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  1. @P Michael @zurew @NoSelfSelf @How to be wise Thank you for your responses
  2. Hi, I find it very hard to make a distinction in my every day to day life, the difference between being blamed versus being gaslighted. For example, if someone accuses me that I had COVID-19, first, and I began spreading COVID-19 to everyone in my house while in reality, I never had COVID-19. In this scenario, it's hard for me to know whether I am being blamed for the fact that I started COVID-19 in my house or I am being gaslighted for the fact that I started COVID-19 in my house. So, I would like to hear your guys opinion on the difference between blaming and gaslighting so I can make a distinction between these two in my every day to day life. Thanks
  3. Thanks for the encouraging comments. I am studying medicine and I am aiming to be a doctor. I wish to live in a stage green country like Canada.
  4. @Hibahere I am from Pakistan who embarked this journey. I am from Peshawar, Pakistan. The main obstacle, I faced are those obstacles which a person will face when transitioning from stage blue to stage orange. For example, I am trying to get an education and go to university in my city but people here are discouraging me or creating problems for me to go to university because they believe that going to a mudrasa to study the Quran will serve me better than going to university which shows that people around me are stage blue. Also, people in my city are not interested in topics like self actualization, love, philosophy, contemplation and meditation because it does not fit their worldview of Islam. Addition to that, their is this mentality in my city that men should go out and work while women should stay at home to cook food. Due to this mentality, my family does not let me do tasks like doing laundry, cooking, cleaning house or cleaning dishes in the kitchen since they believe that men cannot do such kinds of work which restricts my growth. Finally, their is no dating or relationships in Peshawar, Pakistan. Womens here wear burqa when in public and no girl here walks in public without hijab. Therefore, I cannot do any dating in this city which further limits my growth. Due to all these problems, I decided to leave Pakistan and go to China to complete my university education on scholarship. Currently, I got admission and I got scholarship in China.
  5. Entry number: 105 Date: Somewhere between 2012 to 2014 Grade: 3 Age: 9 years Who: Mom My mom wrote a Math problem which is grade 3 level on a piece of paper and asked me to solve it. However, I was not able to solve the Math problem so she hit me several times. Also, she took that Math piece of paper and teared it to several small pieces. This cycle repeated a couple more times until it was time to sleep. My dad came and saw the situation. However, he ignored it. Entry number: 106 Date: 2010 Grade: 1 Age: 6 Who: Mom Once, I was going to use the washroom, but my mom, went to the washroom first and took a mug, filled with cold water, then she threw that cold water on my face, 2-3 times. Entry number: 107 Date: 2010 Grade: 1 Age: 6 Who: Mom One day, I woke up, but I was pretending to be asleep. After 15 minutes, my mom gave a slap on my face, to wake me up. She did not give me breakfast and she sent me to school without lunch as a punishment for waking up late for school. Entry number: 108 Date: 2010 Grade: 1 Age: 6 Who: Mom One day, I stole one thousand Pakistani rupees. The next day, my mom caught that one thousand rupees in my bag. As a result, for my punishment, she did not give me breakfast and she sent me to school without giving me food for lunch. When I came back from school, she locked me up in a room for several hours as a punishment for stealing. Entry number: 109 Date: 2010 Grade: 1 Age: 6 Who: Mom One day, my brother and sister were fighting. My mom intervened the fight and hit my brother really hard. After a few moments, she came to me and hit me on my neck. She told me that she hit me on my neck because I taught my brother about beating and violence. Entry number: 110 Date: 2010 Grade: 1 Age: 6 Who: Mom My friend was coming to my house for a visit. So that day, my dad and I went across the street to buy pizza's. However, we could not come across any place that sell pizza's. As a result, we came to home empty handed. My dad told my mom that their is no place near the neighbourhood that sells pizza's. My mom saw me licking my lips which made my lips inflamed and sore. She gave me a tight slap on my face and due to this, I was feeling a burning sensation on my face. Entry number: 111 Date: 2010 Grade: 1 Age: 6 Who: Mom One day, I spitted on someone from my rooftop. Then people started gathering around and began throwing stones on the mirror of my house, however, it did not break the mirror since the mirror was strong enough to withstand those stones. Then, my mom came out and asked me, that who is throwing stones. She went to the neighbours and asked them that why they were throwing stones at our house. The neighbours told my mom that they were throwing stones because I spit on one of the kids. So, my mom gave me a tight slap on my face and asked me why did I spit on them. My mom told to everyone, that she gave me a tight slap on my face. Entry number: 112 Date: 2013 Grade: 1 Age: 6 Who: Mom One day, I gave the taxi the wrong street to take a U-turn on. Then my mom told my driver the correct street name to take a U-turn on. My mom asked the taxi driver, if I told him the wrong direction to take the U-turn on. The taxi driver said yes and as a result my mom hit me on the neck for that. Entry number: 113 Date: 2014 Grade: 4 Age: 9 Who: Mom Once, when I was returning home from the school I accidentally took my friend bag and bought my friend bag to my house instead of mine. My mom hit me in the house as a result of this mistake. Then, she called a taxi and she hit me in the taxi too, for this mistake. Then she told me to buy some bread from the bakery, however, I bought the wrong number of breads and she hit me due to this. My mom hit me due to this again and the taxi driver bought the correct number of breads. Then my mom returned my friend bag to him once we reached my friends house. Entry number: 114 Date: 2010 Grade: 1 Age: 6 Who: Mom One day my mom was preparing me for school and my female cousin came. My mom hit me several times with a belt in-front of my female cousin. Entry number: 115 Date: 2010 Grade: 1 Age: 6 Who: Mom I was in the kitchen with my mom. My mom told me something which I don't remember. Then she gave me a tight slap on my face which made me to feel a burning sensation on my face. My mom asked me whether my face burns and she told me that its a good thing that my face burns.
  6. Entry number: 101 Date: Somewhere between 2014 to 2016 Grade: Somewhere between grade 4 to 6 Age: Somewhere between 8 to 12 Who: Dad Once, I was going to the mosque with my dad. On the way to the mosque, my dad told me to do something for him which I don't remember. I did not listen to my dad. As a result, my dad punched me hard on my bladder in front of the public while I was going to the mosque with him. I felt a lot of pain. When I came to home back from the mosque, then I told to my mom about this. That night my mom made a big fight with my dad about this. Entry number: 102 Date: During summer months Grade: 3 Age: 9 Who: Mom My mom took a stick and began beating me on my legs. I tried to defend myself with a small gun toy. However, she was hitting so hard that the gun toy broke and her hitting with a stick resulted in a scar on my leg. Entry number: 103 Date: October Grade: 6 Age: 12 Who: Mom I took the TV remote from my mom without her permission. She found that out that she hit the remote on my head so hard that my head was bleeding. I took ice from the fridge and used it to heal the bleeding place on my head. Later, that bleeding spot turned into a wound on my head. Entry number: 104 Date: August Grade: 3 Age: 9 Who: Mom It was Eid ul Fitr on this day. Everyone was dressing up with nice clothes. The boys were wearing the beautiful dress of shalwar and kameez. The girls were wearing their traditional dress and applying mehndi on their hands. After the Eid prayer, I came back to home. At home, the family was planning to take pictures of the Eid festivals. However, unexpectedly, my mom gave me a beating in front of everyone on the Eid day. Then, she began to scold me and beat me in front of everyone. After that my aunt came and began to comfort me. After that incident, my mom beat me once again. I began crying. Then my aunt cleaned my tears from my face by swiping her hands on my face. I will name her S, the wife of my mom's brother. Then the process began for taking the pictures. I was crying in all of them and later my mom showed me the pictures in which, most of them, I was crying.
  7. Hi, I applied to so many universities abroad and I got acceptances letter from some universities across the world. I am confused as to in which country should I do my university degree in. The list go as below: 1- China in medicine. 2- Pakistan in dentistry. 3- Russia in medicine. 4- Canada in pharmacology and biochemistry. 5- United States of America in life sciences and health science. What do you guys think? Any advice? Any suggestions? I will be grateful for any help you can give me.
  8. Guys, I made a decision. I want to go into the field of healthcare so the best field in healthcare would be doctor and living in China would be much more easier for me than living in Russia due to weather. Therefore, I decided to go into medicine in China. @Thought Art@blueberries@KH2@Devin@Identity I thanks all of you for the advice you gave me.
  9. A piece of feedback from me would be to add captions/subtitles to your videos. For example, a few of your videos such as those mentioned below don't have captions: - How to study - Deconstructing the myth of science part 2 and 3 Also, when you are uploading any content on your blog such as a video then make sure it has captions/subtitle in it. I think this feedback will improve actualized.org because those people who are deaf or have severe hearing loss will be able to understand your content.
  10. Entry number: 99 Date: N/A Grade: 6 Age: 13 Who: Parents I returned back from school. As soon as I returned back from school, I took one hour nap. Then I got up to do my homework. I did my homework and finished it. The final hour of my day is spent playing video games. So I went to my mom and asked her to give me my iPad to play video games. My mom said no. She said I will get iPad only once a week. I kept on asking for iPad but she kept on neglecting me. Then she went to sleep and my dad went to sleep to. As she was sleeping I kept on asking for iPad but she was sleeping. After that I started saying hello...hello...Then she get up and asked me what? I said that I want to play on my iPad. However, she said no, she will not give me iPad. I kept on saying hello...hello...My siblings told my mom to make me to stay quiet so that they can sleep peacefully. However, I did not stay quiet and I kept on saying hello...hello...Then my dad came. My dad told to my mom to give me iPad but my mom said no and she told to my dad that just because I keep on asking for iPad does not mean that she will give it. Then my dad took my arm and put me in my room then he went to sleep. However, I got up from my room and went to my mom again. I asked her to give me iPad but she refused. Then I kept on saying to her hello...hello...After this, my dad came out again and made me to lay down on the floor. Then he took his feet and hit his feet against my chest like 3 times. Then he grabbed me by my neck to my room. After that, my mom took her stick and began to beat me several times and asked me whether I would ask for iPad again or no. I said no. My mom said bohl. My mom then told me to run to my bed. I ran to my bed so that she could stop beating me with her stick. Then she stop beating me and she with my dad went away. She grounded me for one whole month and did not give me my iPad for like a whole month. She kept on taunting me about this event for several years. Entry number: 100 Date: N/A Grade: 1 Age: 7 Who: Mom I was at my aunty's house. I don't recall what did I do. However, my mom took a slipper and hit me several times while my cousin tried to shield me from my mom.
  11. Hi, Currently, I am 18. I failed my entrance exam for my university. I don't know how to tell this to my parents as they will put me in deep trouble if they find out that I failed the exam. I am suppose to graduate at age of 22 but since I failed the entrance exam, I will have to take a gap year thus wasting a year in my life which means I will graduate later than 22. I don't know what to do in my life or what my next steps should be in my life. I am so sick from living in my mom's basement. I feel so lost in life. If anyone can give me suggestion, for what to do in my situation, I will really appreciate it. Thank you
  12. Entry number: 52 Date: I forgot Grade: 8 Age: 14 Who: Madam turcotte Once I punched a boy very hard. My teacher saw the red mark I made on the boy's arm. The teacher wrote my name and the other boy name on a piece of paper. She ask that boy several times whether he was okay. Then she sent us to the principal office. On the way that boy told me a plan for how to get out of trouble. He told me to tell the principal that he pushed me and then I accidentally punched him. However, he did not carry out the plan at the office which made both of us in trouble at the office. After that, the principal called our both parents to the school. I felt a bit traumatized because this was the first time I was in trouble at school. Entry number: 53 Date: I forgot Grade: 4 Age: 10 Who: Mr. Imran Once, I was writing a lesson on the board. Mr. Imran was standing on the way. I politely told him to get out of the way but he didn’t listen. Instead he yelled at me very loudly in which he said no. My Math teacher also told me to not tell the English teacher who was Mr. Imran to get out of the way. Entry number: 54 Date: I forgot Grade: 4 Age: 10 Who: Mr. Imran Mr. Imran was beating so many students because they were not doing their homework. When my turn came, he thought I didn’t do my homework so he hit me hard on the back. Then he saw I did my homework after which he left me. Entry number: 55 Date: I forgot Grade: 4 Age: 10 Who: Mr. Imran The first time when I saw a man beating was when I was in grade 4 with this teacher. This teacher hit students hard on their back several times because they were talking. Entry number: 56 Date: I forgot Grade: 4 Age: 10 Who: Mr. Imran Once, I did not do my homework so Mr. Imran hit me on the back hard. He hit all those students on the back hard of those who didn't do their homework. Entry number: 57 Date: I forgot Grade: 4 Age: 10 Who: Mr.Imran Once Mr. Imran saw me talking with a friend. He called me up infront of the class and slapped me infront of the class. Entry number: 58 Date: I forgot Grade: 4 Age: 10 Who: Mr. Khurram (urdu) Once, I did not do my urdu homework. Mr. Khurram saw that. He told me to put out my hand or show my hand to him because I did not do my homework. I put it out and he hit me twice with ruler on each of my hand. Hence, this happened in front of the entire class. Entry number: 59 Date: I don't remember Grade: 7 Age: 13 Who: Mr. Ansar I was talking to a friend of mine. Mr. Ansar saw me and asked me whether I don’t have class. He asked me this question twice during which I did not understand him. Then, he asked me the third time during which I understood him. Hence, I told him that I do have class then he yelled at me and told me to go to class. I felt emotionally abused during this event. Entry number: 60 Date: I don't remember Grade: Kindergarden Age: 5 Who: Kindergarden teacher The kindergarden teacher wrote a question on the board. She told to all the students to answer the question. The question went something like what is 68+28 equal to. Then she went around the entire class. She saw each student answer. The student who answered it wrong gets beaten up by the teacher. I remembered once I answered a question wrong. The kindergarden teacher hit me hard because of my wrong answer. This happened to me at least once in the classroom. Entry number: 61 Date: I don't remember Grade: 7 Age: 13 Who: Mr. Chandra mohan bisht Once, I went out the class without teacher permission. Mr. Chandra Mohan Bisht saw that and told me to lay down in front of the class due to that. Then he told me to stand up and told me as to why he told me to stand up infront of the entire class. He told me something like, I went outside the class one time without his permission during which he said nothing but then I went outside again which was bad. Entry number: 62 Date: I don't remember Grade: 7 Age: 13 Who: Mr. Chandra mohan bisht Once I was accused of roaming around the school. Mr. Chandra Mohan told me to stand infront of the class with hands up. Entry number: 63 Date: I don't remember Grade: 4 Age: 10 Who: Science lab teacher Once I was secretly trying to see the Science lab which I was not allowed to go into. The science lab teacher saw that and started chasing me including three other classmates but we all got away. Entry number: 64 Date: I don't remember Grade: 7 Age: 13 Who: Mr. Arif Once, I was going to the washroom. I saw the most strictest teacher at the school who was sir Arif. Mr. Arif told to some boys to go to class and he raised their hands on them. Entry number: 65 Date: I don't remember Grade: 7 Age: 13 Who: Mr. Arif Once, Mr. Arif, came to our class. He showed a bunch of after class pictures showing how the students makes the class a mess after they leave. Mr. Arif was going around and asking each of us in regards to who did this. He yelled at each of us and asked us that you did not did? You did not did? Entry number: 66 Date: N/A Grade: 7 Age: 13 Who: Vice principal Once, I was roaming around the school with a friend. The teacher called me along with my classmate to come to him. He took us to the vice principal. The vice principal told them to send us back to class and he is not sending us to the saudi director. I asked who is the saudi director. The vice principal sent us to saudi director and suspended me and my classmate from the school for like the rest of the school year. Entry number: 67 Date: I don't remember Grade: 7 Age: 13 Who: Examiner teacher Once I was walking in the classroom. The examiner teacher saw me and told me to stand up against the wall and raise my arms up because he thought I cheated while in reality I didn't cheat in the exam. Entry number: 68 Date: I don't remember Grade: 7 Age: 13 Who: Examiner teacher I was taking my examinations in the examination hall. During the examinations, the examiner teacher was walking around the hall and staring at each student very deeply including me which was making me very terrified. Entry number: 69 Date: I don't remember Grade: 7 Age: 13 Who: Sir Kamaran Once I arrived late to class by 20 mins. Mr. Kamaran told me to stand up and raise my arm up due to my 20 minutes late arrival. He told to the whole class to stand up and raise their arms due to their late arrival. However, I did not play or did gym with the class. I did it alone outside the school because my class hated me and did not want me to do gym with them. Due to this reason, I could not keep track of time as I did not have access to a clock or I did not have access to a teacher who could tell me when the gym period was over. Entry number: 70 Date: I don't remember Grade: 4 Age: 10 Who: Mr. Burhan Once I accidentally filled in the exam answer sheet incorrectly. Mr. Burhan was going around the exam hall checking each student bubble answer sheet paper. Then he saw my bubble sheet answer paper. After which, Mr. Burhan hit on my head with a microphone due to that. Entry number: 71 Date: I don't remember Grade: 4 Age: 10 Who: Mr. Urfan Once Mr. Urfan called me an animal and I called animal back to him. First, Mr. Urfan asked the class as to what did I say back to him. The class told him that I called him an animal. Mr. Urfan hit me on the back at least ten times due to this. The class labelled me as that I am my best friend protector. Entry number: 72 Date: I don't remember Grade: 4 Age: 10 Who: Mr. Urfan Mr. Urfan goes around the class to collect everyone assignment. He hits those students who don't hand in their assignment. Once, I did not hand in my assignment. Mr. Urfan hit on my back 3 times due to this. Entry number: 73 Date: I don't remember Grade: 4 Age: 10 Who: Mr. Ufan Once I was going to my seat. Mr. Urfan slapped me on my head because I was not at my seat at the first place. Entry number: 74 Date: I don't remember Grade: 4 Age: 10 Who: Mr. Ehab Mr. Ehab told me to take the attendance properly. He told me that if I did not take it properly then he would hit me with a knife or he would kill me. Entry number: 75 Date: I don't remember Grade: 4 Age: 10 Who: Mr. Urfan Mr. Urfan was reading a book and I was suppose to follow along him but I could not. Since, I could not, later he asked me in the class on which page he was. I could not tell where he was so he hit me on the back due to this. Entry number: 76 Date: I don't remember Grade: 4 Age: 10 Who: Mr. Urfan Once I did not do my homework. Sir Urfan hit me a lot on the back due to that. Entry number: 77 Date: I don't remember Grade: 4 Age: 10 Who: Mr. Latif I talked in the class. Mr. Latif hit me in the back due to it and told me that I should not talk in the class. Entry number: 78 Date: I don't remember Grade: 7 Age: 13 Who: Mr. Rizwan Everyone did not do their project/homework except me. Mr. Rizwan made everyone to lay down except me. I felt emotionally abused because he abused everyone infront of me. Entry number: 79 Date: I don't remember Grade: 7 Age: 13 Who: Mr. Rizwan Once, Mr. Rizwan went to my classmate. He opened my classmate notebook. Then, Mr. Rizwan beat a very tight slap to my classmate that his face became red. I heard Mr. Rizwan muttering angry words to my that classmate. Entry number: 80 Date: I don't remember Grade: 7 Age: 13 Who: Mr. Rizwan Mr. Rizwan was yelling to the class to stay quiet. Entry number: 81 Date: I don't remember Grade: 7 Age: 13 Who: Mr. Rizwan Once I went with Najeeb to get my book photocopy. Mr. Rizwan did not ask me to go. When I came back, Mr. Rizwan asked me as to why did I go when he did not give me permission. My classmates helped me by telling Mr. Rizwan and making him believe that he told me to go as well. At first Mr. Rizwan was confused but then later he accepted it and told me to go to my seat. I felt saved from the beating I thought he was about to give me. Entry number: 82 Date: I don't remember Grade: 7 Age: 13 Who: A female teacher Once a boy student was caught cheating and the lady teacher caught the boy and threw his exam in the garbage. The boy told to the female teacher several times sorry and he was crying when he was telling her. Regardless, she threw his exam in the garbage and she failed him. I felt emotionally abused during this time. Entry number: 83 Date: N/A Grade: 7 Age: 13 Who: Mr. Kamaran Once Mr. Kamaran hit really hard on one boy neck. His neck was red and he was crying. He cried and went all the way to the school playground. Mr. Kamaran told all the teachers to let him leave and leave him alone including my English teacher. Entry number: 84 Date: I don't remember Grade: 7 Age: 13 Who: Mr. Matti Once Mr. Matti told a boy to stand up and put his hands up. Mr. Matti told to that boy to not stand against the wall and he suspended him from the school. Entry number: 85 Date: I don't remember Grade: 4 Age: 10 Who: Grade 4 urdu teacher Once an urdu teacher bought the boys from another class and told them to stand up. He also told them to raise their hands against the wall. I think he bought those boys from another class because they were naughty in the other class. Entry number: 86 Date: I don't remember Grade: 4 Age: 10 Who: Grade 4 urdu teacher Once grade 4 urdu teacher hit me on my hand with a ruler because I was talking. Entry number: 87 Date: I don't remember Grade: 4 Age: 10 Who: Grade 4 Arabic teacher Once, my grade 4 Arabic teacher hit me on the back because I was talking in the classroom. Entry number: 88 Date: I don't remember Grade: 4 Age: 10 Who: Mr. Kamaran the math teacher Once me and the entire class were yelling and screaming across the hallway. Then, we ran and reached our class. Then, this teacher came to the class and hit every single one of my classmates which includes me for this act. Entry number: 89 Date: I don't remember Grade: 4 Age: 10 Who: Mr. Abdul Majid Mr. Abdul Majid was going around the entire class, hitting each student who was talking. Once he hit on my back because I was talking. Entry number: 90 Date: I don't remember Grade: 4 Age: 10 Who: Mr. Abdul Majid Once he told me to stand up as my punishment for talking. Entry number: 91 Date: N/A Grade: 4 Age: 10 Who: Mr. Latif Their was a lot of people talking in the classroom. I was talking among my classmates in the class. The teacher in charge during this period told to those boys who were talking to stand up which included me. He told us to go out of the classroom as our punishment. Then, my grade advisor or my class teacher came. He told me to change my behavior. After which he told to the entire class to turn their face against the wall. Then this teacher known as Mr. Latif came. He was my gym teacher. He took his whistle blower tied to a rope and hit every single one of us on our legs with it. When my turn came, he hit me with a whistle as I was standing on my legs and he hit me with a whistle from the back. Entry number: 92 Date: I don't remember Grade: 4 Age: 10 Who: Mr. Latif I could not do gym because I was sick so Mr. Latif made me to stand against the wall due to this. Entry number: 93 Date: I don't remember Grade: 4 Age: 10 Who: Mr. Latif Once me and my classmates bought our items to play sport. I bought cricket bat with me to school so we could play cricket during gym time. However, Mr. Latif took the cricket bat and never returned it back. Hence, he stole my bat. Entry number: 94 Date: N/A Grade: 4 Age: 10 Who: Mr. Latif Once, I was standing in the assembly. The teacher went around makingsure that we had proper uniform. The teacher saw my uniform and realized that my uniform is not proper as I was missing a tie when I was wearing my uniform. My grade advisor notice that and sent me to the side of the field where all the students who didn't wear their school uniform and come to school in their incomplete uniforms. Then when all the students who wear wearing their full uniform went back to their classes. The gym teacher asked money from those students who were not wearing proper uniform. He dismissed those students to the classes who gave money for not wearing complete uniforms. Their was so many students including me who did not give money so we remained on the field standing with hands raised up due to not being in proper uniform. After one hour, he made me and those remaining students in the field to jog due to not being in proper uniform. Hence, I wasted my time on the school field for like one hour. Entry number: 95 Date: N/A Grade: 7 Age: 13 Who: Mr. Ikhram Once, I was talking among my classmates. Then , I stood quiet as Mr. Ikhram approached me. Then, he hit me on my back hard due to talking. Entry number: 96 Date: I don't remember Grade: 7 Age: 13 Who: Mr. Ikhram Once, I was bored in the school computer lab. I started to play games on the school computer. Mr. Ikhram recorded me playing games on the computer. Then he sent the recorded video to the principal after which I was suspended for a few months. Entry number: 97 Date: N/A Grade: 7 Age: 13 Who: Mr. Naseem Once, I did not do my social studies homework. Mr. Naseem, made me to lay down for not doing homework. Entry number: 98 Date: N/A Grade: 6 Age: 13 Who: Mr. SeraJ Once I was talking among my classmates and socializing among my classmates during classtime. Then, Mr. Seraj started beating those students who were talking on their necks. He hit me as well on my neck and my friends because we were talking.
  13. Entry number: 50 Date: N/A Grade: 5 Age: 11 Who: Mr. Rafiq Once me and my friend was going to the bench from the soccer field to take our water bottles. Mr. Rafiq saw us and he hit me but not my friend because he did not want us to go anywhere outside the soccer field due to supervision reasons. Also, he did not hit my friend because he was his favorite student. Entry number: 51 Date: N/A Grade: 5 Age: 11 Who: Mr. Rafiq All the teachers complained to my grade advisor Mr. Rafiq about the naughtiness I and my friend caused in the class. Mr. Rafiq beat me on my back 3 times. He put me and my friend in-front of the classroom. He beat my friend as well. He told me that I could not sit with my friends for the rest of the school year. I and my friend were crying infront of the whole classroom for the rest of the class.
  14. Entry number: 47 Date: May Grade: 5 Age: 11 Who: Mr. Ehab Once, my grade 5 Math teacher took a pencil and hit it on someone from the behind side. Entry number: 48 Date: June Grade: 5 Age: 11 Who: Mr. Ehab Once my grade 5 Math teacher hit a student on his backbone because he was talking. Entry number: 49 Date: Jan Grade: 6 Age: 12 Who: Mr. Malouhi I was sitting in the classroom. I was talking among my friends in my classroom. I saw my best friend crying in the front seat. Everyone else laughed at him because he was crying. Mr. Seraj took him outside the classroom and two teachers saw him crying outside the classroom. They were my Urdu teacher and my English teacher. Mr. Seraj called the school director, Mr. Malouhi, to tackle the situation. Mr. Malouhi was the director of the school. Mr. Malouhi called my best friend and one other student to his office. Then he called me and all of my friends to the office. When I arrived at the office, Mr. Malouhi took a ruler and began hitting me along with my friends with a ruler. Then I left the office. Later, my best friend explained to me that he was crying because someone punched him and hence he never cried before this incident.
  15. Entry number: 42 Date: November Age: 10 Grade: 3 Who: Urdu teacher I came late to school in the semester. The urdu teacher took my notebook and gave it to some other student and she told to the other student to write the lessons which I missed for me. Also, she called me bad words. Entry number: 43 Date: April Age: 12 Grade: 7 Who: Teacher on the bus It was a hot sunny day. A random teacher came in to the bus with me. She sat next to me. I became very hesitated. She stared at me for a long time. I felt it traumatic because I thought she would expel me from the school or confront me. Entry number: 44 Date: Feb Age: 9 Grade: 3 Who: Math teacher Their was a class monitor in the class. I could not keep my mouth shut in every single class. So I talk in the class a little bit. The monitor noticed that and wrote my name on the board because I talked. Then, my Math teacher came in and saw my name written on the board. She took a ruler and hit on my hand because I talked while she was outside the class. Entry number: 45 Date: Feb to May Grade: 6 Age: 12 Who: Mr. Eisa Whenever I ask my this Math teacher any question about Maths, he name calls me Albert Einstein. Entry number: 46 Date: May Grade: 4 Age: 10 Who: Mr. Majid My Math teacher left the classroom, I began to talk with other students. The Math teacher opened the classroom by surprise and watched me talking. He told me to come with him to his next class. He made me to stand up against the wall for 70 mins as punishment for talking when his class ended. He did not even let me know the reason from his mouth as to why he gave me this punishment.
  16. Entry number: 40 Date: Second monthly Age: 9 Grade: 2 Who: Science reacher I started saying certain drama terminology such as,"shut up." The teacher got annoyed with that. The teacher wrote a note to my parents in my diary to make me stop watching drama or tv shows so that I can learn my lesson. Addition to that, she beat me a lot. After that day, many students begin snatching the diary to read this note which the teacher wrote in my diary and began laughing at me. Entry number: 41 Date: May Age: 13 Grade: 7 Who: Grade 7 Math teacher I took one student notebook and was showing the Math teacher. The Math teacher hit me on my head.
  17. Hi everyone, I am a Pakistani who has been raised in Pakistan and spent my life in Pakistan. Recently, I began to watch many of Actualized.org videos on dating. My question is that how can I develop my dating skills in Pakistan? Dating in Pakistan is not possible. It is very hard to see a women without a burqa/hijab or even to talk to a women in a society where stage blue Islam is dominant like Pakistan, let alone dating. It is because in these Islamic dominant countries, dating is prohibited and even considered a crime where the punishment for dating is at least serving jail time, if not death. Also, the Pakistan society is structured in such a way due to various factors such as stage blue religion and morality where it is not possible to date any girl without marriage. Addition to that, my parents would also not allow me to date a girl. I know one solution is to go outside the country, but how do I go outside the country when I lack money? I would really appreciate if anyone can give me any suggestions regarding this. Thank you Have a great day
  18. Entry number: 31 Date: May Age: 9 Grade: 2 Who: Grade 2 Math teacher My grade 2 Math teacher left the classroom. She put a monitor in charge in the classroom. The monitor wrote a student name on the board because the student was talking. The student told the monitor to remove the name. The monitor refused and wrote more tally marks because that student confronted the monitor. Then the student went back and began talking to himself of how many Xs is the monitor writing. Then the monitor wrote even more Xs after which the teacher came. The teacher asked that student about why was he talking. Then the teacher beat him up a lot. I felt emotionally abused. Entry number: 32 Date: April Age: 9 Grade: 3 Who: Grade 3 Math teacher The class did not know the answer to one Math question on the board. The teacher yelled at the class and told the class that why didn’t they know the answer. The teacher kept on yelling and screaming at everyone in the class including me. The teacher told the class that she selected an example which the class wanted and the class can't give an answer to their own example. Entry number: 33 Date: November Age: 9 Grade: 3 Who: Grade 3 Computer Science teacher My one classmate taught me about one hack of computers but did not used it. I used it on a Computer for the sake of experimentation. Then the teacher asked me why did I used it and beat me a lot of it. She also moved me to a computer seat near her. Entry number: 34 Date: April Age: 9 Grade: 3 Who: Grade 3 English teacher My classmate asked a teacher a question about the exam. I just had a glance at that classmate but not at his exams questions. Then the teacher hit me on my neck for looking at his answers and told me to look at my own exams. Entry number: 35 Date: April Age: 13 Grade: 7 Who: Mr. Kamaran I was turning on the school bell of one section for a long time. Then Mr. Kamaran saw me and hit me on the back and students smiled due to that. Entry number: 36 Date: Mid terms Age: 9 Grade: 2 Who: Grade 2 Science teacher It was early in the morning. I stepped on the bus. I went at the very back. Then, my friends aunt came to me and asked me for homework. I told my friends aunt to continue walking and took her to my grade 2 Science teacher. My grade 2 Science teacher called me a bunch of bad words and sent me to the assembly. Entry number: 37 Date: Mid term Age: 9 Grade: 2 Who: Principal The school was over. My friends took the route to exit school where the teacher supervision was high. I was excited as the school was over. As in this excitement, I was running to my friends and pushing my friends bag, in joke. My principal saw me doing it. She taught I was misbehaving so she hit me a slap on my elbow. Addition to this, the teacher who witnessed this scenario also hit me a slap on my elbow. I felt abused and I went home. I felt so changed after this incident. I realized the true character after this incident and I was able to distinguish her reality from appearance. Entry number: 38 Date: Examinations Age: 9 Grade: 2 Who: My Science teacher My Science teacher saw me talking in my exam. She wrote on my paper minus 10 percent. Then I tried erasing it but I ruined the question paper. Then she threw my exam in garbage and gave me a mark of zero. Entry number: 39 Date: March Age: 10 Grade: 3 Who: Urdu teacher I did poor on some urdu tests. As a result, my urdu teacher asked me to get my parents signatures on those tests. I did not know during those times what signatures mean. As a result, I did not get signatures for my tests. My urdu teacher noticed that. My urdu teacher beat me with a stick and told me to go and get the notes.
  19. Entry number: 27 Date: N/A Age: 7 Grade: 1 Who: Urdu teacher My urdu teacher took a bunch of students and took them out plus hit them with a ruler. It is because they failed their tests. I felt emotionally abused that time. Entry number: 28 Date: March Age: 9 Grade: 2 Who: Grade 2 English teacher I was talking with four of my friends. The English teacher made us all four to stand up and bring us in-front of the class. I began dancing to show off. Then the teacher told me to come near her and hit me on my leg at least twice with her hand. Entry number: 29 Date: March Age: 9 Grade: 2 Who: My grade two classmates I was in an urdu class. Their were 3 students in the classroom talking about me and trying to make a plan to put a lipstick on paper and put it on my face. They took like an hour to make up the whole plan. The next day, Z brought the lipstick to the classroom in his bag. Then we all went to the urdu class. I was watching the whole scenario play out but I did not know the big picture of their plan. Z, put the lipstick on a paper. Then, A took the paper and put it on my face. After that, I was running to the washroom where my grade 2 Math teacher began laughing at me due to the lipstick on my face. Entry number: 30 Date: June Age: 13 Grade: 7 Who: Mr. Kamaran My physics teacher gave the entire class 30 minutes to study for the suprise oral test. All the class was not studying and were talking to each other, except me. As I did not have any friend and I was sitting alone in the class. After 30 minutes, my physics teacher got up and asked everyone in the class questions about physics. When my turn came, he asked me two questions. I did not know the answer to one of his questions. The teacher hit me hard on the stomach due to that.
  20. Leo, this is not possible in my area where I am living in because I live in a Pakistani village which is highly influenced by stage blue Islam. It is not possible to flirt with any girl at a Uni in Pakistan. It is because at a stage blue society such as Pakistan, their are laws put in place in the society where girls and boys cannot talk to each other. In Pakistan, it is a crime to date and flirt. My university will suspend me and put a case against me if they caught me flirting. I don't think its worth the risk to flirt secretly because even if I do that, my family members will catch me and take me to jail for it because its prohibited according to their level of Islam. As, I said earlier, it is not even possible to see a girl in a Pakistani university, without any covering such as a burqa or hijab, let alone flirt with them. Like at least in my area situation is like this. Addition to that, even if I managed to go against the grain of my culture and somehow managed to approach a girl very secretly, in Pakistan then the girl will refuse to date with me because she will be with her religion which is Islam. According to her level of Islam, dating is prohibited without marriage so it is not possible for me to date her without marriage and I cannot afford marriage without mastering my finances. So my only hope with this is to go abroad after finishing my university which is what I am currently working on.
  21. I am looking to get into medicine. I am looking to become a doctor. FYI, to become a doctor one needs to have a medical degree and cannot 100 percent rely on the internet.
  22. I joined an online academy to help me prepare for my entrance test for my university. Its kind of like a teaching centre. I paid them the initial amount and they kept on charging me as time was going. However, unexpectedly, my mom had a fight with the person who was in charge of academy by yelling at him due to them forgetting to mention the full price. Hence, they forgot to mention the full price by like 50 dollars due to the delivery charges. As a result, the person who was in charge of academy, suspended me, refused to give me any books for the money which I already paid him and refused to give me refund. I don't have problem in leaving the academy but I do have a problem in the money I invested in the academy. I invested so much money in the academy which is equivalent to hundreds of US dollars relative to the country where I live in as I am poor with my family. Now, I am suspended, from the academy, due to my mom and I cannot get my money refunded. I have invested a lot of money in the academy, which has all been wasted because the academy suspended me due to a fight that took place between the academy and my parents. I feel scared due to this and I feel like a lot of growth oppurtunities have vanished. I am attached to the money because I don't like spending my parents money. I don't like spending my parents money because I don't like leeching off them. My both parents calls me so many bad words and may also cancel my admission to university due to this situation I am in. I will really appreciate if anyone can give me any solutions or ideas for the situation I am in. Thank you
  23. Entry number: 26 Date: July Age: 12 Who: Dad, mom, my two grandmom, my two first cousin (O and H), my brother, my sister & my aunt Where: In my grandmom house The week before this happened, my dad bought for me Biology, Chemistry and Physics book for me to study during summer holiday. I don't understand why did I have to study during summer vacation. A week after he bought me those books, he called me into his room and told me to read grade 11 Chemistry book, although, I was in grade 7 that time. He taught me the structure of atoms and he told me the patterns of periodic table. At that point it stopped. I told him that I don't want to read Chemistry anymore. After that, he asked O a bunch of questions and from that my dad knew that O had amazing knowledge of Chemistry. My dad told me that he compared my knowledge with O knowledge. My dad became envious and he told me to memorize Chemistry once again. I refused. Then he had the below dialogue with me (It was something like this since I don’t remember how exactly it was): Dad: Son, read Chemistry and learn Chemistry from O. Me: I don't want to learn Chemistry. I want to become an imam. O: If you want to become an imam then why are you here learning Chemistry. Go to mudrasa to learn the Quran. Becoming an imam requires you to wake up at 3:00 a.m. and go to mosque and come back to 9:00 p.m. Me: I do know Chemistry. Dad: You don't know Chemistry. I am teaching Chemistry at one of the top universities at the world. Me: This is a grade 11 Chemistry book and I am in grade 7. Why do you want me to read grade 11 Chemistry book? Dad: In Pakistan students start reading grade 11 Chemistry in grade 7. Why don't you want to read Chemistry? Me: Its because I simply just don’t want to. Dad: O knows so much Chemistry. You should learn Chemistry from him. My youngest cousin occasionally enter the room and go outside the room to experience moving through the curtain. I was sitting their and studying Chemistry for 3.5 hours although I did not even open the book and I did not even help society. After that, O went out of the room and then my dad told me to memorize Chemistry. I refuse to memorize Chemistry again. Then, my dad yelled at me really loud which the entire house could hear to read Chemistry. He held me by the mouth and squeezed my mouth really hard thus crushing the bones of my mouth which result in some damage of the bones in my mouth. H ran to my mom and told her that I am gone which she meant that I am dead. Then my dad took his hand and beat me really hard multiple times. After that I somehow managed to make my nose bleed. Then he took me to the washroom and made me stand their to treat my bleeding nose. He told me to put cold water over my head and wash me nose with cold water too. I went to the washroom without any shoes. Then I came out. My grand mother and my grand mother sister entered the room and ask what is going on? My dad put a big smile happy face and told to them both that nothing happened. My grandmother put her hand on my head and asked me what happened? My dad put a big smile on his face and told my grand mother that nothing happened. At that current moment I was memorizing Chemistry. Later, my mom came and asked my dad whether she should cook food for me. My dad told to my mom to not cook any food for me.
  24. I feel like I need to take out all my traumatic experiences out of my memory. So, I will write all of my traumatic memories over here, just because it helps me to take it out of my head. ================================================================ Entry number: 1 Date: Around March,2016 Where: Jawahir Al Riyadh International School Age: 11 Grade: 6 Who: Seraj Ali (My worst teacher ever) Sir Seraj was giving a boring crusty lesson on Science which he does not know. I was sitting in the class and I felt like my blood frozed due to sitting in class for several hours doing me nothing. Also, Mr. Seraj English was horrible. Since, I did not have much fun those days so I have decided to chill with Hassam Zameer Hassan. Hassam told me a fee jokes which made me to laugh and chuckle in the class. Then, Mr. Seraj told me and Hassam to stand up as my punishment. I stood up and stared my face down at the table. Then I laughed even harder which I could not hear at that time since I did not have hearing aids. Seraj took 4 steps and slap me on my head three times hard which may have caused me mental illness. I had another friend names Hussnain who during this act put his hand and covered his mouth in disbelief during this act. Then he sent me out of the class. After 10 minutes, he sent me back in the class near the trash tan container. He told me to face behind the wall and stand to the trash can. I was crying till my tears dip into the trash can. After that Mr. Seraj cancelled my trip. Then the period was over and I sat next to Hassam for the next period. The next day Mr. Seraj publicly announced the cancellation of my trip. However a few days later he re schedule and allowed me to go for my trip in JARIS. Entry number: 2 Date: I dont remember Where: Jawahir Al Riyadh International School Age: 10 Grade: 5 Who: Akhtar Ali Akhtar Ali was my computer science teacher. He came into my class 5-C. It happened during the early time of the day. Akhtar Ali came to me and did not like my personality so he gave me a very hard tight slap which made half of my face red. He told me something like (which I don’t recall) don’t show me your ugly theeth. Entry number: 3 Date: N/A Where: The educators Age: 7 Grade: 1 Who: Principal, custodians, mom, shop keeper, classmates, grandmother, staff members. I studied my grade 1 in The Educators. Their was this shop in our school which in urdu its called,"dukan". We used to buy things from the morning and from afternoon. I was curious at behind the shop and at the unexplored territory of the school. I was wandering from behind the school and I went out. Then I told to my classmates the same thing to come and check out behind the school at the unexplored territory. Once, as I was traveling then I saw a bunch of classmates running in the opposite direction. I was wondering that why are they traveling and running away from the opposite direction. Until a school monitor approached and hold me. He told me something like (I don’t remember) do not come in this place ever again else I will break your teeth. Finally I with my group of classmates went through the place. I think that was the place to cook things for the shop. My classmates took a bunch of dishes made of glass and threw it from the roof of the school to the streets. Then we ran away. My class blamed me and all of them put me in charge for this crime. After that the school principal called my mom and told my mom,"To come to school right now at the moment". My mom thought that something bad happened. A custodian came in the school and asked me that why did I break all the dishes.Then I was called to the principal office due to my class crimes which they blamed upon me. I showed up to the office with my principle, a bunch of staff members and my mom. They all questioned me that why did I break the dishes which if I am guilty of then I am not alone because my class broke the dishes with me. Then I got a big tight slap from my mom after which I turned my face to the wall and I tried to go to the staff office. However my staff members stop me. I saw my mom giving 1500 rupees to the shop keeper for breaking dishes. After that I was taken to home with no cheetos. Entry number: 4 Date: Sun, Oct 24th 2020 Where: JARIS Age: 10 Grade: 5 Who: Mattiullah (Quran teacher) In the class, we were reading the Quran. I was looking at Mattiullah face rather than the Quran. Than Mattiullah hit me on the head so hard which made a huge sound echo across the class and yelled at me to stop staring at him and to look in the Quran, not at him. Then my friend asked me that who did sir Matti ullah beat and I said, it was me who he beat. Entry number: 5 Date: Mar 11th, 2020 Age: 11 Grade: 6 Who: Khurram (Urdu teacher) Khurram returned us our urdu exams. I got 52 percent in my urdu exam. As a result, Khurram bought me infront of the class and beat me with a ruler on my both hands once. He said something like(I don’t remember),"If you not don't study you will fail. Why did you not study? In future/next time study, ok?". After which I sat at my seat. Entry number: 6 Date: N/A Age: 11 Grade: 3 Who: Faridda (English teacher) In the class before urdu class. Their was my this friend called, Abdullah Shafique. We went to urdu class and sat together. He got up. I took a pencil and sharped it. Abdullah shafique fixed his pants. Then I put the sharpen pencil vertically holden it with my hand. Abdullah Shafique was fat and he sat on his seat with full force. Hence he sat on the sharpen pencil. Then he got up with full force and look back. He sat on the sharpen pencil so hard that the pencil broke. Then he got up and look back at me and saw a broken pencil. He then sat down with a lot of pain. He told me that class to not talk with him. He told me that he is not in a good mood. He talked to his one another classmate good. Then we went back to our home room class. In the homeroom class Abdullah shafique cried infront of the class and blamed me for it. Hussnain told the teacher Farida about it. Teacher Farida became angry and she took two rulers out of some cupboard. She hit be with those two rulers on the bedrock of the nail. Then she gave my parents phone number to Abdullah Shafique parents. Entry number: 7 Date: Around school mid year Age: 11 Grade: 6 Who: Khurram (urdu teacher) I got really bad marks on my Urdu exam. I still remember I got 13/25. The Urdu teacher took an iron ruler and brought my hand near it. He hit me once hard on each of my both hands. He told me something like,"If you don’t study then you will fail. Why didn’t you study?". Entry number: 8 Date: March Age: 11 Grade: 6 Who: Khurram (English teacher) He made everyone to stand up. He asked everyone one question of English which is related to chimpanzee. As students did not answer it then he began beating the students with ruler. He came across one fat boy. He told him that if he hits him the ruler will break and he will be okay. So he hit him on the legs. Then he came across me. As for me, I had hearing loss which I didn’t know in my those days of school. He asked me the English question which I don’t remember. As I did not answer due to my hearing loss, he took the ruler and beat me once each on my hand and once on my legs. Entry number: 9 Date: May or June Age: 6 Grade: 1 Who: A high-school student Once, I was running through the school. I was running through the staff area where the shop keepers of the shop make their food for the shop. I saw a bunch of students running through the street and were asking me to run as well. The high-school student was chasing them until he came across me. He hold me and took me outside the place. He told me in urdu,"اگر آپ مستقبل میں یہاں آئے تو میں آپ کے دانت توڑ دوں گا۔" Which in English translates as,"I will break your teeth if you come here in future" Entry number: 10 Date: April or May Age: 13 Grade: 7 Who: Mr. Kamaran (Physics teacher) I was playing basketball separately on one side of the field. I did not know what time it was. The physical education teacher told me to leave the time as the time period is over. I went back to class. I saw the teacher made the whole class to stand up with their hands up. He saw me seated in my seat then he made me to stand up and told me to place my hands up as punishment. He told me that I was 20 mins late to class. Entry number: 11 Date: 2015-2017 Age: 11 Grade: 5 Who: Mr. Jamshed (English teacher) When the bell of the period rang and when the period was over. All my class ran outside. My teacher thought that it would be gym class that’s why he allowed us to go outside. Then he saw all of his students coming back in. He beat every student that came back in. For me, when I entered the classroom, he beat me hard on my neck and then I entered the classroom. Then I saw him writing a bunch of names on the sheet of paper. Entry number: 12 Date: Somewhere between March to May in the year 2016 Age: 12 Grade: 6 Who: Tilla Muhammad I was standing in the assembly line. Generally the assembly lines are for like 2 hours to 3 hours. Students in my school were standing in the assembly line for like 2 to 3 hours. One teacher saw me not standing properly. For explanation, he saw that my posture was not straight when I was standing. Although, I did not understand till this date why I was not standing properly in the assembly line. He came to me and pushed me and told me that,"You cannot stand properly.". He then when back and told to my grade advisor to tell me to stand properly. Entry number: 13 Date: Around winter months Age: 11 Grade: 5 Who: Ehab Muhammad (Math teacher) Their was a class monitor in my class who's name was Hassam Zameer Hassan. I talked in the class and the class monitor wrote my name on the board. I still remember that the name which my class monitor wrote was the only name written across the board. Then my teacher came in and asked the class monitor that who was talking. The class monitor told only my name which he said that I was the only student who talked. Then the teacher took my head then started beating my head against his chest like 5 times and said,"Why were you talking my friend?". Entry number: 14 Date: February Age: 12 Grade: 6 Who: Ehab Muhammad One student from Mr Ehab class in grade 5 complained to Mr Ehab about me in grade 6 which I did not understand. That student came to my class and picked me. He told me to come with him to Mr. Ehab. Mr. Ehab told me to sit down and stand then again he told me to do the same thing. After that he let me go telling me that for now he did not hit me but in future he will hit me, if I repeat my mistake. Entry number: 15 Date: Nov to Feb Age: 11 Grade: 5 Who: Ehab Muhammad Once I forgot to bring the graph paper to my Math class. Then my Math teacher made students to gather in a line who did not bring the graph paper. He hit the school pass on every student back and when my turn came, he did the same to me. Entry number: 16 Date: Nov to Feb Age: 11 Grade: 5 Who: Ehab Muhammad Their was one assignment for my Math class. One student hand in sloppy work. Then the teacher taught I was that student who handed in sloppy work which I was not and got me punished. Entry number: 18 Date: N/A Age: 12 Grade: 6 Who: Mr. Usman Their was my this one classmate name Asim. Asim and I had a scuffle after which Asim gave me a slap and ran away. My mom called the vice principal about this. The vice principal took me and Asim to his office. The vice principal asked us both to write on a piece of paper in regards to what happened between us. The vice principle sent this teacher known as Mr. Usman to investigate . Mr. Usman came to the class and called our both names during which time we were taking exams. Mr. Usman asked my class teacher as to about us both. The class teacher gave negative comments about both me and Asim. After finishing our exams, Mr. Usman asked Asim and me to what happened. Mr. Usman pulled both me and my classmate hair. Also, he hit me and my classmate too without proper investigation. Entry number: 19 Date: 11-12-2022 Age: 11 Grade: 5 Who: Mr. Ikhram (Islamic teacher) I was talking a lot in class and laughing a lot. Sir Ikhram hit me on the back very hard and threw me out of the class due to that. Entry number: 20 Date: N/A Age: 7 Grade: 1 Who: English teacher One classmate complained to the English teacher and told about my fights with students. Then the English teacher took a ruler and hit on my buttocks at least thrice. Entry number: 21 Date: N/A Age: 7 Grade: 1 Who: English teacher I was talking with a bunch of students in the classroom. The English teacher took a book and hit every student on their back including me for talking. Entry number: 22 Date: N/A Age: 7 Grade: 1 Who: English teacher I was roaming around the school. My English teacher saw that. My English teacher took me outside the classroom and warn me to not roam around the school. Entry number: 23 Date: N/A Age: 7 Grade: 1 Who: Urdu teacher My urdu teacher wrote a lesson on the board about urdu. My urdu teacher wrote and went outside the classroom. Then four classmates misbehaved as their was no teacher in the room. My urdu teacher was secretly seeing what we were doing in the class. One classmate was roaming around. The other two were talking with each other. The final one started dancing by shouting the sentence,"I finish writing the lesson." Then my urdu teacher broke into the classroom. My urdu teacher took these four students and each of them of what they were doing when she was away. Then she beat all of them. I felt emotionally abused during that time. Entry number: 24 Date: N/A Age: 7 Grade: 1 Who: Urdu teacher I was writing a few urdu words on the table. The urdu teacher saw my writing on the table and hit me on my head like a slap because she told me that I should be writing on the notebook instead of the table. Entry number: 25 Date: N/A Age: 7 Grade: 1 Who: Urdu teacher My urdu teacher saw me talking. The urdu teacher yelled at me and screamed at me to stop talking.