember u telling me that the new guy u found u would like stay with no matter what or something, maybe u just meant monogamy.

losing you is hard so he said you cheated when you didn't, like how I said u fantasize about me while with him when u didn't because I was angry at u for not wanting me anymore. u said he treated u like a princess, but didn't say how and you said that he called you paranoid when you complained, but only said u felt rejected, do u just mean rejected referring to trying other sexual stuff and because he used addictive pleasure motivated type drugs which damage his body? or is there more ur leaving out that made u feel rejected? hopefully he at least listened enough to try to explore with you why you feel rejected because i guess u don't completely know why also I'm curious what the woo woo apparently nonexistent issues were, i mean because u didn't say, i don't know if i think he was making sense or not

tom bombadill is the only character in lord of the rings who can resist the power of the one ring of power because his aura is encapsulated by music, he channels god through sound because the 4th dimension is where green heart has no influence 4 it is ex-pressed and so exposed always even, so fair like dostyefski saved us with beauty girl ur morality can shit on my face and i will prolly laugh cause im not hungry and my nose recognizes the value of crap because i need water u gonna ring it to me or do i need to tell u that i have always been apathy? but she knows thats not true only her tho

first u need to have something wrong with you for example my neck is tight from hunching the movements started on shrooms one day when i learned to surrender violently thrashing to loosen my spine its scary if you think about how you might hurt yourself but in the times when the body is twisted into the strangest shapes are often when the misalignments can be explored but paradoxically it is the simple normal boring stillness which radiates most vibrating nervous system growth my wisdom teeth were surgically removed so i absorbed the perspective of the surgeon (not that u need to absorb an other to do self surgery) i feel alot wrong with my body my father is an ashtanga yoga teacher, his body is more well aligned but his parents removed more of his teeth, i have all mine except 4 the wisdom teeth ps. if u dont got nothing wrong with u and still wanna do surgury just feel out more of how complex ur head is compared to ur big toe and u may feel a little misaligned

u do not dream on purpose it simply happens when you are relaxed enough to wonder mentally so u can integrate the unconscious similarly with the body, when it is surrendered still or relaxed enough and has structural issues from maladaptive alignments (like maladaptive daydreaming) it will move on its own to tweak out the bodily issued which aren't consciously grasped on its own partly subconsciously like a car that comes with a mechanic within people b movin around 2 much 2 feel it

you didn't even explain how to do it

u don't remember or care about abusing ur power to take down my posts Leo is incapable of letting freedom of speech happen here so he has people like u

if u approach women enough in person with the intention to get close to them they will curse you with their jealousy at your confidence in yourself to approach random beauty, women make themselves beautiful because they want to be desired, but still do not put in effort to initiate anything usually this lack of leadership on their part leads to them having penis envy i feel like most women want to cut my dick off

yeah and im not allowed to express having a rape fantasy, we know about ur kind of cancel culture feminism, u wish i was a dog with a muzzle so i could never get addicted to anything but the beauty of your divine feminine telling me what is allowed as i am an animal. and ur welcome for giving a response to a useless statement which u already said, u just wanna control me

he will probably start smoking more now because u said you’d stay with him forever but didn’t and cigarettes don’t lie like that so “We don’t trust you” - Pluto Hendrix

@Asia P They’re right I was getting you into trouble with this, because you weren’t asking to delve deeper into the self as much as you were asking for help to feel better. Be brave, not that I am. You are the elephant in my dungeon. We don’t trust us i was mr.nobody at the airport in nyc. wondering wether to go to you or stay with my dad, then I picked up some weed from the ground and lit it and I decided to stay with him simply out of how I felt in the moment. when we did honesty porn i felt like we weren’t communicating well then I smoked weed and felt more connected to you, explaining how I was planning to bring a bag which I had got 4 u 2 u. then you said it felt like dmt and that I was killing you I remember seeing my face smile an evil grin and yours too as you begged me to let you go and never contact you again I struggled to give you the “goodbye” that you needed I needed to ask my father to help me say goodbye. You said weed is my happiness button, you are right, and you may be the one I infected with my self hatred and infinite blue sadness, perhaps your love for the ocean will save you somehow through dmt in your beautiful third eye as my love for the woods saves me through Mary Jane from feeling too lonley to survive.

@Asia P yeah but the giver and the receiver are so far away from eachother sometimes that it’s not even a phone anymore it’s just a magnetic pulsing aura of blood and maybe sweat and definitely tears

@Asia P how will u fix the issue?

@No1Here2c @No1Here2c in identification with the meat? How does identifying with it relate to the iron in the blood thing?

@Asia P I have the same problem I’m dealing with, I’ve been told that it comes from not eating enough meat sometimes so I might eat more meat probably

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@Asia P I MISS YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING

I just thought i'd share my wholesome self help adventure, i'm sure y'all folks have heard of Tony Robbins, well this gentleman guided me through the most intense 3 minutes of my thinking career let me tell you. he started off by recommending that I listen close because ACTIVE listening is even more important than talking, which is why humans have 2 ears and only one mouth. I consider this deep. or at least a topic worthy of typing about because like Charles Bukowski said, always keep ur chin up because the sun is just around the corner, or the hill, which is like a corner if a corner was more horizontal rather than vertical, maybe. Anyway what I meant to say was, after my dear pal Tony told me to listen ACTIVELY, he shared the answer to the meaning of life with me, he told me to find my life purpose, this reminded me of a headless chicken, I mean Leo Gura, and so I knew this was true bravery like a lion and not fear like a weed smoking part I animal, this story is almost done. thirdly, Tony told me that I am a smart ass and should learn to participate more respectfully rather than disrespecting those I admire and envy to see where their boundaries lie.

the more I test my breath each time I enter a new room and am suspicious of others gaslighting pertaining to location and structure like simply if I am dreaming or not I seem to acquire what I desire quicker and quicker as in a dream where it appears. I can feel a huge resistance to lucid dreaming because what if I. can no longer turn off the light? just as the fear of flying even an inch off the ground is, what if I am unable to return to earth 4 rest I am hypnotized by my love of sleep, if there was no death in between these lives and these lives weren't so similar every day and every night it would no longer feel like a fight and oooff scary stuffs

maybe because u can't handle honesty porn, remember when we did it you told me it was like dmt and u were dying? maybe u need to learn how to do that without falling over on ur side and losing grounding. perhaps ur grounding is too much about the subtle tongue guiding the masculine lust rather than an upward kundalini snake towards under standing.. maybe that's why u fell over.